Jupiter when he was a puppy, back in 1995. RIP my sweet polar cub.

*sigh*

Also, animals have no soul in the Catholic belief because God made them for the use of Man and because God made us in His image, that means we cannot put animals as equals and therefore they must in fact have no souls. However, thank you for all your support and now I believe that there must be another realm where they left this one and manifested in the form of another animal or being. I would be selfish to say that I can keep him all to myself or ourselves, but he did go somewhere else to make someone else happy and be someone else's companion.

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I break down as I am writing this. The pain is still too sharp. Thank you for your well wishes.

There are no words to describe the pain ... the anguish ... the sorrow ... the emptiness where once was life.

My beautiful snow white companion, no, more than a friend, a little brother, my best friend, my childhood friend ...

Our adorable almost human extremely intelligent, funny and everything to me, my whole world ...

RIP Jupiter - July 10, 2008.

There are so many things wrong with my world this weekend I do not even know where to start.

Guess you can never tell what you mean to the other person until they stab you in the back. Nice to know that a friendship means nothing to a 20 year old son of a b***h. "If I get it down on paper it's no longer inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to." There is this a**hole whom I met over World of Warcraft and had become fairly close to me in the months that Sean has been gone. He became a part of my family, my relatives liked him well enough. It is just too bad that he is stupid and naive, arrogant and ignorant. Right after my parents landed in Augusta, we decided to go to the zoo. I remember inviting Tyler along because he goes to school in Columbia (and yes if anyone wants to send out a hit on him, his name is Tyler Davis and lives in Charleston, SC) and I remember telling him "Do not hit on my sister." It was not verbatim but the message was clear and he gave me his word that nothing was going to happen. On the day itself he kept commenting to me about her clothes and her body. SICK! Then what really got my goat was that he commented on the sly that my sister is hot. I seriously did not need to hear that, especially after the conversation we had. He has NO sense of boundaries. Of course he could do that about any other chick, because I would not know them the same way I know my sister. I am SO F***ING PISSED. Even as I write this.

The trust has been broken and it became strained and tattered for awhile. Then we mended fences and I got past it. I managed to turn a blind eye everytime she left the room to text him, or talk to him on the phone. It was even pushing it when they were flirting on Facebook. There are a lot of other things here I will skip for now, but what happened that really blew my top off was when we went to a drive-in theatre together. They got out and snuggled in front of the car. They cuddled in the back of the car. In NO way were they doing anything remotely-friendlike. After ALL I told him. I said I would NEVER be OKAY with them dating. Then I was mad when I got home, they knew I was mad obviously. Then I went and did all my chores and when it was time for me to go upstairs, I saw them snuggling on the couch together. FULLY intending to sleep there! I did not allow it when other people were in my house, Suzanne and AC, I meant for all of them to sleep in different beds, even if it is in the same room. Not ONCE have I said it was okay to sleep in the same bed. I am a little traditional minded when it comes to that, it is just gross. -I- have not even done it on my own damn couch.

That of course crossed a major line for me. I told them that if they cannot respect me or my house and my rules to get the f***k out. Which they did at 0400. This concludes the confrontational bit. Now I get to go figure out what I need to do for Step 2. I am this close to throwing all my sister's crap into the trash or mail it all back to the address in Malaysia. I never want to see either of them again. Well I never ever want to see Tyler ever again. It is a total lack of respect and disregard for how I feel.

You tell me, would you date your best friend's sister if he/she said No? Would you cost yourself that friendship and ruin whatever relationship you have had? Even at this rate if they got married, I will NEVER accept him into my life. This break of trust, this stab in the back ... I can never look at him the same way again. I have forgiven, but I will never forget. He has made an enemy of one of the truest friends he has ever had.

BEST JOB EVER!

Best boss ever!!! Best supervisor ever!!! I LOVE MY LIFE! I actually am losing weight, pants sizes and all. Things have been so hectic, only thing missing is my goober of a husband. He is coming home sooooooooooooooooooon. The end of May cannot come fast enough.

Stewie is doing wonderful! He is talking clearer and clearer. He also now reads and spells, and can count to 20. He knows all his alphabets, and can identify tons of stuff. He also has his identity and persons separated, he can point at himself and go "Stewie." point at me and say "Mommy!" and point at his Yee Poh and say "Po Po!" It's adorable when he does that. He still fusses like crazy when we are at a new place outside where he is not used to, but he gets better. I hope. He gets into a lot of trouble sometimes, boys keep trying to get themselves hurt 97% of the time. I have come to realise this to my dismay.