Experience the question and the answer will come to you

Being spontaneous.

if you really cared, you would try. i can tell that it's not the same. by the tone of your voice, by the questions you don't ask anymore. it makes me wonder...is this even worth it? i think it's better if we just left it the way that it is now instead of pretending, because i think we both know that there's just no point. sooner or later this too shall pass, and we'll both be happier no longer pretending that neither of us can see the elephant that is sitting in the room.

i don't ask for much. but sometimes i just need you to be there just because you want to, not because i asked you to.

i don't want to have any regrets once may comes around. i want to laugh as much as possible, feel as much as possible, do as much as i can to make things alright, and try as many things possible, so that if i ever come back, i won't feel like i cheated myself out of something that could have been.

spaghetti. i really miss my mom's radioactive spaghetti.