Even youths grow tired and weary,

and young [people] stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the Lord

will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

they will run and not grow weary,

they will walk and not be faint.

God, please grant me that strength.

Well, I guess I will just make one extremely large entry that will suffice for 5 more months  I guess it doesn't really matter anyways since anyone who has ever bothered to look on here probably gave up by now. Anyways.... wow. A lot has happened since July, yet it seems like not much has. It always baffles me how fast time can fly, whether it's "having fun" or not. For the most part, these past few months haven't exactly been very much fun. They aren't bad, exactly, but... I feel like I'm always either really.... up or just like in a daze. I don't know. I enjoy school, or rather the people in it, for the most part, but a lot of times I'm just soooo tired. Not just sleepy tired, but tired of being tired. Tired of not having enough time to do much of anything except homework, and checking my e-mail or whatever (since I don't get on AIM anymore...). Tired of feeling like life is going by so fast, yet so slow at the same time. But then I reach these happy points where I just wanna go jump up and down or something random, and I think about how great life can be.

So, yesterday was my 17th birthday. Yay.  I had fun with some of my friends, but of course I don't feel any older or anything. And it doesn't really change much since I don't have my license and there aren't many other things that turning 17 does for you. (Yes, driving is scary and evil. I refuse to take Segment 2.) But now I can call Noelle the baby.  I just hope and pray this year will be a good one. There are so many decisions I have to make, and I'm not good with decisions. It's bad enough deciding between a Reese's Blizzard or a hot fudge sundae at Dairy Queen. What am I going to do about college? I don't know.... Yuck. Can't I just be little again and not go to college? I could probably pass as a seventh grader, since I've looked like the exact same my whole life. Maybe they'll just let me stay and continue in my comfort zone. But then again, college should be semi-fun, right? Besides all of the stress of classes, living in a dorm sounds like fun. But... also scary. I can't imagine my life away from here. I mean, I've never moved or anything, so suddenly going to stay in a packed place with students louder than I can be sounds slightly intimidating. Perhaps I'll just be a baby and stay here....

My house is freezing cold. I have my comforter wrapped around me yet I might as well be sitting in the snow. Ah, snow.... I love snow. Except that it's cold. I think we should make a law that snow must be warm. Yes. That sounds good. And it would still be pretty. Well... I have ignored and been distracted away from my homework for too long now. Sigh. I want to just go to bed. But, as I should be typing about right now in my Bible journal, "what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do-- this I keep on doing." Not saying Xangas are evil or anything  I just know I should be doing other things so that I can go to bed earlier.... So, I guess I'll go now. There's an entry to "scatch the surface" of my life right now... which basically tells you nothing in particular. Oh well. For everyone who read it (which is probably no one), congratulations. You have just wasted 3 minutes of your time.  

there's no place like home! even after my wonderful trip to virginia, i am happy to be back in my own bed, at my own church, and with my own language  ha, ha... ok, so they aren't that bad, but i felt like i would explode if i heard one more "y'all"  i really, really had an awesome time. a few people from my youth group- my sister becky, amberlie, kendra (who are now my sisters by turtle  ...long story...), bryan, jr (that's JR, not junior), my youth pastor greg, and mr. taylor (amby and jr's dad) all loaded up in the church van last saturday to go to "richmond revolution". we met up with a few other friends churches to fix up some houses and stuff in the area for the week. it was so much fun! it was very hot and humid though, but it wasn't like we were dying or something  then on friday we went to king's dominion, which is a theme park like king's island in ohio. that was really cool. basically, my whole week was like the best i've had in a very ng time. i gave a lot up to God which i had been holding on to for... a long time.  eventhough it was hard, i feel relieved now and feel more commited to Him than ever. i just hope things will turn out well even though i'm not in control anymore... so, the summer's probably like half over by now  i can't believe it. well, i guess i'll right more later. bye! have fun, fun, fun in the sun!  ok, i don't know where that came from.  talk to you later!

wow. i've just been thinking... i really don't want this summer to go by fast and pointless. it's my last summer to be... well, a kid with hardly any responsibilities. after graduation it's just BAM... plain ol' me facing a scary world by myself.  making a life of my own is kind of exciting but also very scary. so i just want this summer to last forever... ha.  that's not gonna happen.

so, speaking of not wasting my days, i guess i should get off the computer and go do something more productive ::sigh:: perhaps i'll go do HOMEWORK.  bah. noelle knows how i feel, i guess. both stuck with schoolwork in the summer. alrighty, i'll write more later. toodleedoozey!