wow... 23... sounds so... weird.

i just turned 23 yesterday!  can you believe it? oh my gosh... it was a busy day.. oh, for those of you who haven't heard from me, i started working at a small animation company in southern california called KMC Films, this tuesday. hehe... it's been great. i've been meeting a lot of talented artists here. although what i do at this point is very little and still in the learning process, it's just awsome to be surrounded by great artists. coming to work and working all day long from 10am to 7pm isn't easy, tho.  as if i did some major work out, my body aches and i get soooooo tired by the time i get home. no time to do anything, aiya~! but i guess this is a happy complain... (well, i shouldn't complain at all, i know) ...hmm.. what else. my new apartment is NICE~ and big! it's 770 square feet, one bedroom apartment with fireplace, balcony/patio, swimming pool with zaccuzi, fitness room. i haven't got much furnitures, so it's like a huge playground...(esp. to popcorn and nacho.. they race each other all the time.. hehe) and our apartment complex is surrounded by Disney, NBC, Warner Brothers studios. (there is actually a WB mansion right across... crazy, huh) well, i'm dreaming that one day, i will work at WB... one day.... puhahahahaha ... come, come! my house is open and welcome to everybody who wishes to visit and stay. aiite? ;) well, kids(popcorn & nacho) are doing great. they love it although they have to stay home all day by themselves... but because the weather is nice and there are grass yards and big parks everywhere, they love going for walk four times a day and run around in the big, carpeted house. they've made a lotta friends already, too. and because of them, i got to meet many people in the neighborhood. it's awsome! (did i mention...? i love you, kids!)

like always, my birthday was... pretty uneventful. ...haha... -_-;; it's nothing new.. since i came to the States, especially since i've been in college, i don't think i'd ever celebrated my birthday.. it's bad time, you know. beg. of the school, a lot of ppl are not back and all... and this year, i'm here all by myself.. again.. hehe. this year, i didn't even get to blow candles.. (i was too busy to buy a cake for myself ;p) oh well. i haven't made that many friends here, yet.. it is hard. i leave early in the morning and get back late home, and plus, everyone at work is much much older than me. (my parent's age) well, once i choose the right church and start going there, i guess i will make more friends.. who knows? i will have a birthday party with my family next year...... :p but, there were few friends who called me up to congratulate my b-day. (thanx so much you guys- junarm, go, clara, bohyun, sungman...!) got me all teary... hahahahaha and sungman treated me out for sushi which was awsome. thanx oppa~! oh, and of course, my kids were there for me and licked my face, giving me kisses, ... kept me busy.

...getting old is a weird feeling. kinda exciting, worried, scary, and.. nostalgic. i don't know how days and years fly pass by so fast. i'm just hoping that next year, i will be able to spend my birthday with my families back in korea... my family is going through a little bit of difficult time(esp. my aunt's family..), and- it kinda saddens me to know that more and more of my family are leaving... or disappearing... or separating... without me being noticed. this is the time when i hate and regret the most to be so far away in the States. i'm always one beat late for everything for/about the family. it kinda... sucks. i wish all the nations are connected somehow. all cluttered close to each other, so no matter what country you live, you have no problem seeing your beloved people. ... hehehehe... i'm being too sentimental. soweeeeee~~~. i've been sick with stomach virus thing lately, and not having my friends and family here with me on my birthday got me into it. keke..

BUT! God is great and awsome. He still gives me strength and reasons to stay optimistic and happy in any circumstances. Because of His grace and protection, i can be here right now, without having to worry about being separated from my kids or getting jobs or being forced to leave the country... i try my best to look at what i have and be grateful, although it gets difficult at times. i just hope that He will continously show me His will and His endless love so that i will be able to follow Him with complete trust. you can pray for me for that, instead of saying belated happy b-day!! kyakyakyakyakya.... well, i hope everybody is doing good, whether it's looking for jobs or starting a new school year. ... and... of course, i miss you soooooooooo sooooooooo much!!!! muah muah! God bless you all....  May God show you His faithfulness and love for us all in a way He showed them to me.... you know, you are always in my prayer~!!