You are everything that is bright and clean
And you're covering me with your majesty
And the truest sign of grace was this
From wounded hands redemption fell down
Liberating man

You are holy, holy, holy
All heaven cries holy, holy God
You are holy, holy, holy
I wanna be holy like you are

But the harder I try
The more clearly can I
Feel the depth of our fall
And the weight of it all
And so this might could be
The most impossible thing
Your grandness in me making me clean

i pretty much can't stand it anymore...
i cant sleep bc im dreading the next day.
its only been 3 days and im already breaking down.
who ever thought i could be this weak?
this is not what i wanted to happen.
far from it.
all i wanted was to be left alone.
i didnt want anyone in serious trouble
but bc i did what i thought was right...
i'm dealing with the consequences...
and they arent good.
but from this i learn who my true friends are...
and i can sure say i wasn't ready for that...

i guess im just tired.
i need prayers guys...
to all of you are there for me thank you.
you have no clue how much i need you right now...
there are no sides to this matter. just right from wrong.

why would i lie about this?
or wanna get attention?
all im getting is nasty stares and rumors spread.

i have nothing to gain from this...
if anything i have everything to loose.

i almost died during my grounding but its overrrr!

saturday i had some fun, but my buddy is mad at me now (sorry brett, you know i love yooou) but yeah saturday i almost peed my pants and only uh like five ppl know.

the play is coming up...

and i think im done with xanga. i mean i might update it but i dunno i never have much to say and i dont get comments and its depressing.

buuuut i got a myspace
www.myspace.com/zestybesty05

uh buh bye!

so friday i hung with emily and we babysat my sister and baked cookies. which they totally sucked cuz we cant cook and they look and taste quite odd.

today i went to tech, worked, em came over and then we hung out with davie, james, and brett. and i broke curfew and got in deeep trouble.

so another words i wont be on for awhile.
my mom is very mad at me.
but i reversed it on cuz im just amazing.
i cried-lame i know. but its my mom.
old stuff got brought up. mainly the reason for the tears.
sad thing is tonight wasnt even worth getting in trouble for.
oh well.
ill live.
and maybe she'll figure things out and extend my curfew?
i can only dream!

peace guys!
wish me luck with no human contact other than school for a week.

and breakin curfew 5 times in a row and only getting a week isnt to shabby either might i add!

bye forever....

(im not really this cold hearted or a bad kid, but i can pretend right?)

Hey gorgeous!

this weekend has been pretty fun.
Friday me and emily drove all over omaha trying to find something to do.
then we went hott tubbin with dev bev and chan chan
Saturday i woke up at 7 and worked till 12
then went to tech.
didnt really do much
just visited with my kind of people
then came home and got ready to look nice
then went to church
then came home
chilled and such
then went to bretts house
lounged out and watched a movie.
we both fell asleep.
it was really hard gettin up cuz we were sooo comfy
then finally i got him up and at it
then we ran outta gas on the way home
so i was home late.
shucks man, i care!
Today i have no clue.
prolly just bein lazy unless someone calls

hope your weekend was bomb.
mine was.