This was what I wrote three weeks ago :
In the two hours discussion, my eyes were full of tears in the first 1 hour and 55 mins.
I have tried my best and say to myself that I m MARCH two student, no more year
one student again. It is so embarrassing if I really cried.  There is no tears was left
on my face finally.
Doing a research is more difficult than what I have imagined. Unlike making design,
I have no idea to do it and sometimes even in just a case study. Fulling of tears,
it is not only because lack of the ability doing a better job, but I really dun know
what is going on and why I need to do this and that. It was a long time ago,
the bad feeling just liked what I had in my first design. At that time,
I also dun know what I should do.

This was what I wrote two weeks ago :
I was told what I did was wrong again and again! It was really depressed.

This was what I wrote one week ago (review week) :
Do I understand my topics enough?
I m also a normal person ( I have eyes !).
Why they can see the space in the design, but I can't. Am I blind?
May be only those who are talented can see the space, but not an ordinary person.
Is architecture just a self -entertainment exercise for those who are talented?
We are studying how to design space for "ordinary people",
but "ordinary people would not see the space.

This is what I write now:
Tomorrow have to see tutor! Afraid again!
Afraid of facing failure arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..................