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Name: Alyson
Country: United States
State: North Carolina
Birthday: 4/7/1979
Gender: Female
Interests: Reading, writing, horseback riding, anime, anime, anime, did I say anime? Studying about sharks, Sesshoumaru and Kagome as a pairing (you read right), collecting anime shi . . . er, stuff, yeah. Aspiring to be an author, drawing and getting ticked when they never turn out just right.
Expertise: Books, encouraging and supporting my friends, sharks, Saitou and moping about my horse. ^_^
Occupation: Other
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
2/26/2003
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| While the world reads Harry Potter, I just finished/am reading/will soon read:
The Storm Thief by Chris Wooding
Dreamhunter by Elizabeth Knox
East by Edith Pattou
I always have to be contrary. ^^
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| It's so weird to think that I've been here in VA for a year now. I'm still enjoying the job, but I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop.
I can't help it, I'm wired that way.
Mikey is doing well, celebrated his 20th birthday in March, and Ol' Creaky is still giving it his all.
I have a new horse named Joey, who's wonderful, as well. And what's cute is that he and Mikey are pretty good friends. I caught them scratching each other's backs the other day, but couldn't get my camera out fast enough.
My house is most assuredly haunted. By what, I don't know, but I'm sure there's at least one ghost cat hanging around, because I've woken up with it jumping on my pillow, and another time it woke me up jumping on the bed, kneaded the comforter a bit, then curled up behind my knees. And I will be the first to tell you that I don't allow any of the cats to come into my house.
We're just getting started with horse camp. Three weeks. Shoot me.
My current computer, Firth, has decided that it wants to revolt and has all but quit working for me. I can't even type very well on it, because the space bar is broken and I'm constantly having to go back and insert spaces where they're supposed to be.
I want a MacBook Pro. Anyone want to help donate to my cause? No? Oh well, thought I'd ask. /joking
I hope everyone is doing well. I just don't take time to do stuff like this anymore, because it just eats into time I could be reading, or better yet, sleeping. Mmmm, sleep.....
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| *takes a deep breath*
HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY
HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY
HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY
HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY
HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY
HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY
HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY JOY!
Dum deedle dee dee dee, bum bum.
Yep, random. I'm tired.
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| You know, it's one thing to know and admit that jumping scares me, and that at heart I'm a coward, it's another to have someone else pretty much say the same thing to my face. Granted, her exact words were "you're such a wimp", but it still hurt. So now I'm not in the best of moods and have pretty much hit the "depression" zone.
It sucks knowing how good of a rider I once was, compared to how shitty and scared I am now. Jumping frightens the crap out of me, and I have to spend a while talking myself onto the back of a horse I've never ridden. I like to think I'm a little better about it than I was when I first started, but I nearly cried with relief when I didn't have to get on Elvis to show him to someone who was interested in leasing him. I had a very good reason, though. He tried to flip over backwards on me twice the last time I rode him.
Still, the jumping thing really bothers the shit out me. Especially when people who can't understand what it's like to have your body go out of control and not be able to do anything about it. Panic attacks are scary, and no amount of "thinking happy thoughts" is going to help me get over it. I'm beginning to think that I never will get over it, period.
I'm scared I've made a mistake, and that everyone else knows it but me.
Xanga's changed a lot since I last visited. Entries have ratings now? Interesting. The horse is doing well, though he's ready to go back to work. I hope all of you are doing well, too.
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| Look, I'm alive and still extremely happy and content. Merry Christmas, everyone, and may your New Year bring you what you want. | | |
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