Well, this has been about the worst couple weeks of my life.

I can't ever remember being this upset with myself.
I keep listening to "self-conclusion" by spill canvas.
It's the only thing that's really helping.
I got two D's on my report card.
I basically want to throw myself off of a building.
My best friend is moving away.
The depression thing's coming back.
I found someone who made me happy and focused.
But now I'm not allowed to talk to him.

And just overall, I'm the biggest waste of a life this world has ever seen.

SELF CONCLUSION.
by the spill canvas.

"Excuse me, sir,
But I have plans to die tonight
Oh, and you are directly in my way
And I bet you're gonna say it's not right"
My reply:
"Excuse me, miss
But do you have the slightest clue
Of exactly what you just said to me
And exactly who you're talking to?"

She said, "I don't care, you don't even know me"
I said, "I know but I'd like to change that soon, hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets

"You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me, how am I supposed to seize this day
When everything inside me has died?"
My reply:
"Trust me, girl
I know your legs are pleading to leap
But I offer you this easy choice-
Instead of dying, living with me"

She said, "Are you crazy? You don't even know me."
I said, "I know, but I'd like to change that soon hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets

I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough
And all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough
I could stand here all night trying to convince you
But what good would that do?
My offer stands, and you must choose

"All right, you win, but I only give you one night
To prove yourself to be better than my attempt at flight
I swear to god if you hurt me I will leap
I will toss myself from these very cliffs
And you'll never see it coming"
"Settle, precious, I know what you're going through
Just ten minutes before you got here I was going to jump too"

Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets

At first, it just sounds depressing. But it's really saying, "Just hold on. It gets better eventually."

All she really wants is someone who will
sit with her under the stars &
not want anything more but to
look into her eyes & say,
"You're the only one I've been waiting for."

God understands our prayers even when we can't find the words to say them.

i dream of a day when a chicken can cross the road
without anyone questioning its motives

suzanne is happy.

The best person to talk to during:

period 1?
Ryan and Sabeeh.

period 2?
Sabeeh and Kim.

period 3?
Max, Kevin, and Dannie.

period 4?
Matt H., Cliff, Jenna, Will.

period 5?
Matt H., Jamie

period 6?
Sabeeh

period 7?
Mason, Max.

period 8?
Katie

1. Who's your favorite teacher?
Rhode or Cerutti.

2. Who annoys you most during the 4th period?
This girl named Ciara.

3. Which friend have you made in 3rd period this year?
Max, Mason, Dannie, Kevin, Connor, Imran.

4. Who did you sit with at lunch?
Joey, Mason, Andy, Stephanie, Kirstan, Nathan, sometimes Jessica.

5. Which period is most boring?
ughh second, both days. I have P.E. and Spanish.

6. During which class are you most likely to fall asleep or not pay attention in?
computer.

7. Which class do you get the most homework from?
English

9. Do you take a music or art class?
Art, and I'm shining through that class with an impressive 23%.

10.Do you like school?
ehh depends day to day.

11.Who sits behind you in Period 1?
Josh and Amanda.

12.Is your best friend in your class?
Nopee.

13. How many kids are in your Period 4?
Like 25, 30.

14. Do you get lots of homework in Period 5?
psheaaaa.

15. Can you talk in your 2nd period?
yeah, but there's not really anyone in there.