| shit. is there ever a time you say something that you regret you said later? something that, at the time, seems something simply honest and just an expression of your feelings...but later it's just something you regret to have said because you feel like it didn't do somebody else justice. you judged someone when you shouldn't have.
i hate myself for that right now. sometimes it hurts to realize how much potential i have to hurt someone else. |
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| would it be too late for a sophomore in college to think about transferring? |
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| i've been very, very selfish
it's not all about me, jesus. i've definately expected life to be
handed to me on a silver platter, and it's been way too long that this
has been going on. i've been blaming others around me for not
taking action on MY part when what's really wrong is my relationship
with god. when i look at the causes of my deep feelings of
sadness these past few weeks, it looks as if when it comes down to it,
i just disappoint myself because i always have expectations of others
that are totally unnecessary. very selfish of me
so i hope you'll forgive me - whoever knows me and is reading this, and
has been affected by my very negative behavior lately. i'm going
to give a life with god another go, and i know it's going to be really
hard...and there are going to be times where i just want to scream and
be angry at god and want to resort to drugs, but maybe with the help of
a few close friends and with the help of jesus will i be able to work
towards living an abundant, christ-driven life
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