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Monday, June 09, 2008

He loves me

life is busy again and will only get busier but i'm excited! Even though i know the time spent at home was/is the calm before the storm. God has been preparing me spiritually for the busy conference season ahead . prayers please. thanks!

so over and over again God teaches me the same lesson - Trust. "Trust not in your own understanding but in Mine." Answered prayers galore is the story of my life (with the help of saints intercessions of course), not just for me personally but for friends and this world that i fervently pray for, and stiLL there are moments when i get anxious about certain things in my life. (?!) in college I use to keep a notebook of all my "Jesus Hook ups" so I could look at it whenever I faced a difficult situation to remind me that God will hook it up like He did those previous times before. i usually just journal the hook ups now but in the past 2 years i've been clinging onto Hebrews 11, cause its pretty similar to my "Jesus Hook ups" notebook, it list's aLL the different times God hooked it up for all the people in the old testament, and their issues were wAy bigger than what i've ever had to face, you know? so why do i doubt?

Fr. John lead me to Psalm 127:1, on my very first spiritual direction meeting with him back in March 2006. He repeatedly told me, whatever situation leave it in God's hands. His conviction in that verse and fact has helped me sO much. so anyway last year God shared with me a vision that kind of became reality this April and i didn't realize this til just a few weeks ago...well it became a visual reality in January through Seattle's Talent show creative (thanks jenny, marie, and tony bones) The vision was little me in God's huge palm telling me to trust Him...cause He's got it. whatever the situation, not to spaz out, but to trust Him. Then in April i went to the grand canyon and thats exactly how i felt. i blogged about my grand canyon trip last month but it didn't click that there i was, living this vision. little me, in God's huge hand/ the grand canyon

I know I've blogged about God providing for me before, but i must share another one. so like last weekend there were 2 concerts i sUper really wanted to go to. one was a $10 Common show on Friday, the other one was Erykah Badu with the Roots on Saturday. I had tickets for the Common show but it got canceled the day of, due to rain . and the other one i found out too late about...and nobody else was really down to go/couldn't really afford it ( i couldn't either but was hoping God would make a way? haha) selfish prayers never get answered but at least i tried? haha. Anyway you know how God knows us better than we know ourselves? and He knows our deepest desires? anyway since i didn't get to go to those concerts i knew God would hook it up with an even better concert or soMething, cause He's done that for me several times... not giving me what i want at the time but later on gives me something even greater than what i wanted in HiS time and by HiS providence and not on my own effort. you know what i mean? teaching me once again that He provides so just Trust.

k so this past saturday...i got hooked up to see Alicia Keys in Concert because whoever bought them before couldn't go anymore. k so thats not the hook up hook up, i've seen Licia before, so I wasn't dYing to see her, though i love her and she's awesome Live and worth every penny you spend to see her cause she'll make every second worth it, promise! oh. Anyway, so the Lord knows my heart and knows my joys, He knows i LOVE concerts, i LOVE live music, i LOVE singing with the artist, it's my favorite part, the surreal feeling that i'm singing those awesome songs with that awesome artist you know? but anyway, God knows all that, and He also knows i LOVE live piano playing so i mean Hello Licia is all about that....but thats still not the hook up part (Kiesha, Gino, or whoever's gonna see her, stop reading now cause i'm about to ruin the show for you) God also knows one of my favorite songs to be played on piano is "Tender Love" by the Force M.D.'s (not the fondest memories of this song but this song is just the jam haha)...i knew Alicia covered this song, but didn't think she'd play it but she sO did! and though it wasn't the Force M.D.'s singing it....heLLo it was Alicia...and man what a great surprise! LOVED it! HIGHLIGHT of the Show for me...oh man. and that is God providing for me haha. no but really, i was sUper sad last weekend about the concerts i didn't get to go to, almost like a spoiled child that didn't get what she wants, like that feeling oh. haha all asking God "why Lord? why won't you let me see Common or The Roots?" like i just didn't get it cause i always miss them whenever they're here, and it's like "what's the big deal God?" you know? like "whats the harm in seeing them?" like how we are with lots of things that don't go our way in life right? not understanding why, you know? but God totally super spoiled me right then when alicia played "Tender Love", God telling me "seeee i got you" like that was sO much more than I could've asked for reaLLy. Once again God teaching me that He knows my hearts desires and will hook me up - when the time is right. which i needed to hear with all the uncertainties of my future in the next few months. but yeah ok so this may sound superficial but seriously only God knows how much i love that song, i know there are huge problems in the world, but trust me this was God speaking to my heart and more personal than Alicia will ever know. hahaha

End scene.

k one last hook up. the cop checking my bag for a camera, totally let me keep mine haha here's what i got aLicia Keys ( that's not "tender love", i was too busy singing my heart out when she sang that but this is one of my favorite songs she performs)

Monday, May 05, 2008

updating so jenny knows i'm alive =P

...so since i left seattle:
week 1
week long road trip with my parents across the country. (mad detour back home) left Washington Sunday, then off to:
Portland - took my parents to the Grotto
San Francisco - my dad's never been and totally just wanted to see and cross the Golden Gate bridge it was and adventure trying to get to it
Las Vegas - Marvin hooked it up with an awesome hotel room on the strip!
Nevada to Arizona - saw the Hoover dam pretty cool
Grand Canyon - Highlight of the trip! it was my first time and it was even more than i expected. to some it might be boring but stuff like that just leaves me in awe of how great God is and how much bigger He is than me and my life. i don't know how anyone can go to the Grand Canyon and not have like a spiritual God moment. I felt like i could touch God there or something and I just didn't wanna leave. yeah...man it was literally awesome. But at one point i felt like i was 5 years old again because my parents were telling me not to get too close to the edge cause they were afraid i might fall or something
the rest of Arizona to Utah - a whole lot of desert, cool colored sand, and amazing huge rocks...
Colorado - kinda sucked. haha...it was super rainy driving through it and it was at night so it was kinda scary and then it was snowing so much that they closed the highway - booooo mountain passes! so we ended up staying overnight
Nebraska- hello midwest. all flat land. visited my dad's cousin. we stayed a few hours there, ate dinner then drove right past Iowa and made it home sweet home to Chicago at 5am Friday morning
Week 2:
Sy - Gabagat Wedding festivities/hanging out with friends from across the country
realizations that week:
Jhoanne's married!i'm home! Yay more seattle friends met my family. booo i can be a really bad friend. maricris is not here i really should rest. dang Candy can eat!
Week 3:
first normal week of being home. no more out of towners to entertain. Realized that..
I really love my city. the diversity, the food, our public public transportation (despite the occasional urine stench to go up to the L at the Howard and other stations) it’s still the best. catching up with my best friends is priceless. highlight meal, besides Gino's East pizza and Portillo's Italian beef sandwich this week, was bacon and rice downtown

now on to week 4 i guess huh?...geez

North West i miss you more than you know. praying for you all even more now.

on a SUPER HAPPY NOTE...the NKOTB Concert here is on OCTOBER 4th!!!! i have yet to get tickets but i swear New Kids back together has got to be the biggest news since...like...um...gee i honestly don't know. I've never been this excited about seeing someone in concert. seriously tops Janet and Green Day excitement and that's serious cause i'm obsessed with Janet and Green Day but NKOTB was my first love so yeah, i think going to this concert will top all the other concerts i've ever been to, and i've seen amazing people live in the past...like 10 years since i started going to concerts...yeah i'm thinking aside from probably crying with tears of joy I think i just might pass out there. haha yeah seriously, that would suck but i wouldn't be surprised. I got pretty emotional at my first Janet and my first Green Day concerts…so I can only imagine how I will be at the New Kids one. Ok now i'm done.

I love God

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

BFriendsSsF

so i caught up with one my of good friends from high school today over the phone and it was awesome! i love those friends where even if you haven't talked in years...its like nothing ever changed.
one of my best friends from home visited last week for Easter and it was super good times. my face hurt from laughing so much. i love you melis thanks for coming promise! in the 5 days she was here:
-mass at St. James (where Conan got married) she got to meet a lot of the youth and singles during our SFC fellowship
-Pike Place, Ballard, Tully's, Daniel's Broiler, Mass at St. Ignatius Chapel
-17 stations of the cross , UW and the pretty cherry blossom trees, stations and mass at St. Vincents
-went to Vancouver: sky train, chinatown, robson street, she met the rest of julianne's canadian family, ate sushi
-Easter mass at St. Vincents, lunch at Wally's, helped her make empanadas, ate dinner at kevin's, played rock band
and in between just catching up in my room and most of the time laughing at her . we were laughing super hard at the grocery store, someone had to ask us if we were ok, then just laughing super hard while I was driving, and then while we were cooking oh man good times.
Praise the Lord for friends yo. really
thanks zante for being the tour guide

my Holy week wasn't what I expected it would be...but i definitely experienced Jesus' great love for me through my great friends. Highlight of Holy week was Holy Thursday mass at St. Ignatius - the choir sang ubi caritas and agnus dei and i got my feet washed by Jesus love you, Lord.

ps. its starting to hit me...

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

random like zante

kg says the darndest things...
(when he was telling me about his last day)
me: oh did they honor you?
kg: no. what? are we YFC from the 90's?

"underneath this feminine exterior is a manly man" (?!)

"Christianism"

"rEEcAHnciliation"

"no these" haha

"orig"

"you were so tita status up there"

saying "uh." in the most inopportune times.

"aAwWw shoooot" (saying aAwWw like really ugly) haha

...and there's so much more. i just can't think right now. and yes i know, i'm spending way too much time with him. i need new neighbors
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quick update:

life is busy but fulfilling.

i'm high on trying to play guitar again. i have my moments.

yay maricris and i are on the same time zone!!! for a month or so but yay anyway

new incentive to work out more hahaha jk promise.

yay phone call from the philippines! - the trainees are living it up over there

and yay saw marie fe twice while she was here. good seeing you. i wiLL see you again.

wapato mission trip rocked. i love marie, kevin, elena, alvin

words i loved hearing this weekend "mija" and "cuatos"

reality tv = the Guecos number 1 priority next to serving God. promise.

i love my phone friends and sister catch up conversations keep me sane.
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Jesus plug:
stay close to Him. it hurts Him when you are far away. it hurts Him a lot, promise. He wants to be there for you, know that there's no sin too great to keep Him from loving you. Also know that you sin less when you're close to Him, promise. so pLease just stay close to Him.

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Fr. John told me to stop using cliche words so i can better articulate what i'm really trying to say. he was all "what do you mean by weird? you're always saying weird" haha i guess.

k bye. pray the Rosary

Monday, February 11, 2008

Agnus Dei & Sisters
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Agnus dei

Qui tollis peccata mundi

Miserere nobis

Agnus dei

Qui tollis peccata mundi

Miserere nobis

Agnus dei

Qui tollis peccata mundi

Dona nobis pacem
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another one of my favorite mass jams! i love singing the "miserere nobis" part (maybe cause its the only part i can really pronounce correctly ) they did this cool rendition of it at mass today mixed with the english version/ "Lamb of God" it was pretty

i think mass songs are underrated, they are some of the most beautiful songs with the most beautiful lyrics promise! i know people complain that mass songs are not as cool as praise songs we hear on the Christian station, or the Catholic church isn't as lively cause the songs are not all super upbeat compared to worship songs we sing in the community. But they are just as meaningful if not more meaningful promise. if you don't feel me try to really participate at mass and sing your heart out next time you go and you'll see what I'm talking about.

anyway praying that everyone's Lent has been fruitful so far.

i'm looking forward to more awesome sister bonding especially this week i just wanna say i love my sisters in Christ here and across the country, and across the world actually! the ones who crack me up the ones i can be myself with the ones i pray for the ones i play phone tag with the ones i love catching up with the ones who keep me accountable the ones who pray for me the ones who see me the way God sees me the ones who i love to pig out with the ones who don't judge me the ones who let me borrow their clothes the ones who do my make up (cause God knows i don't know how to put that stuff on) the ones who lead me closer to Christ the ones who i cry for the ones who i cry with the ones i pray with the ones i grew up with the ones i'm just getting to know the ones i look up to the ones who have helped mold me the ones who i want to be like the ones who have been there the ones who will be there and i could go on...i love you all.thanks, God.

well ok so i love the brothers too for lots of reasons as well (i'll save that list for another blog?) but i am especially thankful for their sense of humor...

i was talking to one of the brothers, and he was all "find me a girl" and i'm all "the only girl/lady/woman in your life right now should be Mama Mary" and he was all " Mama Mary is sO taken" hahahaha ...i think he was serious though...

k bye! PRAY and LOVE