Lillian posted on her Xanga so now I feel the need to...I have no idea what to say on here or why I am even doing it.  I think it is cause I am bored here at work.  I am really surprised/shocked at how much better my leg feels having the screw removed from it.  I at least thought there would be a time when it didn't feel so great, but that has not been the case at all. 

This weekend I was not able to exhibit my self control that I normally do and was not able to guard my heart the way I know I need to.  I know I need to control my emotions and not let myself behave in ways that I know I shouldn't.  I know this is vague but I have to be, trust me.  I am trying to accept the fact that God may not have anyone for me, the outlook is bleek at best.  So I am not sure if it is a sin if I would still like to have a girlfriend?  Cause wouldn't my desires have veered away from His desires for me?  oh well I am so rambling....I figure no one reads this anyway...night