ahhhh today i was gonna go to the movies but i had to go to some gay counseling thing with my family. life is gettin interesting eh not really. im FINALLY gettin that damn battery! so im FINALLY gonna be able to film. GOD it took long enough. well now im gonna be able to like make a movie and stuff so im pretty damn happy yea and like i can make the skate video soon. yea im pretty stoked. ive been getting better like every day. yea keep skating.

can ya do it again? do it again! can ya do it agian? do it again! ya.  i like that song its sexay! man today sure was awesome yet not awesome. for some reason it was like a normal day but im just stoked to have been in it. meliat grows on me almost day by day. i find i only like her when shes loud. when shes quite i get turned off. i love listenin to her talk, but since she dosnt do it much around me i dont here her talk enough. she says shes shy around me. i get suspicious of her friend sometimes. i keep thinkin hes doin stuff with her behind my back, except i know that could never happen. its weird though. her friend daniell used to hate me i guess but letely me and her get along real well, i dont want to get along with her to well though... she to hot to be friends with ya know? id end up hittin on her and stuff, so  have to kinda be like THIS CHICK IS A BITCH! when really i think she funny and stuff. the poor girl, it looks life shes havin problems right now, either that or she wont let go of a problem in the past. either way i feel sad for her.many relationships ended recently, my hamster chris dumped his girl shian and my friend daniella got dumped by this dick ramone. they both like cried its sad, (the girls cried) and it sends a message to me sublminally, about the end of me and melissa. i cant  help but think about how its gonna end. i really feel for her and it already hurts thinkin itll end horribly, me and her connect to well to end easily, but either way it WILL end its the way life works. and im not frettin about it to much its just a little depressing. today she looked at me in a new way that made my heart flop around like a fish.and i felt realy great. like the sun shining after a thunderstorm. i get along with her great, we never argue about anything. we both think in similar ways, so we agree on most things. its like perfect. but maybe thats the problem? well anyways this new medication makes me irretible, i almost kicked hamsters ass today, i was SOO close to strangling him. but then again it helps me control every aspect of myself, but it might exchange losing control of my attention span to losing control of my anger, hmm whats more important?