| My Return: Part I - Running Backwards It's been almost a whole year since I've made any update at all, and I was planning on going a full year without making an entry. But I guess I just can't contain myself any longer. After about an hour and a half of traveling through the past, I've concluded that I don't like going back. I've noticed that many good things back then have ended; and have ended such a long while ago. Its been almost 3 full years since my feet were still on homeland. Too much has happened since then. All of which went at such rapidly slow and fast paces. I have not seen nor spoken to many of the people I care(d) so deeply about while on Guam. At first, I believed to be the only one left out of the contact loop, but I've discovered that many more have been left out as well. In that case, is there a contact loop to begin with? Contact loop you ask? I define it as the circle of friends from home that still make an effort to keep in contact with others that we all care(d) so deeply for. But I guess this is where the "Xanga users only" lost to the growing MySpace trend. Okay I know I'm like the only one who doesn't have a myspace right now, and again I'm not going to get one any time soon. So I guess I'm the only "Xanga user only." Oh well... I remember being some what of a comment whore back in the day. .. There are just too many thoughts racing through my mind as of now, so I will be jumping from topic to topic. Of course, topic change will be made obvious via paragraph by paragraph. So as I've stated earlier, I don't like going back. I'd like to retract that statement; or rather, rephrase that statement. I do like going back, but it sure makes me sad when I do. Why you ask? (Even if you didn't ask, this is my entry and I will explain either way) Because, every memory I ran back to is nearly impossible to duplicate, now and forever. How do I know this? I actually don't, but I think many of us Guamanians will agree that we are approaching, or have approached, different times, environments, and people. Many of which might have come close to what we have felt back home, but none exactly like it. No? Maybe I might be alone on this one, but I'm sure a few of you know what I'm talking about. No, I'm not speaking of any one particular event. Rather, everything in general. Our first girlfriend/boyfriend along with the first kiss. Or maybe our first meal at Kings together with a whole group of friends that did not include any parents. The first time we all got together at a computer/internet place to play online games together. Or how about those times we went to other people's houses just to hang out or play video games or eat or play guitar. And of course, the small gatherings at the beach. Oh cant forget all those hikes. Or heres one, the first tapioca drink that we shared together with a whole bunch of friends. Going to school. Playing basketball/football. Driving and listening to music in the backseat of trucks (mainly mine.) Going to church with the Solid Rock youth group and/or the MADE youth group. Or skipping church with a few members from the Solid Rock youth group and/or the MADE youth group. The Coffee Beanery (if I recall correctly) Driving down Tumon for no other reason but there was nothing better to do. Oh I have one more...the first time we signed up for our xanga account before the myspace uproar....Hear (read) me out fellow viewers! What happened?! Aside from the obvious answers such as we just grew up, we went to college, everyone left...Seriously, what happened? ..... ? Pairing up an entry about back in the day with sentimental music from back in the day...man this hurts. Where has all the time gone? Where have all the memories gone? Where have we all gone? |
