| Bordom + procrastination = me on xanganobody even reads this
im just bored
if you really read this i might have to make fun of you
i just really dont want to pack
Im moving in 6 days
Atreyu concert in 5 woot!!
omg that means i have 4 days to pack!!! OMG! not good.
Whatever i put the pro in procrastination.
Im reading my xanga entries from like forever ago ... clearly... cuz im never on here.
WHY DIDNT SOME ONE SMACK ME ACROSS THE FACE?!?!
Gosh i was pathetic all i did was whine and complain for 2 1/2 years on how JP cheated on me but i love him oh so much and he loves me and we are getting married if he could only keep it in his pants!! and hes my beessstttt friend.
haha i was so stupid
then i was "in love" with blake.... yeah that lasted for a week... yes i love them both as friends.
Then i was "in love" with harvey when dude wasnt even my boyfriend and i wasted a year of my life on him
WHY DIDNT SOMEONE BE A GOOD FRIEND SLAP ME ACROSS THE FACE AND SAY FIND A REALY BOYFRIEND?!?!??!?!?!?!
thanks your all superb friends geez.
i cant wait to start college and only have to focus on that. :)
dear god why am i writing on xanga i really am bored arent i???
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| xxxwow xanga has changed!!
im super super super bored!
so i thought hey why not write on my xanga haha ive been doing this since i was like 14 i feel like such a loser writing on here actually...
lets review life
Im moving
Im graduating
Im in the longest relationship ive ever been in... Harvey
and last night... i was at his house and it was "magical"
he didnt go to his friends birthday cuz he wanted to see me and i went to the club instead so we got into a fight and i went over so he couldnt be mad at me
OOOOH im getting my license... and a car.... in a couple weeks...
oooooomg im so excited...
k this is old PEACE!!!
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| engaged... to be or not to be that is the question.Well then
Blake proposed to me last night.
and this isnt like jp like he wants to get a promise ring and everything....
which is what i wanted to be honest when he came home from boot camp thats what i really wanted was to be with him. and we hung out and we just fought and it was horrible i left crying and screaming at him. but we made up and he went out with some girl and they broke up and now hes like i love you and want to get married ill wait for you all this stuff and im scared of getting hurt again and im gonna be 18 in a couple months ... which doesnt matter he will be gone for 4 years. and im going to college idk im not ready to settle down yet but i love him and dont want to lose him either so im confused.
ahhhhhhhhhhhh... what to do.
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| I have been thinking about this for a while. ive been a hostess at bob evans for a year now. and im gonna start serving i think. i talked to mama marcy and amber about it today and they said if i toughin up and dont let people get to me when ever something gets messed up ill do fine. but i think i need to learn how to do that anyways to deal with people through out my life so why not start when im younger. so if people bitch at me just think go to hell in my head (this is what mama marcy told me to do) and just walk away as they yell. sooooo i work tomorrow morning im gonna talk to buzzie about it then. start out a couple nights still hostess saturday morning if he wants something like that and have like mama marcy train me or have amber train me because they will be able to yell at me if i ever get yelled at and start getting upset. so my pay is going to be better and i wont be completely bored. ill be better experienced for jobs when i go to college then i can go to like a steak house or whatever where its more expensive and get better tips which will help me through school!
im sooo excited and im studying to finally get my permit and im saving up to get my own car and ill obviously save up for insurance and everything. *sigh* im nervous but excited.
the only thing im upset about right now.. is tomorrow ive been planning this for months with jake i was suppose to go to kennywood with jake jordan eric and joe i guess... but i cant because amber cant go and mommy cant take me and i dont drive yet. so im really upset about that and eric said they were getting a hotel room but jakes being a jerk and is like ya not gonna happen and he's being a TOTAL dick to me so i dont even really want to see him but idk ill see jordan eric and joe soon enough since me and amber will go up to visit them soon. this has nothing to do with anything idk im just venting ill shut up.
imma go call my beattykins.. hell either make me really happy or really pissed. guess well find out!
later later<3
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| P.S.I got a tan today...
and im excited about it<3
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