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Name: Matthew
Birthday: 10/1/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: Im pretty much intrested in any shiny metal object that mindlessly or repeatedly swings,falls,bounces,or sits still. Im a christian with an emphasis of christ, and not so much on english or grammer. Most people think i have alternate personallities but really i just talk to myself so freak them out.
Expertise: This is my expert advice to the entire world:
1) Learn a different language
2) Learn 3 clean jokes
3) Have at least one sweet a week
4) Dont give up on love
5) Dont wait for love, find it
6) Guys, never give up your hat
7)Girls, never let a guy keep his hat
8) Be nice to people who look retro
9) Adult Swim (Cartoon Network, 10:00 central) rules
10) Write one poem a month
11) Find a belief and fight for it
12) Join a school sponsered club or activity
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  zanyact@aol.com
MSN: zanyact@hotmail.com
Member Since:
10/28/2004
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| All i can think about are depressing songs, so pick one and see if you think of me
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| Ok, so here my new and im pretty sure final problem. I've forgivin myself for causing the breakup, i realize jennifer and i will never again be together, im just not sure how to move on. Really i dont want to, i want her back like crazy, but thats just not happening so i need help on how to get over her and move on. Any suggestion?
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| So i've come to terms with the fact that jennifer and i will prolly never be "us" again(its not the same thing as forgiving). It hurts alittle but all in all im doing ok. I have a song stuck in my head "Lips of an angel" cant remember who sings it but i like it. I feel less pathetic (although she might disagree) which is a plus. The only major things (other than losing jennifer) is that im no longer a gamer. I play games now and then but i have to give up my title as gamer. Which is a lifestyle change and my roomate is going to hate it but thats what happens when they cause you such a huge loss, oh well more time for working out and doing other things i've always wanted, like learn gutair. I've always said that if i devoted time to gutiar like i did games, i would be amazing. I plan on proving it now. Other than that (no games, workingout, and gutiar) im pretty much good. This is a good time to uncover my roots
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| Forgiveness, its about never calling out someone blame. No matter what they did to you forgive someone you must forget about it and live as if it never happened. Its about time i forgive myslef. So here it me, my forgiveness of me. Jennfer? Oh i forgave her along time ago, but i think the reason i've been so hard on myslef (the whineing and always tryin to get her back) is because i know i cause our breakup. Well thats over. I forgive myslef for my mistakes (as well as her) and thats that. No more whining, no more complaining, no more trying to win her back against her wishes. She told me that she doesnt think she could ever be as happy with me as she once was. Im not gonna lie that was the most devestating thing i've ever been told and it put me to tears so fast. But i must live with what i've done and progess in the lifestyle i have
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| She said she needs her space. Yah i know what that means. It means shes going after other men and will forget about me. Fine let her forget. Soon she'll compromise everything about her. She'll become someone else, and the world will have lost one of its greatest people. I see the ending, I've always seen the ending.
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