| i dont
know whats been up with me these past few months, whether its school,
work or family, i never seem to accomplish my goals.. i havent been
satisfied with anything ive done so far.
school
has really hit me hard, im starting to think if i am really ready for
the road that i've chosen. just the thought about this fall semester
and the work load just gives me a headache. on top of that i need to
raise my gpa for med schools to even consider looking at my
application. and med school apps, like omg! and then i have to study
for the mcat which i know for sure im not ready for. i think i need a
refresher course. actually, im scared. im scared of failure. i cant
even think about not getting into med school. its a MUST. i dont know
what else to do in life besides being a pediatrician.
i love kids i really do!!
family....
theres been so much going on.. my uncle in vietnam just passed away the
same way my dad passed away. i feel sorry for my aunt bc i know how it
feels to lose someone you love so much. just hearing about his death
makes me miss my dad soo much. today my coworker took me to go get
tapioca in my car and he asked who takes care of my car, usually people
would say their dad. i paused for a second or two because i didnt know
what to say. in reality, noone does, i just drive it the way it is. i
really dont know whats up. and if something isnt the way i think it is
i would tell my mom. i love my mom soo much but it feels weird to say i
love you mom. i odnt know if its just me but i know my mom knows i love
her. eheh i know shes going through alot now and i just do everything
she wants me to do. ive been restricted from doing many things a 20
year old should be able to do and sometimes i feel sad abotu it. ill
eventually retaliate and rebel against my mom but right now, thats the
last thing i want to do. the last thing i want to do is give her more
pain than she already has and will endure.
yoyo
got me this job at this viet restaurant down kirby and richmond. its
been good so far, it just opened so everythign takes time to build up.
im not complaining. well atleast i think im not. everyone there is
cool, some cooler than others. some bitchier than others. some greedier
than others. but let me tell yall. im the coolest of them. actually ive
been pretty happy since i got this job. its fun. i work by myself at
ssi so working at this restaurant is alot more livelier.
is that a word? ahah
so
thats my life update. not to much to inform you on, i just wanted to
get some of thisstress out of me. it would be better if i would call
someone and talk it out to them but whatever. im on myspace might as
well do a little blog.
ohhh so
like i forgot to mention about the love part of my life....
nevermind... ill just leave it to myself. =] i wonder if anyone ever
reads this. my myspace is so plain you would totally pass up this blog
of mine. im not writing this blog to make people feel pity for me. i
might be 20 and i might act clumsy but dont underestimate me! im far
more than you may think i am.
so be scared!!! |
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| tomorrow is a really special day for me. it's my DAD'S BIRTHDAY!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!!! |
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is he the cutest in the world?!!! |
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