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Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 12/1/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: go to school n learn, parties ,talking, clubbing, raving, helping ppl, being online[addicted to the internet], cars, CRACK [haha jk], chain eating ,my hbs and hgs, having a good time, laughing, animals[the zoo rocks the spot], playing piano, n listening to music...among many other random things
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
6/6/2003
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| Frustrated...discombobulated...sad...n blah
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| wow...its been an emotionally draining 2 weeks since my last entry...stuff that normally only happen to my friends ...stuff that i seemed incapable of having or making into a reality... is actually happening.....wtf....this is more overwhelming than i thought...n this wasnt as easy as i thought....at all....so much i have to learn....so much i have to experience.... so much i have to go thru...man...i want to make this work!!! ....cant fuck up something that might really be the start of something.......
currently working under a diff. comp in garden grove...much less laid back n lenient than my old job ( time cards!!! white demanding bosses!!! set lunch hours!!!)...but i still like workin here....pretty soon ima be full time there...n hopefully making double digit wages....as long as i get a computer with internet access in front of my face.....im happy...
i need clothes!!!!! i feel like a fuckin bum...wearing the same shit over n over again...actually more like a smelly gross bum...ive sunk to a new low...wearing FREE CHEAP Hanes screened Spots Pro. big shirts all day long....wtf...need to go shopping again...thinking about my black trench coat at express that i want....i want it so bad!!!....500 bucks cheaper than the burberry one i first wanted...jdakssgjksjgkajklj....i yearnnnnn
finally found n dled my fuckin cosmic fusion song!!! | | |
| damn...im a really fucked up person sometimes!!!!!! Whenever i think about what i did to a certain somebody....i feel that sharp pinge of guilt n sadness ...i put someone through ALOT of unncessary n undeserved bullshit n pain...sigh....i have to live with this stigma n guilt forever....thats what i get thou
on another note... I HOPE UR OK...YES YOU.....PLEASE DONT FREAK ME OUT ANYMORE....COME BACK TO EARTH PLEASE !!!!! i care beleive it or not..... | | |
| hmm...so ive been kinda away for several weeks...had alot of things happen n changes take place!!!! Some of which are kind of TRAMATIZING and SAD.
First off..i got fired from my job...big surprise!!! Yea its my fault for not showing up for work....but...some shit happened during those 2 days...I dont really wanna say, its kinda personal n sensitive to talk about  ....Now im looking for a new job, I might get a job at wa mu from dennis' aunt...dunno thou....i dont relaly have much ( or any ) experience in home loans..but i need a job soon......i have a negative balance again!!! sigh......jus like back in my old raving days when i spent all my money on bullshit ( n pills n tickets)...i spent 117 bucks the other day on clothes! damn it..n i cant return them eiether..
i went to vegas last weekend....dennis won me a BIG FUCKIN OSCAR THE GROUCH!!! whoOp whoOp...drove up there n back with dennis, tony , n vu....wandered around on the strip...ate yummyyyyy buffett n oyster bar ( blehhhh never had raw oysters b4 ) ..vegas was the highlight of my month
i think i finally learned my lession ( FINALLY ) n ima pick up all my calls n shit when ppl call ( esp my parents)....
argh..arfklajlggjalkfg....got in an argument with a friend of mine last week...BLAH!!!! are we still not on speaking terms?!!! i dont think i have nething to apologize for..or ne isolated event to say sorry to...but...i dont want this drama nemore....i want my friend back...!!!!!!! | | |
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