so...
for like the first time in a really long time i find myself walking around smiling for no reason...
just sheer happiness.
which is strange when someone who hasn't felt it in so long finally can again.
its like my whole learning to be hungry thing.
it takes a long time for my stomach to realize that it actually needs food substance.
but when it has the food, that empty feeling disapates.


happiness vs. hungriness.


hmmm..
btw; i moved in with my boss and his two friends.
note to self: this could should be interesting.

1630 days.

ohemgee...
boredum.

i wish i had my paints and something to paint on here. after a 4 hour bus ride to and from the other side of town, i rescued my NES from my parents house and was playing The Legend Of Zelda all afternoon. i freaking love that game so much. but then i got stuck.  and remembered why i had stopped playing it. so then i watched some news. but then i realized i had already watched it earlier. so i watched some wheel of fortune and won myself a whole lot of theoretical dollars. i turned off the tv and decided that i would write, but i then found out that i had / have nothing important to write. so i thought i would have a nap, but i wasn't tired. so i put the news back on and ate my weight in sugary goodness. and now im here, fiddling around with my ipod trying to get it to work on this computer.
when you have a day off, with no car and no money things are pretty dull.
EVEN if you have the duck hunt / mario combo.
:<
my new room mate thinks im the best thing since sliced bread.
he's not sure if he should be friend me or make fun of me. either way i dont really care. he thinks its sweet how im white and nerdy. and i think its awesome how i'm nerdier than he is on his nerdiest day. he can't quite get over the fact how i fit into many different labels and he's not quite sure what label i fit into yet. living with someone you've never met is really strange. i, however, reccomend it. as long as the person you move in with isnt crazy, have nervous twitches, or listen to your favorite band for months on end [[ they wont be your favorite anymore, guaranteed ]]

i need to stop moving. the number of times i've moved in the last 2 years is excessive. it almost surprizes me. the last time i moved before i left home was from prince george when i was four. i barely remember it.

i really want to play phantasy star online. x__x

i just want to do something!! i hate being bored.

i hate waiting around for peopleee..
i just want to get on with my day...
x___x


silly people.

BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.


X____X

i swear to god, if i don't freaking stop sneezing within the next 20 minutes, i'm going to explode!!

*achoo*

:(((((

i'm part of this big broken wheel.


everytime things start rolling well, we hit the dent. we crash and scramble to get us going again.

i'm so close to keeping us at a stand still.
it's too hard to get us back on our feet.