Oh my gosh..its been sooooooooo long... A LOT has changed its like..amazing how quickly time is passing by..Soon I'll be out on my own! Anyways. Friends..friends.. My best friend..Tracy..have been having a huge problem ever since some old friend of hers started coming on. Its like..okay..this girl..thinks the world is some fucking big black, dark hellhole where everyone is out to get her ass and her life is so tragic and shit. I believe its all fake. Tracy has been getting pulled into it..She is a totally different person. She says " This has always been me". Its lies..I know her more than I know myself..Shes like..my best friend, but I guess I have to let her go and let her live her life eventually. Oh wells. Another person I've been having a problem with is Jordan. He has been all.."he is the shit" lately. He has been hanging out with some bad people..I'm getting kind of scared for him..I don't know what can happen, I just feel something bad coming on. Mmm. Health...my health has been awful. I don't cut..do drugs..that isn't me anymore. But it all came back and bit me in the ass. Heart surgery...ehh I lived, thats all I'm saying. Although, for some odd reason, my stiches broke open last night, nearly bled to death. Then..funny thing..they opened up again this evening. I don't even think it stopped, I rather not look, even though I am a tad dizzy..But I'm not letting it bother me. I am going to be posting like..every day now..my life is totally different then how it use to be.. Es ist ein gutes ding, das mein leben vrschieden ist, habe ich herangereift und habe auf, ich mein leben der weg bewegt lebe, den ich alle entlang haben sollte. ..and, obwohl ich meine raue Zeiten habe. ..I ist tatsächlich glücklich.. ~Lex | 
