| everyone fucking sucks.....life is gay n...n n n n ......
thas all i really have to say fer the time being until i think of anything else........
o wait..the onli good thing ryte now is my dancing.....their wud b somethin else but noooo...that might all "die"
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| [[u cant believe all dis ass is me....]]
wuds good..havent been on here in a minute/half oh well.....been bizzy...wid skool n ish...so lesh do lass week-ago
*friday*
damn..went to skool n afterward went to tha mall at like 6..saw some ppl i liked saw some i hated it was all gewd..went to go c exorcism of emily rose im still debating on wether i liked it or not..ppl are telln me there impressions n its changin mine a very lil bit so i duno yet...i wud recommend seein it but not more than once so yea...i went wid kara//her babi padre//mary//kala//n mark  damn i gota stop wid him i swear...i dont wana like him cuz i no aint nothin gon happen but i do like him..i think ish jus lust cuz i no i cud use a guy around...but wen im around him i dont even wana do nothin....jus chill..watch a movie...damn we cud jus talk n thas it...he keeps me laughn n i love it...unlike everyone else ive been wid i wana pull shit n tha movie theatre or wherever we at..but wid mark-0 i jus wana talk...or sit next to him n id b straight gosh  its depressing......a lil...i duno wat it is...i get so confused wen it comes to him cuz i wana talk to him but i dont want to push it n i dont want to make him hate me either....i swear..for once im the one sittin here bein all nervous or w/e..ive NEVER been nervous talkn to no guy but now..cuz of him..ish all...physco or w/e...ill have to get a pic of him..cuz hes so damn cute..i had one but mai fone broke n i had to get a new one so i dont have it no more..*tear* but oh well..its all good...and he's yunger den me 2....which makes it weird i dont fuckin no nemore.............
*saturday*
work out the ass
*sunday*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MOMMY!! SHE'S 41!!!    
*monday*
+skool
+dance 630-930
*tuesday*
+skool
+dance 615-730
*wednesday*
+skool
+dance 615-930
*thursday*
+skool
*friday*
+skool
+work 5-9 woohoo ((get to c tha new sexi boys))
*saturday*
+license!!!
+maib 6 flagz wid mark n fam.
*sunday*
+work 10-3
+ FJDT pics at 430
....damn thas long
[[holl3r]]
ps// u wana do sumthan call me
312*231*5851
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| DAYUM MY LIFE SUCKS!!!
but wat am i guna do about it...nothin..jus keep on livin n ish like that..cuz im fucking cool bitch!!
[[holl3r]] |
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| [[ill jus wait til u listen........]]
i swear...i can never do nethin ryte...seriously...if its not one thing then its another...i cant keep a guy cuz i lie to them...beh im sry..i didnt mean to hurt u n neway...i no u wantd to b around..at least i thought u wanted to..u said u did..but i know u get bored wid ish very easily n i dont want u to have to stay around chillen wid me n "tha babii" if u really didnt want to so i lied to u to make it better...i no n the long run that i really didnt make it better cuz yer mad or upset or w/e u are....u dont trust me n u think im lyin now..i no...but wen have i ever lied to u..lets b real on that tip..this is the first n last time..i promise..i no yer prolly like "i no its tha last time cuz im never talkn to u agen" but i mean damn..must u b so harsh....i guess u shud...i deserve it...i shudnt have lied..especially about somethin as serious as that...i onli did it cuz i thought it wud benefit me at the time n u 2..plus people were freaking me out about the whole..either u cant pay for it..or the omg im so excited babii shower..n then me n mai friend ((like physco dumbasses)) went babii shopping n i started looking at stuff n i realized that my paycheck is 251. n some change ((cuz i onli can work weekends)) which is the same amount as 2 things of dipars n a carrier/carseat...so how am i suppose to put gas n the car...??...how am i suppose to pay fer mai fone ((btw..its coming sometime this week..shud b on bai fridaii if it comes this week..ull b first fer tha ..)) wen i onli get that much on a paycheck....n then am i going to have to drop out of skool...no cuz then i wont get into college which wud suck so then while im at skool who's guna watch tha babii..not u cuz yer at skool not yer madre cuz she works..so then who?absolutely no one so somebody is gon have to stay at home n watch the babii n i no u dont wana cuz u wana go to college and thas the same fer me u gota get tha grades to go to college...there was so much goin through my head..then i thought about u...period...jus u...n general...YOU....n i was like this kidd...he dont like to stay around hes good for leaving treats me like shit but yet he says he loves me wont give me the time of day to even talk to me for longer then 30 minutes not even 30 minutes sometime because someone else calls him..guy or girl i dont care...i dont get the same amout of energy u get from me..cuz honestly..yer tha onli damn thing i think about wen it comes to certain stuff n i no i shudnt cuz yer not even there for me..its like u say u want to b but then yer not...u contradict yerself n i didnt want u to do that if i really am/was pregnant..i dont want u to b around wen everything happens if u dont want to b..plus i dont want to b around if yer not around bein wid me n me only..it sucks cuz i dont c u ((i said that b4)) n it still freaks me out..no matter how many times u say yer guna b around..its like deep down...yer not...n u wont b..so i dont even want "the babii" to no his padre if his padre is gon b lame n not wanna b there eventually...n u always talk about the future..fuck the future...talk about now...ryte now tha present...cuz thas wat im on...the babii might/is (b) coming now n i dont wana chill n b like oh well n the future julius is going to get the baby some food n yer ass doesnt...i dont wana deal wid that shit...nooo can dooo buddiie..ima deal wid future n future is 1// u bein around fer me ryte now no matter wat 2// if u wanted to b wid me then ud act like it n 3//straight up fer once telln me howu feel about shit cuz i hate always having to explain myself ((even tho u say i shudnt)) i feel like i have to explain so that u get wat im sayin to u...so if u wud tell me how u felt n wat was goin thru yer head then it wud b all good cuz i want to no...honestly i hate that u wont let me get close to u wen i want to..u no damn well that i do...but u wont let me..dont no y...this is wat i mean about u bein shady...if im not getin close then who is?...u c...if im not on the fone wid u...who u talkn to? but w/e i dont want my babii to b around that shit..so i mean if yer guna b around the plz..shape up n act like it cuz im not up for the childish shit n i no u aint either but u shhooole is ackn like u on that lil BS. regardless..i still love u..always have n always will no matter wat stupid shit u do or have done but hell b there fer me if u really love me like u say u effing do......cuz i think u no how i feel about u cuz hell ive written u twice ((wid tha longness)) about it...sooo yea...
thas y i did wat i did
thas y i love u
thas y i hate u
thas wat u mean to me
i love u
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| [[its burnin up..]]
k so...once agen i hate boys n all the drama that they come wid...they suck n i dont no y i put n so much effort to do nethin wen they dont do shit n bitch at me fer no reason n shit...i hate it..im tryna talk n u wanna make a damn beat n shit.......
*i met ppl on sat. it was crazii...i met mai sweetnesses ((britton)) girl..ashilena ((i think thas how u spell it)) shes nice i like her..yup2...small world yesh siir...
oder den that ...........i need a new job cuz i hate mine...it needs to die.......ima get a new on eventually...
~fer those ppl who been hittin up tha cell...sry...im gettin new service jus tryna find which one i want....sprint? tmobile? hell no verizon? duno
*thinks* i dont no wat else i had to say so yea ima go.......
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