| i wish there was still school. my freshman year seemed soo short =\ |
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| just when i thought nothing could get any better, it did |
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| it's like our whole relationship was a fake. at least to me. maybe he says the first half wasn't, but what about the other? it didn't mean anything to him, only for me? why do i still give a shit? shouldnt i just forget about it and leave it in the past? wtf is wrong with me? why can't i just be happy and move on , WITHOUT him. i dont want to love him anymore. i dont want to cry everyday. i don't want to think about him. i don't want to have to watch him with that girl, and have to find every bad thing about her. i don't want to remember the memories or care for him. i don't want to still feel that connection and think maybe, just maybe he'll come back to me. nothing will ever be the same. why can't i FUCKING ACCEPT THAT?!?! letting go is the hardest thing for me with him. i hate this. i just.. i don't want to feel this way anymore. i don't deserve this. |
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| hello. i dyed my hair. yayuh. bye.
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| hello. this week has been great :D. school has been less-hectic. and
yeah. i'm going to GYG tonight with rui and charles again. i can't
wait!!! ummmmm. and i'm going to leave for school in a little while.
well just wanted to update a little. nothing's changed. okay. bye
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