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Soooo.... Things are a TINY bit better...but i still cant get my damn license until im not sure...the end of summer im hopingggg...its bullshitt....whats so damn serious about a license, I mean...it's not like im gunna go crazy and drink and drive and shitt it's fucking annoying....i could of gotten my damn license almost 5 months ago...and im fucking pissed....but whatever....soooo....friends could be better....I feel like this summer is a waste because no one wants to hang out really...I feel like im a loner...and yeah just because i have a guy still means i can feel like a total loner...its not like im with him 24/7 because its just not like that and i wanna hang out with friends and no one seems to wanna get off there asses and hang out...I mean...we have one more year together and then everyone goes there seperate ways...I dont wanna look back on highschool and think all i did was work and sleep...I mean i want some memories my senior year...so hopefully this summer will be looking up and if not...next summer IS the summer...I mean....no one really realizes that we have senior year...and the damn school year goes fast as shitt...so basically we have no time to waste sooooo it's pissing me off....anywho... hopeful expectations for senior year:  NO DRAMA with ANYONE, cool teachers, goodgrades, more freedom, license, new job, varsity soccer, hanging out with more people, making more friends, less enemies, no teacher's strikes, making more money at my new job, better relationships with fam, and stuff along those lines....yeah it's alot but i wanna just get shitt GOOD my last year...I want this to be the year that I look back on and think 'yeah that was the best year' Sooooo I hope things go good...but i need to make that happen...which sucks...but no one else is going to....whatevvvv....gotta work at 5 BLAHHHHHHHH damnit....oh well....tonight im going home and me and ben are gunna play my nintendo hahahah cuz we are cool like that...and cuz i just got it working again soooo i havent played in FOREVERRRR haha, and tom. i work until 5, so if you wanna hang out let me know yo even though no one reads these haha, k luv u bye

-MZ-