University of Hello bright shiny new morning

 dear xanga,

    As nice as the last couple years have been, I am afraid I am going to have to decline your offer to go premium.  I have shared things with you that I never thought I could.  There have been ups and downs, and even times when yes, I didn't even bother because I knew you would just make me mad.  The   joys that you have brought me have certainly outnumbered the bad and I will never ever regret this experience.  You helped me grow as a person, both inside and out. 
But like many stories, this one must come to a screeching halt.  It seems that I just dont wake up every morning with the anticiaption of what your messages will hold for me..and I have to be honest with you..there's someone else...
Myspace has taken over what you could not give to me.  It seems that's happening to alot of people, and i hate to conform and leave you alone, but we both knew it would happen one day...
Maybe one day i will be back, I know I'll miss you

Until then, lets keep in touch

                                                      Love and truely,
                                                                Courtenay

lets stroll down memory lane..you have been there for so much

u accepted my friends
we have been happy
and we have been sad together

youve been there for this one too
you knew I was crazy, and loved me the same
leaving you is a leap of faith but I'm stronger because of it

I love you ol pal

I'm not angry anymore, becasue I know you did what you felt was right
People dont affect me much anymore, I dont even want to be involved with that
Lies and betrayal..its all drama and I'm finished
whenever you want to come around, maybe I'll be here

but maybe I wont

I'm not going to be taken advantage of anymore

I shoulda listened to my daddy to begin with

I'm too good for this.

.HA

you have a way of coming easily to me
and when you take you take the very best of me
so i start a fight cause I need to feel something
and you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
just walk away, aint no use defending words
that you will never say
and now that I'm sitting here thikning it through
Ive never been anywhere cold as you

You out up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
and I stood there loving you and wished them all away
and you come away with a great little story
with the mess of a dreamer, with the nerve to adore you

Let me just sit here &
pretend like i'm worth
something to you.

I lost him....

                        .....again

I just dont know if its worth it

why do I have to be the one to suffer..I'm not doing anything wrong...I seem to always try and put the blame on me for what others do and how they treat me..but I'm tired of it..so tired
so when you're ready to come around, let me know because I'm done chasing after it

"Broken"

Wake up to a sunny day, not a cloud up in the sky
Then it starts to rain, my defenses hit the ground
And they shatter all around, so open and exposed
I found strength in the struggle
Face to face with my trouble

When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in yourself
When you're broken

Little girl don't be so blue
I know what you're going through
Don't let it beat you up
Heaven knows that getting scars
Only makes you who you are
Only makes you who you are
No matter how much your heart is aching
There is beauty in the breaking
Yeah

When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in yourself
When you're broken

Better days are gonna find you once again
Every piece will find its place

When you're broken, when you're broken

When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in yourself
When you're broken
Oh, when you're broken
When you're broken
When you're broken