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Name: Arthur
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Interests: Writing,hypnosis,self comtemplation,annoying the bejesus out of people,sleeping,my cat,theorizing and philosophizing(or to the non believers BSing and venting my delusionals),having weird conversations and arguments and stuff like that.
Expertise: The paranormal,more specifically reincarnation and alien abduction.Also government,insanity,freaking people out,writing,philosophy and space travel.
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12/21/2003
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| OOHHHHHHHH YYEEEEEEEAAAAAAHHHHHHH! Congradulations to Barack Obama! Take that 400 years of racial oppression! For the first time, well ever I guess, I feel optimistic about this country's government. I try not to get too overoptimistic but I think we have a good chance of averting the apocalyptic future I saw years ago and working towards the lesser evil I saw in more recent progressions. Just felt that warranted a blog update. I've neglected this blog alot lately, this is my lazier time of year. Tonight's update will be exclusively dreams and memories typed up from my memories notepad as they've been building up for 3 weeks and I don't wanna fall too far behind with these. Will hopefully update in full again soon. So here we go.
-CLM: Before Confirmation in religion class we got bibles and before Christmas break watched a video about the life of Jesus. Think that gave me past life impressions. We also had little church banks that we put money in I think to buy homes for the homeless or fund a homeless shelter.
-Dream: Truck driving in the rain by the supermarket in the parking lot, also thoughts of a playground. From there was in a grassy forest clearing which I now think may relate to my future life in Venezuela.
-Dream: Something with a playground then saw big ship crashed down in field, it was a play of some kind. From there I was in a dark bookstore and there were alien books on what might have been nightstands or the floor. After that I was running through dark hallways in a building and was jumping from rooftop to rooftop on these buildings.
-Dream: Hiding in some place, a woodpile in a house. There were aliens there and a fire. And there were all kinds of farmers, aliens and cows in the living room. I think I was in a wooden home that was very large and made of twigs and stuff and I saw a light or UFO in the sky.
-Dream: Was a witch in the woods and there was some refference to Free Willy. Think this relates to my 1600s life. I think the witch was off in a cool forest area and maybe had a whale in a pool.
-Dream: Was in some house with Eugene and Gina. Something with windmills and aliens. School ? talk of.
9/21/07
-Dream: Had a fight with E*** and she was hiding in Andrew's house. I think I was there to see her romantically but the house was off limits or her father said she wasn't there. I was trying to get her attention from outside the window. Possibly as part of the same dream or at least a similar dream taking place not long afterward I was at some school or orphanage rather. It was in a rural countryside and there was this really cruel or evil lady there who may have been a nun. As an orphan I tried running away with others and it ended with us going to Andrew K's house and jumping from stone to stone on a stone walkway.
-Dream: Another old one. I dreamed I was an Android in a post apocalyptic world and people were hunting down all androids to deactivate(kill)them. I was deeply afraid cause I felt I was "only an android" and did not have a soul so that would be the complete end of me. I think this was in the year 2489 or something like that. There was a mob coming after me and there were mutant spiders as well.
-Dream: In some guys backyard with small little monster things in a bucket or those things that grow when you put them in water. Possibly the same dream or maybe different but went inside a place where there was a party. There was an empty dirty pool in the backarea and the guy there was Chinese I think. I associate it with my simul life in China.
-Dream: Tripolis. I was on a spacecraft and was in the hall of a place on another planet looking like Mars but that was split into 3 pieces and held together by artificial tubes. Our ship had been lost in space for 3 1/2 million years. When we got out I think one of the guys with us got killed when we were attacked by some indian guru like alien playing a flute.
-Dream: English teacher in the public library. There was something about Mars and Independence Day(ID4). I also was looking at various sci-fi books and drove off in a car with a stack of books that I felt were ones that I would write in the future. In a related dream or perhaps part of this one some girl was lost in a library then jumped down a floor. I think she was then in a city area and had to pee in bathroom stalls in the middle of a street during a festival.
-Dream: Going into some place, a dark house of some kind, on Halloween. Inside I think were spooky books on shelves. Bats came out and there was some odd girl there and we ended up on some alien ship. Andrew was there or involved in some way and this was at school.
-Dream: In a foggy club at Chris's house. It was a future place and there was an old man on some ships. I feared the city area and was lost. There was something about the grand canyon.
-Dream: Adrianna in sand? or action figures or aliens down there.
9/22/07
-Dream: Giant snake attacking me and some girl in a swampy area house. We ran from the snake which came just short of reaching us to eat us. We ran downstairs from Chris's room. Then saw alien women in a pool holding children with see through skin, you could see the organs. Felt this dream was from May 8th or 13th, 1997. Later found out this dream was from May 21st, 1997.
-Dream: Was in a bookstore looking at Garfield books upstate in a rural countryside area. From there went over to the stairs and followed some girl up them. She was nude so I offered her my jacket and she pulled me through the wooden door into the attic of a small run down apartment. Looking out the windows I saw a highly polluted dark cityscape with cars below. She wanted my help in saving that world. One of my most memorable dreams, I never forgot it. The girl could have been crystal or represented her at least.
9/23/07
-Felt August 19th, 2003 I had some kind of important experience or it was an important day somhow.
-Dream: Was in the the parking lot at some Irish place by the general store upstate. I saw trees around there as well as a familt crest on a mantel. There was some mention of G.I. Joe action figures and maybe a tank. I feel this all had some kind of significance. There was a forest nearby and I think there was something having to do with Crystal and finessa swimming possibly.
-Dream: Green place with hybrids. I was underground some place by Andrew K's house. I think it was a place full of crystal and lots of greyness. Was in a small room. This was from 1996/1997.
9/24/07
-Dream: At a school playground I went into an outdoor doctors office and there was a nurse there. I had a sense of worldwide castastrophe having taken place and there were aliens there. May have been the same or related dreams of being behind a fence piled up on dirt at school, no way to describe.
-Dream; Guys and girls on plank beds or in a wooden place. It looked almost like the barracks at a death camp but wasn't one, it was nicer and not meant to be inhumane I'm pretty sure anyway.
-Dream or CLM: Not sure if this was a dream or flashbasck to real memory but I was at a picnic table with Chris very much younger and recall bees or something, death maybe at a picnic, a past life flashback perhaps?
-Dream: World with only women or ruled by them, they might have been catlike. It was a world ruled by feminists. They were peeing in barbarque like pits that I think were urinals out in the open. Was off in a green tree filled area before coming to this area in a town. Sex was involved maybe then I went into an office building in the rain later. Also I think where I saw what I thought was a futuristic building that I later saw at ********.
-Dream: Jenn in some secret garden like place, an Eden of some kind 308 years in the future or maybe 1100 years. It was sometime far in the future and people lived really long then.
-Dream: Looking at books in a library grand canyon place or fort being attacked. There were alien books on shelves or something that I was trying to read. I think some invoved tornadoes. There were aliens there and then I was in a store having a lightsaber fight with Justin. This dream could be reffering to the fact Justin and Keith said they used to do that in stores.
-Dream: A 1900s car picnic with a girl in a green grassy area by Maureen's house I think. Was a PL memory of my WW1 era life. This may have been the same night of the dream where I was trained to fight as a soldier in trenches on venus before going into a store and saw an alien hybrid woman floating around in or down a hallway. It was dark and looked like an office. Hard to describe.
of a town.
-Dream: Classrooms aliens seven? Mr.T nuclear attack?
9/25/07
-Dream: Standing outside a cattle car in a dirt area being lead off by nazis. We went inside some kind of castle and bats swooped down at us.
-Dream: I was outside a mansion in the cold or some place with an alien museam. Then I was in a dark room house old babies and abduction. Possibly part of the same dream I was in a cabin or cave on a rollercoaster and there was maybe a T-Rex there from Jurassic Park, very vivid.
-Dream: Spaceship, had lions and forests and some kind of ride or something. This was almost like a space ark I recall travelling around I think with Justin and Ryoga or Ranma. This was in summer 1997, August I think.
-Dream: I saw myself astrally move through a miror, there was an association with aliens in some way.
-Dream: In a large bookstore or library looking at books on aliens. Justin was there and there was a room with others and socks. It was hard to explain. There was a girl there who was older and needed help. There was mention of hybrids and we drove to a food place, confusing to try and write.
-Dream: Was driving through a town someplace, I think at the light near checkers on the way to Aunt alina's. I followed some girl in the streets and then was insode some kind of school where I think I had alien action figures maybe. There was a flood and I think Justin and some others were climibing down a rope made of sheets or using it as a parachute. Think a tank was shooting at us and I later saw a similar place/scene on tv.
-Dream: A house or store at sunset and there was a family with a pool. It was a cold night and we walked through a store. This was by exit 17 I think. Beehives were falling in lakes as I was going downstream and I saw myself in Gail or Kathy rupp's house I think, the one where I saw the "ghost" in the dark room.
-Dream: Aliens in someplace like the restaurant Mars 2112 but the dream was before our trip there. The place in my dream was green though.
-Dream: Summer 96 or 97. Rob was going insane in a house and there was a related dream at the amusement park with Crystal maybe and then criminals were in a forest area in a large futuriustic place like a space ark. It was an Eden like place and the criminals talked to a snake or were turned into snakes themselves. The amusement park was the fair they set up each year at the Coliseaum. Think Justin was there and there was mention of A-Ko.
-Dream: In some bookstore or library and drove around in the city. I was in an apartment(s) in a Ghetto like area. I think Matt, Keith and Mrs.M were there.
-Dream: Driving in the **** **** area and saw a German city rising in the distance. After that was in the Motel or a similar place being floated up by a light.
-Dream: In a field there was some machine associated with aliens. A tornado was coming so I got on a truck with some girls . Stuff was falling out of the truck and I was holding on to the back for dear life as it pulled me along behind it scrapping my knees. The tornado was right behind us and the girl with me in the car/truck was Crystal and possibly also Finessa. In the same dream or same night I was in a dark room at school with Rebecca I think and there was something about aliens attacking or a fight was coming, not fully sure.
-Dream: I was flying a plane in a museam. There were dinosaurs bones of a pteradactyl I think and a woman and son were there touring the place, I felt I was part of the tour. Then I was in Ed's backyard racing in some kind of obstacle course and there were lots of bees around. The Men in Black were also there.
-Dream: There was tornado at school in the field and I got on a plane and flew off in the last second to go to Area 51. Was in a limo too and hiding in my closet in my old bedroom. I was hiding my stuffed syl and other toys in there. They were there coming to take me away.
-Dream: Something about where I was on a busride and we were going to some place as a football team. Then I was in a tent in chris's yard and some arab guys I think told me there was no God which scared me deeply.
-Dream: Jillian in a treehouse in the woods behind what I think was Andrew's house. We ended up inside a very white room that was hers and I think there was something to do with aliens.
-Dream: Was in a store and there was an Earthquake. There was odd stuff there, alien stuff and there was a similar dream with action figures in a place.
-Dream: In a city skyscap felt it was Herald. Might have been a vision or impression rather than a dream. I was in some room hard to describe but was walking through tunnels and saw flying craft. I was impressed by this at the time because I later saw Final Fantasy images that matched my dream.
-Dream: I was at school at Chris's house and there was a flood. I was able to point my hands towards the ground like I was bending over to touch my toes and using this was able to push myself up off the groung levitating up past the roof. Was a similar dream where I and some others were on a quest to to walk around John Street and there was something magical about it. We ended up in grandma's kitchen on the stairs where I had past life flashbacks when younger. Also saw a foggy boat in a harbor in the same dream, was playing Tom and Huck on it I think.
-Dream: In a field with tall grass where there was a large willow like tree that contained a cure for cancer. It was hidden in an odd place, possibly was in Africa or South America(Venezuela?). I was in a doctors waiting room and needed to get stuck from this tree to cure my cancer. THen I was in a store with chris, Justin and others buying light sabers to help cure cancer.
-Dream: Guys in a dark tunnel or place where criminals were put in and couldn't get out. You could see the stone entrance but once inside there was blue light I think but then total darkness, no way to find your way around once you were inside. Then there were some guys and girls in front of a door in some place with lockers I think and black slabs maybe.
-Dream: Chris, Bill and I were in the city and there was some lady there with a shopping cart. Bill left my backpack somewhere and I go back for it and end up watching some odd film in a small room with this girl in a mental hospital. Think there was also an arab guy there. Film might have been about alien hybrids.
-Dream: Was in a store buying books and outside were ships battling and there was an evil darkness at sea. Then, actually before that I think, I was in a yellow place in a room upstairs in a backalley. There was a serial killer there as well as a black girl and possibly a son or daughter of hers.
9/26/07
-Dream: Somewhere dark green and red, war, anarchy, space pornos, not positive. Michael was there.
-Dream: Godzilla or Reptile world/aliens see a place, others not sure where. This dream had a dentist in it or I went to the dentist the day I had this dream. Related is that I remember when younger playing Dinosaurs with Susan the neighbor in her backyard and was thinking of reptilian aliens.
-Dream: Alien museam in NYC but Penn Station Mall next door. I went inside and it flooded and I paddled out on a boat of reeds.
-Dream: Tornodoes in a dock by Maureen's house. This was in January 1996 when I first started keeping record. I had a similar dream of a waterspout tornado by a hotel on a seaside. I was upstate in a coma and another place hole or cafeteria?. Also upstate recall a dream of seeing a green scenary area like Ireland, just very very green.
9/27/07
-PLM: Lucilla was born at 4:31am on March 7th and Tiberius Gracchus at 3:35am on March 12th.
-Dream: Four girls in nightgowns in a dark bedroom. There was scenes at a movie theater and a lion in the forest drinking in grassy area from a stream but was near traffic nearly.
-Dream: Melissa or Liz and me in a dark place and there was a flood in the kitchen, X-men or wolverine mentioned. Somehow aliens were mentioned and I saw a park children's playground where abductions were taking place.
-Dream: In a doctor's office or place then saw an underground place possibly with waterfalls and there was an alien connatation. Large numbers of people were piling into the underground shelter area. There was a human alien female hybrid too I think.
-Dream: In a place X-men looked like trading card comics and something to do with aliens.
-Dream: Witch in woods, whales, home alone.
9/28/07
-Dream: Melissa as a witch in the 1600s. She was in some kind of hotel and there were ships docked outside. It looked colonial but the houses made it look almost like Amsterdam. Prior to that I was in the woods and there was an amusement park or something going on. In the small dark hotel room I was talking to my grandfather about witches.
-Vision: A pit full of straw is lite on fire. A related scene is of burning hay in a Russian burn to locate the nude corpse of a Russian woman. I felt possibly this was to get people hiding in the hay to come out or burn to death.
-Vision: While reading life between lives book in the pages in the 20s I had a vision. I saw myself looking at my hands in the spirit world which radiated a light bluish glow. Blue was associated with knowledge, purple with wisdom. I also felt I only have 14% of my total soul energy in my current body. My soul was light blue in color, flickering and was darker as I looked through my hand.
-Prediction: My current laptop computer will last until Summer 2011 when I get a new one possibly as a gift or after completing my novel. But the current laptop will be my main computer until then without major problems.
-Dream: Hedgemaze. There is a mansion in the woods, old time lady in the woods. Similar dream of being on a beach and in a store in a parallel universe maybe.
-Dream: Being at school then was with Rob and Chris room. It was travelling house where I got alien action figures. There was a dragon in Chris's room that I think may have come out of a book. This dream might have been in 2003 when I was trying for Herald. I think Justin factored into this dream somehow as well.
-Dream: Russell in a place aliens ? inside girl in bathroom, odd.
-Vision: Got the impression one of my simuls died last night, she slit her wrists and loaded up on drugs.
-Dream: Knight got burned in his suit and a curse was put on him. Then he was in a parking lot and was flown up in a spacecraft to glowing faces in the sky that swallowed him up. Think Jillian or some girl figured in his dream somehow meeting her in some place. Think there may have been glowing things there and some refference to Spawn. This was August 4th, 1997 I later confirmed.
-Dream: Was in the library and from there was in some kind of other dimension. It was mostly dark but there was weird doors and shapes and aliens resided there it was almost surreal.
-Dream: Was at school and there was an Eclipse of the sun and lots of tornadoes. I was in a traffic jam on a bridge going into the city. There was like an Earthquake and I was taking cover there from tornadoes. I felt it was a polar shift. I think doctor octopus from spiderman might have been in the dream too. Jillian was there and before all this began I was in a store looking at monster movies or books I think about Frankenstein in particular. I think someone was also preforming surgery or torturing someone. Interesting to note is I recall when younger not liking Frankenstein or being afraid of him. Compared to Wolfman or Dracula he was my least favorite.
9/29/07
-CLM: Used to sleep in my dad's bed alot when younger where I was abducted and saw beings at the door by bthe bathroom. Had trouble going to sleep looking at that and seeing things in the dark of the night. Mom would often sleep on the floor.
-Dream: Driving off road to the hotel I met a girl in a restaurant I feel was Red Lobster. There was bamboo in the restauarant and I think it was made of bamboo but it was futuristic as I think there were mentions of robots or aliens. I think Justin was there too. There was more detail but i can't recall what.
-Dream: Was in a white house at a dentist. It was at Andrew's house. There were alien books in library about starships. Something about dinosaurs and aliens in space place desert. There was a similar dream with Rebecca and Justin at a hotel on Halloween. There was a pool and outside there was a swamp.
-Dream: I was in a dark house, mansion like. I don't recall much but it was rainy. I was under desks aliens and students there from school. ?? claimed to have been abducted around then.
-Dream: Was driving in the pouring rain with my mom and went to a drivethrough somewhere. Tornadoes came and killed us and I was reborn as my mom's child in the 2030s or 2050s.
-Dream: Justin and I at bookstore reading books about sphinx then was at some baseball game. I was in odd wooden blenchers with Andrew. It was similar to that dream of walking around that Hiroshima like place. We were on a bus line at ballgame LIz was there and had a crush on me.
9/30/07
SGC: Has my dad been abducted? Yes. Since childhood? No. Only in relation to me? Yes.
When was my first encounter? August 1st, 1984. I saw a grey staring at me doing something to my head. There was light around me and pus a glowing stick to my forehead.
-Dream: In hospital with toy whales. Then I was in a hospital with nurses I think in the woods. It was an alien screen memory that involved a school.
-Dream: In Herald with Justin and creatures were following us. People were using the bathroom. Another dream in a cage in a school courtyard. There was some Herald dragon creature chasing me in a future city ?? as my Herald form.
-Dream: On a stage watching a witch burning and another time more benign play and another one about a knight attacking a castle. The castle looked exactly like one I saw that Corday had been at.
-CLM: Remember an episode of Muppet babies where Fonzie was afraid of a dentist drill and had a dream or fantasy where he saw a giant walking drill coming after him and he wanted to have his tooth pulled out on his own before that. I found that scene/episode scary when younger. There was another episode involving Star Wars I think and a salt mine.
-Dream: Was watching a play with marionette's on a stage that looked renaissance style and had characters from Eureka's Castle. There was a field by a school or outside a school window. There was a girl there who was an abductee. There was a related dream where I was delivering packages in the snow and the sky was reddish. There was a girl there on a piano who came to talk to me and there was also an old lady there. These dreams may have past life clues to them. Think 1790s?.
-Dream: Soldiers in bathroom, aliens, acid sent ??. Alien in store, book in bed, toystore, videogames, balloons, not sure.
-Dream: Crystal Martian alien clang was into a grave? moved a log somehow or something.
-Dream: At school drawing aliens and there was something about Planet of the Apes and gym.
October 10th, 2008
Dream(2:24pm): Not sure if this was even much of a dream, more obessive thoughts. Can't really recall the details but there was something about life and death and the media being your greatest friend as it can record and preserve your life. In actuality though death had(and?)the media were ?? to the cause??.
2nd(1:23am-11th): I was in the bathroom possible as Sarah Palin and was not fit to be Vice President because I was too attractive, my body hair plugged up the tub drain and I was insane. I was at my laptop and could see my Jill pic clearly and I was asking when to free book day at the library was. My mom didn't like free book day because it meant I'd get more books. She kept no record. I was trying to sleep and she called Chris. In the dream it was either March or close to Halloween I felt, oddly enough. My mom was e-mailing her friends about this. Also in my dream on tv Palin was repeating one phrase over and over again during a lengthy intellectual speech 4 minutes long by Joe Biden. It was good lol.
5th(5:30am): In this last part I saw myself in the hospital and got really great care according to the papers.
October 12th, 2008
Dream(3:28pm): Was in math class in February 2000 although the scene kept shifting from math class to Chris's room. The Teacher was asking why the universe follows the patterns it does and why are physical laws as they are in the first place? I was suggesting maybe a universal energy or force(without directly stating any kind of God or deity)but that still doesn't answer the question of why things are the way they are. I was thinking about how dolphins are intelligent which somehow tied into this debate though I was unclear as to how. Then I saw jigsaw making the puppets used in the Saw movies on some kind of assembly line. That was how it ended. When I woke up my first thoughts was that Obama was our first black president who was assassinated making Joe Biden our 44th white president. I felt he was only President for one year or less(2012)maybe 8 months.
2nd(3:08am): Something where I go to Joe Biden and told me casually about a fear to my death??.
3rd(5:10pm): I was driving to the SATs with Craig, the fat guy from Malcolm in the Middle. He almost gets us killed in a gang fight where he runs over some guy and I get blamed for some of his criminal actions. Later I'm plotting to kill him but end up playing a videogame with little yellow onion like guys. They are in a field or farm area. I see a map of the game area that looked like a really crude cartoonish map of the world with emphasis on the US with one city(DC or NYC?)started on the map but it fades. This place was suppossed to represent Herald. After nearly killing myself on a tree by calling in a naplam strike on my own guys(like worms) I get them back by getting coins. After running through a small field towards a castle or something in the distance on the second or third time I play the game I'm going to fight the boss in some kind of cave or tunnel. It was suppossed to be Satan I think but the image was censored in the game. I was mad at Justin for lying about Herald but would never do violence?. Last I see Crysta the fairy from Ferngully floating in front of an animated version of the bank near the gas station a few blocks away and I found her highly attractive in her little red outfit lol. It ended there.
Also at some point in the dream, I think before everything else, I was at a party at Chris's house, though the outsode looked like my aunt's and the town looked like ours so alot of blending of locations. My aunt is angry cause in the basement there was a guy raping children but even after shooting off fireworks cops wouldn't come to arrest him. I think it was a costume party or else Halloween but the foreworks suggested the Fourth of July. So alot of date and location inconsistency in this dream.
October 13th, 2008
Dream(2:47pm): Ok major long dream! First major dream in awhile. I was up in Chris or Rob's room with Rob and Brian there and got Porky's as did Brian. He said it probably had lots of nudity. I said it had some so we should watch it upstairs even though I just watched Porky's recently. I was in Rob's bed talking? with him ?? and above his bed was an international card that was signed in many different languages(one being French I think, the others not looking human) saying get well soon. On the top part of the card, which was really more like a poster, was a black and white photograph of US troops giving some bottle water to children in World War Two Japan or the Philipines. The message was to respect the troops because that card was from them.
Next Rob, Brian and I were walking some place, a dark street in the city with high walls. We appeared to be going to some underground subway. I was walking a ways ahead of them so that I think I ended up losing them. As I was going through this dark subway entrance I felt very alone. I was very lonely and looking around for a girl I felt I was suppossed to meet who was just out of sight and I couldn't find her. When getting through the subway area I got there first and waited a few seconds or a minute for Brian and Rob to catch up. we all narrowly missed the train by a few seconds or a minute tops. The doors closed in front of us and we were like dammit maybe we could catch a bus instead of waiting for the next train. Outside it looked bright and sunny but with snow in the parking lot area. We continue to go through this area and see people lining up in big lines to get into some auditorium underground. I was looking around for a bathroom.
I suddenly wake up in my bed feeling crushing and shaking and sense an alien presence. I had not woken up for real only in this dream. After I get up from bed there is some guy in there stealing from me, breaking things or trying to hurt me somehow. I start breaking stuff or try to stop him and tell him your gonna pay for this before I knocked my dresser over on his head to crush his neck and skull. This appears to knock him unconscious or dead to the floor. I'm then cutting myself intentionally with the bits of glass I find on the floor. I feel myself going pyscho and i can't control it or stop. The voices are returning to torment me again.
I'm wondering about Manya and feel very alone. I get up from the floor and start walking through my house. I was thinking negatively of the government but opened my door to see my house rearranged with tons of US flags, large US flags hanging on EVERYTHING. Every doorway and every object in the house was decorated with a US flag. My mom set this up to celebrate Columbus day. Our house was much bigger and had lots of electronics and tvs but all were smaller and placed in stacks along with all my books and papers. My books and computers were placed in separate rooms such as a study or studies that my mom set up. I thought it was fancy but I feel it was incovenient and unncessary. Finally in one of the studies, the main one I think I saw my larger books arranged by topic including ones about China and the Holocaust(some of which were real books I had, others which I didn't recognize). I see the next one has books on Orwell, a giant one that contained half of everything he ever wrote and another one called Why Orwell Matters which had a picture of a large crowd on it chanting. I think it was a photo of the 2 minutes hate rally or possibly just a picture of a crowd in the soviet union rallying for Stalin or something similar.
From that room I pass into a huge, almost futuristic looking library which according to the librarian there was built entirely overnight which I felt was impossible. At this point I'm still injured and bleeding from the glass. The librarian is busy with another girl with major problems so I leave rather than wait to talk furthur.
Then I am walking through some kind of amusement park looking for krip/manya and I was feeling lost. The pools are all foamy and are water rides of some kind. I'm afraid to lose my notebooks there. I'm trying to find my things and am confused by all the weird events I've experienced so far. At the edge of one of these rides I get in a fight with a kid who said something about my parents. He refused to shake my hand before a swimming contest and jumped in the foamy water pool making it not count. The teacher says to shake hands and he doesn't so I hold out my leg and trip him. It hurts him bad and he's saying ow ow it stings! I felt guilty and thought this happened for real when I was 7 and I still felt guilty about it but I don't think this incident really happened, even though in the dream it felt like I was recalling a real incident. It ended there.
This dream was one of the longfest, most vivid and detailed in awhile. Parts were conufusing and I think there was probably alot more I could say but as with most long dreams it's difficult to remember it all. The dream seemed to emphasis feelings of confusion, loss, loneliness, frustration and aggression. Also alot of change and political/patriotic stuff, propaganda. Very weird and interesting.
October 15th, 2008
Dream(1:48pm): I was going downstairs to get my food and ate alot or maybe I was coming down after eating. My dad was watching a show where someone was saying something about the liberal media and he was like they had no idea what they were talking about. Mentioned some author Cazemen or Kazemen? Dad was saying how they were mentioned the Greek or Roman guy I talked about stabbing himself in the neck. I took that as a refference to Nero though i think my dad confused Nero and Caligula. Then he had me watch the show but commercials came on with sexy women in bikinis or nude and I felt awkward watching that with him and was trying to look away. That was where I woke up. Oddly enough when I woke up I watched a show about Nero!
Vision(2:12pm): Was thinking about Krip's statement about my gender issues decreasing in 2014 so I focused on that year. I saw myself in a bedroom in a place I do not recognize sitting and writing a letter at a desk. I was writing it by dim light and was sending it ro Frank I think. I was writing it by hand and it looked elaborate like a kind of joke letter I'd send him. In a bed behind me was a woman I did not recognize sleeping.
2nd(3:42pm): Something about people enjoying violence and sports. I think I was chatting on ******** with Lacy or Annie. Also saw myself watching scenes from Shrek in random order on tv. I was saying how Herald wasn't real and even if I can't prove aliens exist at least the UFO phenomenon made sense.
3rd(1:35am): I was discussing how reincarnation? exists even though each os us had death ???. Feel it ?? any country, time or william??. Sure not there? other stuff? about William?.
4th(5:02am): Something about McCain. There was stuff to be said something about life extention and McCain, Pow? pro-McCain. Personally I saw a ghost on tv? was watching something about population. I was watching a sci-fi movie about how if people were immortal or lived much longer at least we'd soon become overpopulated so strict controls would ne necessary. That was the jist of it anyway. There was also something about high school clicks and friendship, something about my DP and missing notebook(s). I think there was also something about Syl, Molly and taking care of pets and animals. A whole bunch of stuff on there.
October 16th, 2008
Dream(3:17am-17th): I was sitting in a comfy couch area where I think I was suppossed to be doing HW but was actually talking to and trying to e-mail hot Russian girls. Then I was at school in my chemistry science class having not started on my project due tommorrow. It was a tough paper that we were suppossed to be working on over the course of several weeks now. It was the same science project from long ago in other dreams. I had nothing to show and lster I still had more HW to do from other classes. I was getting nervous cause if I got a failing grade on this project I'd end up failing the class and not graduating on time. In class people were working in groups. I stopped to talk to an asian(Indian)girl who was singing about all the places she lived when she was growing up. Wasn't sure who she was but I feel she was a real person I knew in high school. Then I saw Dan H sitting on a desk in the library I think and he was saying how his was better than mine. That was where I woke up. Worth noting this dream ended at the exact time of day I saw myself dying in my progression to 2067.
2nd(5:07am): Can't recall specifics but immediately on waking I thought I had been in the Warsaw Ghetto in my dream and was thinking of the money Barack Obama would needed to get different groups to get along. I saw myself getting food and drinks in a McDonalds or some place like that in order to show voters I had the common experience of eating fast food in the restaurant like the poor. I think both candidates were there and I was trying to win votes by eating with the common man.
October 17th, 2008
Dream(3:46pm): I was at the window by the air conditioner watching dad mow the law with weird lazar like mower techknowledgy. The mower was cutting pieces of the grass and cuttig it into piles with dirt. The idea was put in the street to be picked up and thrown away later. The neighbors had only dirt where the lawn was and had a giant Japanese gong or temple gateway. I was trying to move the air conditioner. Dad comes in all sweaty and suddenly we're in Chris's house. I ask him about getting me food and he says yeah and goes back outside.
Upstairs in Chris's room/hallway I shake out my pillowcase for bugs and large centipedes came out and were crawling all over. I might have been naked here. In a small handheld cage or tube I had a cat and a bird compressed into the small space used a complex futuristic techknowledgy. Somehow the cat(Syl)and the bird fit inside this tube like it contained a whole universe, dimension or reality inside it. The same was true of the air conditioner which was heavy with parallel universes inside it.
Last I was watching a show about an Israeli agent from 1949 who is sent through time for romantic exploits or else women are brought from the past into the present. I saw one scene of women from the French Revolution at Versailes waking up in the present laying down in the woods. It was a series about time travel and romance. That was where I woke up. The part about 1949 was in B & W and the rest in other eras looked like it was in color but produced in the 1970s so didn't look futuristic by any means.
Note: During this dream the lawnscappers actually were mowing the lawn so maybe that caused the first part.
3rd(5:53am): I woke up Obama and told him he won South Carolina, no playing him?. I think that was the jist of it that I was waking him up to tell him he won the electoral votes for South Carolina.
October 18th, 2008
Dream(4:56am-19th): Details are vague but through my hiding of something a criminal was apprehended. I didn't think that online chat was world one?.(Can't decipher next sentence). Something with Sarah Silvermen. I woke up learning cy? for roll in?. I felt sick and was thinking of staying home due to stomach pains but my mom seemed like she didn't want me to. I think I had a test that day. The part about stomach pain ia interesting since today is the anniversary if when I first went to the hospital for my surgery.
October 19th, 2008
Note: I didn't have any recalled dreams though I woke with a bit of a jolt. Later on and tommorrow I kept having extremely vague flashes of a dream I think I had but immediately forgot. Not sure what it was but even though I don't recall anything there was something to this.
October 21st, 2008
Dream(3:13pm): Actually slept long enough to have a brief dream, how bout that! I was travelling on the road with friends, though not friends I know in real life I don't think, I didn't recognize them as real people in my life. Our car had 8 people in it and we had been travelling for hours. Of those traveling with us I only remember seeing one boy and a blond girl I think. We got stuck(stalled) on a roadside corner. I felt that we had been stuck there for hours and I thought the apocalypse had come/occurred which was why we were not getting anyone coming by to aide us. I was called a terrorist for going to get stuff(my notebook I think) in the car someone joked. When I put my head inside the car they tried to cut off my head with plastic Hercules swords. I think in this dream Barack Obama had just recently been elected President.
October 22nd, 2008
3rd(5:09am): Another one with bathrooms and Obama. However this time was in Chris's backyard trying to get stuff inside the house before it gets wet in the rain. It was a special day or event and something was written on the wall/fence/side of house outside but I can't remember what it said, I think it was a warning of some kind from Chris's dad though. I think my mom wanted me to just come inside without worrying about bringing my wet stuff in. It ended there. I did bring some stuff in though and was looking at it on the stairs.
October 23rd, 2008
Dream(2:56am): I was in the tv room downstairs and talking to my mom about deeper issues in the world. I mentioned being ultra sensitive to pyschic forces and having seen my death etc. She doesn't believe in any of that and says she's done with pyschics, hypnotists etc. She asked me how I'd like to die and I said as quickly and painlessly as possible. Mentioned Lincoln or something about age 90?. She was saying how she didn't get me and I told her I was the one who didn't get her. Neither of us really were able to understand each other or our motivations. That's where it ended. Because I was awoken abruptly some of the specifics of this dream were unclear but that was more or less what was said.
October 24th, 2008
Dream(3:17pm): I was at some place that contained a skating rink outside. There was a skater there I really liked but I was too shy to talk to her. I walked ynto the ice to try and talk to her on my mom's insistence. I told her I was sorry she was stuck skating as a punishment, I think partly due to something I did. In response to this she skated over the ice and carved words in it with her skating. She was trying to explain what occurred but said it was too long and complicated a story. I was trying to win her love. I think we were on a date at an icy place by a waterfall and/or volcanoe. It was a restaurant of some kind. I got her a giant stuffed turtle or possibly it was a real one. I also saw a live snake climbing in a tree or vine filled area. I peed on the snake for sexual stimulation or as part of some kind of ritual that was suppossed to help me sexually. An indian guy or swami/guru maybe was asking me if I ever had sex or would soon as was necessary to work. I ended up getting her a stuffed turtle or snake and showing her it's giant head then woke up. There was more to this and I think I was naked in the earlier part of the dream. My mom was also in the dream but I'm not sure where or in what role.
October 26th, 2008
2nd(6:04am): First I was in the movie theater going to see Saw V but Dad was annoyed to take me there. I went down a long hallway and then we left. I saw years tick by up to 2014. I was outside Los Angeles and saw people hanging clothes outside the windows of cramped apartments. I felt I was profesor Arturo from Sliders perhaps and was watching this movie and was appalled at the conditions.
Dad was looking at books etc. of mine came up with a paper or something. Then we went to Ed's house and he had a dog. Last saw an advertizement or review of space hotels. They weren't full blown colonies with thousands of people but small tubes with 3-4 people in it at a time. They could be weightless a few days in a small 10-11 foot room. I saw a video of it or was actually on it where I saw 3 men and a woman floating in a very small cramped hallway. This was very expensive and was located in small stations above the Earth.
October 27th, 2008
Dream(3:50am): I was in ? like our house but bigger, a mansion even. A girl(s) was staying with the family? of my chosing plus another. One of the girls was fat and envious of the other who was thinner by a large amount. She tried to tun away after crapping in a nice bed. This was in the year 2012. I try to stop her but end up reading her note. Prior to that I had gotten a call from Frank at 11:15pm on April 11th, 2009(my father's 60th birthday). I think I was describing everything to him. I don't want? to talk definately about anything so I guess around him. I don't like fat girls though and she ?.
October 28th, 2008
Prediction: Oddly enough when I was planning to see Saw V I was thinking it would be in the theater 4 way back in the theater, same one where we saw Rambo, which is where it ended up being. Furthur interesting is 2 days ago I had a dream of my dad taking me to see Saw V and me going down the hallway in the theater where it was actually playing. In that same dream I was professor Arturo. I watched an episode of Sliders about him last night before going to sleep. Very odd but seem pyschically one today.
Deja Vu: Not quite deja vu but worth noting is that on this date in 2006 it was also very windy and rainy and I watched Saw. In 2007 there were lots of nostradamus shows on like there was today and I watched 3 episodes of Wonder Showzen that I had thought about watching today before deciding to watch Duckman instead. That's just freaky!
Dream(6am): I was in some place, possibly the movie theater, waiting to pee. All I know was I was on a line and saying how I favored Obama over McCain whose poll numbers an honorable guy with had dropped??. I also felt in this dream I was told McCain won the election and I was afraid cause I had felt an Obama victory was assurred. My progressions of the future were now completely invalid and I was worried cause I felt now the original apocalyptic future I saw would come true and I was unprepared for it. Think the message was don't get too overconfident though I don't think the dream was prophetic, at least I hope not!
October 29th, 2008
Dream(2:33am-30th): Long detailed dream, semi-lucid. First as is often the case I was at Chris's house and Altof was being gross getting naked and rubbing up against people. We all scream and grandma came up to see what all the noise and screaming was about. People lied and alot of stuff was blamed on me. I was cursing maybe. From there I was at a place I've been in in previous dreams. It looked like a hospital or doctor's office waiting room area with a band, orchestra and British fascists dressed in elaborate customes to make them look like monsters with giant heads. They were all dressed in black shirts. They surround us and I think maybe England is even more fascist than we are.
From there I float down the hallway using the power of my mind and I was thinking or recognizing that I had this dream before. I feel since I'm aware of this I could use this opportunity to learn about past lives. I end up in a small bricked off room with a boy named tintone who is able to turn into a glowing dragon. He was claiming to be Alexander the Great and I was trapped there with him as another well known soul. I learn at night of a way to contact Karen by a safe. The guy had lots of books possibly of mine in his bricked off room.
Somehow however after a chase I and others are captured and given an injection for 10 years(maybe 10 years 11 months or 10.something years) of cyrogenic sleep. This society looked highly futuristic. We wake up at the end of the 10 years because a Stalin like general needs our help. The general, well Cornel actually, is Asian, Chinese specifically I think. He claims we were awakened cause he needed our help to save people as we were doctors or scientists I think. We were in a small entranceway or hall in front of a mirror. I didn't trust him so my friends and I peek behind a curtain and become invisible in order to escape. We run through some kind of futuristic village square and knocked down a woman and some children in our escape attempt. We were naked and I think the 10 year olds are afraid that means we want to rape them but I'm disgusted that they think that about us as the thought of doing that repulses me.
Eventually running we get a lead on our chasers but someone was staying stop in order to arrest us. We were heading towards the library at the time. That was where I saw a girl, a teenager I think, dressed all in white and was shouting obscenities I think. That was where I woke up. I felt if I posed I could get control of my dream as I seemed to realize what it was. I felt had I kept this dream going I really could have had a show. It ended voluntarily when I thought this was long I want to write it down. I felt I was able to control the dream and move myself using thought alone.
2nd(5:25am): From there we all go to leave and get out due to a fire or fire drill. I see us all lining up to board a burning plane or a plane surrounded by fire and smoke. The fire department or newscasters there perhaps were saying this was like 9/11 and we were in a rush. I just manage to get on a fire engine or bus to be with my class and hold on for dear life as the fire engine or transport falls over onto it's side.
From there I run into a book or videostore library to look for Krip who was real nervous and shook up over this. I figure my mom must be going crazy with worry over this. Krip was battling and shooting at odd monsters crawling or scurrying along the floor. Last or at the beginning perhaps I saw a kid reading the dictionary and I said at least he'd know what all the words mean. A teacher was standing there at the time. This was before I used the bathroom. That is basically where it ended.
Note: This was the first nite in awhile I remembered to tell myself I'd remember my dreams and it worked! Really makes a difference. Both dreams were quite vivid too so it really does make a difference.
October 30th, 2008
Dream(3:44pm): I dreamed I was chatting with Krip, Annie and others. They were complaining that I wasn't responding right away to their messages I think. Then I went to sleep and my mom woke me up to tell me a town not far over, maybe Philly(Philadelphia)was totally wiped out, wiped off the map by tornadoes. The weather outside looked dark and apocalyptic, quite terrifying looking. I was told to keep a look out for tornadoes by us. I go to close chat which I had left open and am thinking and worrying about what happens/will happen to others. I was told by some voice to worry about the tornadoes in your own yard first. That was where I woke up. It was quite vivid and my first dream during day sleep in awhile.
3rd(4:38am): I was going upstate with Chris and the rest of the family and we stopped at a restaurant where I was seen kind of a gumlike? guy. I was eating shrimp. Then we're on the road and I have to pee. We stop at a place and Chris tells me a guy was talking about was not wisely(widely?)liked. After that I'm in a backyard with Frank and Barack Obama. Frank asks if I really trust North Korea to hold onto 6 nukes and I said I don't and really don't fully trust North Korea on anything. Then he was Stephen Colbert and we were talking about books like the Audacity of North Korean Missles. After that I meet Obama like he was an old friend and shake his hand and said "Congradulations to our future black president, it's an honor sir." I told him it was an honor to meet our first black president and I felt good about his chances. I was hoping to?. Last I was hugging Colbert over a joint book I was writing with him.
4th(6:54am): I was travelling upstate with Chris and the family and I wanted to stop somewhere to pee. I was also in a public library looking at books that were set aside I think for some kind of report for school, maybe on Stalinist Russia. I forgot to write this dream down right away and almost forgot it completely so the details aren't clear. This may actually have been separate parts I recall from the first dream, I'm not fully sure.
Horoscope: Your weird dreams aren't just random (though sometimes they are, of course). Right now, they're trying to tell you something that's pretty important and the message is most likely pretty straightforward.
October 31st, 2008
Visions: As I was trying unsucessfully to sleep I saw scenes of what I felt were the afterlife. I saw a sunset vividly on an ocean which cast afternoon light on a foresty shore or plain, it made me think of Herald. I could feel the warm energy enveloping me and saw myself holding and looking at my missing notebook which I felt was in the kitchen though didn't put much stock in that feeling as I'd felt similar of other places without success. I also had alot of obessive thoughts about my death, specifically my very last moments. Oddly enough both my mom and I thought about my therapist today wondering about her health and I had one of those restless sleeps I often do when others are ill or dying. I also recalled a past Halloween where I was Trick or Treating around the horseshoe area with Diane I think and saw a dog in a fence somewhere though that might have been a dream, not sure.
Dream(3:51am-1st): I was in a place has a ? or contest to knock down by fat children? which I do as a joke for one of our birthdays as not knowing is the worst thing. We have a laugh about it but was trying to get a girl. At the end we meet asian families and their kids. We all make up for this. I was glad to be in space and it was good for them to be the first asians on the moon. There was a hot asian girl there which is where I woke up. I felt it was the 2050s and we had all gone on a trip or mission to the moon.
2nd(5:57am): I was reading a book about a guy who was abused and by using associations with a clock it caused him to recall alien abductions. However as he predicted the aliens would have contacted us by now and made our world perfect his claims were seen as false or spurious.
November 1st, 2008
Dream(2:09am-2nd): I was getting surgery on my stomach I think or perhaps just my body in general. I ended up in a small mostly barren room with just 2 beds or cots where I was thinking of aliens. I was able to move around but I think I was in quarantine. I felt vunerable and nude like I was trapped. I saw who ? my racist. A pyschopath?(pyscho? pyschologist?)who went missing was still her?. I'm now not able to worry about a crazy man who kidnaps women like me. He tells me I have everything? but I have kids and family. I am alive ?? and was thinking of Kurt Vonnegut and aliens. I also thought of nuclear war and Jericho, I might have been a survivor of a nuclear attack. We had all gone in a small room underground room where I had toys and other things and now we were coming out of his hole. We had made that room in preparation for some kind of global disaster which had come to pass. I was told all would be better but now I'm in a small bedroom and sick with something?. Other people there, I think in the showers, said I was a nice person to be around in this place. Of signigicance was this time 7 years ago I was recovering from my stomach surgery in a 2 bed room but not one like in the dream which was more like an attic. I think I had wet myself or had a wetspot on my pants in the bed(in the dream).
2nd(4:24am): I was a Slider, Arturo I think. I had slided into a super overpopulated world. It was so overpopulated I couldn't even walk through a crowded airport terminal. People were hoping that mercifully a plague would wipe out half or more of the population of 10 billion, maybe reduce it to 3 billion people, a managable level. I tried finding a bathroom and using a food court but everything was too crowded. I attended a meeting with some guys at a table but I was not welcome there and was laughed at. I think I was presuming I was someone else or made some kind of major social error.
I was then on the same or a similar world and was reading about China and a procedure to remove ass hair. You'd have your ass hair removed or shaved before the procedure then again after it and it would be gone. I saw a picture of an extremely gross hairy ass in a magazine. It involved? a place and I was afraid of the consequences of going through with it. Rembrant wanted a full makeover but I didn't recommend surgery as well as all that stuff would be ??. Think he shouldn't use it cause we'd be leaving soon and it was too risky.
3rd(6am?): Not sure if this was a dream or obessive thoughts but it was related to or part of the above. Wade had an elephant statue responsible for her rise in stature on display. She flooded a place knocking all out of a building. I asked her if she going to drown me too. She felt she was helping me. I was a blond woman and woke up when the water was all around me.
Note: In 2 of these dreams I was female. I told myself before going to sleep to dream I was female so it seems that it worked.
November 2nd, 2008
Dream(4pm): I was hanging out with Russell and we were playing all kinds of games until we played one with this string toy that snapped and hit him in the eye. I think it also hit me in the eye but not as bad. He was on the floor in the corner of my dad's room. I was calling him careless and saying we should sue the company over this since their product put his eye out. I felt he ultimately lost the eye but as a result of our lawsuit we became millionaires.
2nd(2:40am-3rd): I was in a library and accidentally bumped butts with a black lady. I was looking at trucks on sale thinking about why people liked trucks. I was thinking it was because trucks make people think of rescue which is comforting. After that I am leaving the library and see asian women climbing some place and at least one of them was really hot. I end up working on my birthday to patrol? where the asian girls met?. I had some kind of sexual encounter with the survivor, fowl play was suspected. A friend, Brian from the Sarah Silvermen show, is accidentally hung from the side of this place by being hung on a noose. I forget what haoppened to the asian girl, still holding on perhaps.
Frank and others were with me in the library. I was looking for that big 600 page Sandor Petofi book and some UFO books but then I recalled I already had them checked out and at my home since before vacation so they were probably overdue. I couldn't understand an argument someone made about humans being biologically programmed to like trucks as trucks were something we created not something natural that was programmed into our biology. If we didn't design them the brain wouldn't have indeopendently had a concept of what a truck is. It was strange.
November 3rd, 2008
Prediction:A Few days ago I was reading about how Obama visited his grandma in Hawaii and thought of her dying right after hearing Barack was elected and today she died the day before the election.
Dream(3:47am-4th): Prolong our dream?. I was in my old room downstairs living with a blond guy who got a sex change and became a blond girl who sat around naked. Government agents came and my granddad was arrested and our power was shut off. From there I'm spending nights with this blond girl who is a nudist. There is no sex between us though but I am nude I think. She was Russian and I was discussing voting for Obama. Eventually with Chris? I was gonna vote obama, see pictures. I think things got more sexual but I was only sleeping with her right of desperation?. I was falling in love but thought of killing her from??.
I end up waking at Chris's house after arrest and using the toilet to shit. In the bathroom I saw picture frames in compartments on the wall there was a picture of every inmate at our prison going back to the 1640s. I saw all the Sarajevo assassins which made me glad but Danilo Illic was the only one whose picture was exposed. I mention her I was sleeping in that small cell for many ?. I think with my LBJ on his lunchroom making. Was repeated maybe. ? felt deja vu early smart people ? ? for nighttime. At one point though I or some midget I think to get? my gun. I had just been bad timing since ????? all just a very stage Southern Hall?.
Also before I was in Chris's bathroom I was in conflict with a group of Nazis so I and a bunch of others dressed in black attack a parade of KKK guys in white robes who were marching with taxi cabs in a white pride march. We follow them to a parking lot where we effortlessly start flipping over yellow buses, cabs and cars with our bare hands as though we had super strength. I was shocked to see Chris there. He was only there cause his parents made him attend. This didn't last long before the marines were sent in and started arresting and shooting people. I slowly retreat into a grassy marsh area by the parking lot. It was muddy and I felt myself moving furthur away from the scene all the while seeing a soldier's face up close to mine clearly seeing me but not doing anything. As I slowly seemingly floated away into the marsh I saw scenes from my life go by such as an engagement ring. I felt I made a mistake by not getting married. That was where I ended up in Chris's bathroom which looked very different from the reality as is often the case in such dreams. The soldier had let me fade away to there out of sympathy I felt, perhaps for what we were doing.
I also remember that in this dream I wasn't shitting cause I didn't want to go with the blond girl around. Also she had a boyfriend or a monster who was a killer and was in the room. He murdered her or tried to. I spent alot of the time naked in my room with her but this was hard cause we had to leave the door open so my parents could come in at any time. That prevented us from going as far as having sex. I thought she wasn't really my type but that beggers can't be choosers so I stuck with her. There was also something about obama and explosives maybe?.
November 5th, 2008
Dream(2:50pm): I was outside at school for gym sitting by or on the fence. Some girl, Jenny I think, and her hot ethnic(asian?) friend come over and wake me up. I thought they might tickle me. The teacher is coming so I put furry balls or baseballs on my feet and start running with her but one falls off. The teacher says that always happens with "Mango" kids. I think the mango refference was too the furry baseballs on my feet I was using as shoes, odd as that sounds. again dreams often make no sense. I'm then inside running with the same girls around the perimeter of a track and pass some other guys sitting on the floor. After awhile I'm running the track alone and it's election day. This is a detention session and I have to run the track for slacking off. I'm running 1000 laps and then am done. I woke up there. There was also a message about Obama and civil rights in this dream but I don't recall what the message was.
Horoscope:However jubilant or mournful we are about the Presidential election, the Saturn-Uranus battle isn't over. We can still feel tension from yesterday's long-lasting opposition between traditional Saturn and futuristic Uranus as this history-making aspect continues to dominate the cosmic scene through July, 2010. A dreamy Venus-Neptune sextile enables us to see the brighter side of things while the eclectic Aquarius Moon encourages unorthodox behavior.
November 6th, 2008
Dream(4:36am): I was in a restaurant with Sarah Palin who was able to tell a joke at her expense. I was joking with her over dinner, it was truely ? used ?. She was pleasant(present) ? not to ? though ?. The president of Russia was there and Josh and/or his sex change was mentioned. I saw myself then dying in the mud trying to write and thinking about my death in my life during the holocaust.
Well that's all folks. As always til whenever......
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| Here is regression/progression I did just now, it's fairly short. The focus of this one was to get small details about lives in other times I could validate. I have to admit though gettin info that exact was difficult and I didn't feel fully absorbed in this regression. In fact the message was communicated to me during it was that I was not in a good frame of mind for it tonight which caused me to stop early. It might not be the best but here it is. Regression(Small details)-I did it life by life going in random order to random times. Going to just list each detail, memory. Quick google searches revealed little but I'll include what I found. 1950s-1960s Life -In looking at books I read in the library I saw the following titles-Of Russian Blood, Mutiny on the Bounty and some French book Le Grand something, very vague. Couldn't find anything for Of Russian Blood or the French book though Mutiny on the Bounty I know of from this life although I have not read it. Apparantly I did read it in that life. -I felt the price of a newspaper in New York City in 1962 was 35 cents. -I felt August 3rd, 1958 was an extremely hot day in New York City. Perhaps it was actually 1953 I was seeing- http://home.att.net/~ny_climo/ though info on this is hard to find. But I do get the sense of alot of hot summers in that life. Maybe I just lacked air conditioning though lol. Jill -Feel Jill did not live in the same house all of her life but that the family moved into the home I lived in at my death when I was 5 years old. -Jill was somewhat ticklish but not extremely. -I knew a guy whose name started with So??? but was thinking of the name Jeff but felt that name was incorrect. -I also saw myself in a crowded place which was frightening to me. I was a young child and wanted a balloon and cried alot for my mom to buy me one. -There was a priest or pastor I liked at my church whose name started with R, Ralph or Ronald. -Rarely went to the beach as Jill due to living far from any but I do feel we took a vacation or trip to the Texas coast maybe a few times, possibly to Galveston. A trip at age 10 stands out in my mind. I think I got sand thrown in my face and eyes, possibly by my brother. My brother comes up in my memories alot, he must have been important to me in that life. -Some incident took place at age 12. I was out too late or was sneaking home in the dark and was scared of something. I got in big trouble for this I think. This was very vague but I feel if I mentioned this to my family they'd know right away what I was talking about. Warsaw Ghetto(1940s) -We got small chewy things in wrappers as part of rations. This may have been gum but I also felt that we brushed our teeth with grease or fat cause toothpaste was unavailable. -The toilet where we lived was flushed with a chain. -Iodine or some large bottle of alcohol was kept on a shelf and used very commonly to treat wounds. -Went to a carnival where the horses on the carosel ride looked very fierce and dark and were wearing war helmets. Perhaps this was in Germany but they looked very warlike and ominous to be on a kids ride but then again it was the nazi era so who knows. 1630s-1640s England -In order to stop a wooden carriage or keep it in place a metal rod would be put through the wooden wheels to hold it in place. Hard to describe should probably try and draw a picture. -On June 1st-June 3rd, 1643 there was a major battle or proclaimation in the war that affected my family somehow. All I found for this was "1 June, 1643 Further Ordinance for the speedy raising of money, appointing members of new Committees. (cf. 30 Jan., 1642–3, 3 May and 10 May, 1643.)"- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Ordinances_and_Acts_of_the_Parliament_of_England,_1642_to_1660 Progression(2009:Month by month)-Just tried to sense the events of 2009 in general month by month. For the purposes of this when I say sick I mean sick-sick in bed, have a diagnosed illness, not just I don't feel great cause I usually don't lol. Sick-sick is fortunately rare for me though. January: Usually my most active month this year will be noticeably less active than average. Kind of off too but not by alot, only by comparison to the last 3 Januarys where I kept stats on these things. Only 4 activity days. Think I see Chris twice, go to the movies and store once possibly the same day maybe one other thing. The dates January 3rd, 17th, 30th and 31st came up as these days. February: 3 activity days, average production, little to say about it. Might be employed by then. March: A very on month overall with 6 activity days. Think I might see Frank or Justin that month, see Chris twice and maybe go to the movies twice so more active than last year. April: 3 activity days. A very on month as well though I felt my allergies would be terrible again and I might be sick sick one day. May: 8-13 activity days, potentially my most active month this year. This would be the most significant or memorable month of 2009 though I was unclear on how. Will be pictures and maybe even video from this month. June: 11 activity days and another important and active month, very on productively as well. I felt it'd be a hot month though with lots of bad storms and severe weather. July: 10 activity days. I might even go on a brief trip this month, not sure where. The week of the 14th-20th most active week of the month, maybe of the year even. Bad allergies I felt though. August: 6 activity days, very on month. Mostly average month though I felt I'd have one really important significant day but otherwise nothing out of the ordinary. September: 12 activity days. Very busy month where I think I see alot of people, may meet some new people. Again details are vague but is an important month. Productivity is so so and I think I feel sick in bed one day. October: 8 activity days. Unnaturally cold month this year. Felt like a calm peaceful month though rather eventful. November: 7 activity days. Have a bad cold and is an off month. Most of the activity concentrated towards the end of the month. Big mouth for paranormal stuff, huge spike in that then. December: 6 activity days though potentially 13. Surprizingly warm month for December espicially considering the earlier months being cold. Average to high productivity. Insignificant month, though good Christmas. Year overall: Assuming the low for activity days I will have 84. Assuming the highest 96. This is interesting because from a sponteneous feeling months back I felt I'd have between 89-97. Adding these up with the totals I got here they are consistent. The uncertainty for some months maybe indicate changeable things. Like this August I only had a few activity days though had things gone as I hope they actually would have corresponded accurately to my prediction from months before! Just worth noting. Overall 2009 is a moderately more active year compared to the last 3 but not by leaps and bounds. Felt more upbeat and interesting but still mostly neutral and not hugely different from 2008. Feel we'd have hot summer and cold winter. Details were vague but May seems to be my most important month in 2009 and the summer seems significantly more active than the rest of the year and most years in general. But otherwise same old same old, nothing dramatic. Ok on a related note a follow up on a previous regression from way back to my life in Nazi Germany. Revelevant parts in bold/underline. "After that point the next revelevant scene was me being forced onto a train and I remember I had a paper in my hand I looked at that said something like ujlimw or something starting with a U.I was with my family and I remember seeing my friends in the crowd and one looked like a nazi and was disturbed by my leaving.I feel other friends of mine went with me.I remember I did see the brown-haired girl in the crowd looking sad.Several people seemed to be hanging their heads in sadness.I remember the door locked.After that I had a few quick vague scenes such as me in a death camp barracks very emaciated and in rags.I was writing in the snow on the floor or just clawing it really.My hands looked bloody.I also recall running into a nazi guard with a huge dog and I remember him looking down at me and I was terrified.I also recall running in my rags carrying bread.I feel others attacked me who were my friends and I strangled or killed one in the process.I think I was then discovered and beaten." To that I found the following: "Far worse was the experience of an anonymous Jewish woman who gave birth, in January 1943, while hidden along with several others in an attic. The Nazis were searching for hidden Jews to be either shot on the spot or taken to the Umschlagplatz and hence to Treblinka. The young woman gave birth without uttering a sound: ". . . every sound, every murmur, even the slightest, caused antipathy and hostility among our companions of misfortune." What of the baby's cries? It died later, it is said, from lack of nourishment. Children who survived the ghetto and the subsequent concentration camps usually did so at great cost, physically and mentally. When Dachau was liberated, the American commander forced the German inhabitants of the town to visit the camp and see with their own eyes what Naziism had achieved. An elderly woman, correctly dressed all in black, spoke to one inmate, expressing her compassion. "'It must have been very difficult for people your age to endure all this suffering.' 'How old do you think I am?' Livia asked her. 'Maybe sixty, maybe sixty-two,' replied the German woman. 'Fourteen,' replied Livia.'" The German woman crossed herself and fled in horror."
http://remember.org/courage/chapter9.html And also http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Umschlagplatz .This image- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Image:Umschlagplatz_loading.jpg in particular looks almost exactly like what I had seen in my regression. Oddly although I feel I died in Auswhitz I did feel I was in Treblinka perhaps. Maybe I was transferred later on? However I did feel I was in the uprising in the Ghetto so this part is a bit confusing. I'm not sure how to explain this discrepency unless somehow I escaped or got back. I don't know though. I'll have to look into this more but it's late now. Alright now memories and dreams. Not much if any as I've been updating alot lately. October 7th, 2008 Dream(2:19pm): Barely recall but I think I had a political message involving McCain/Palin and Biden. Krip was in the dream somehow and I had to pee in it. Also there was something about how fake piety is better than true belief as it's the true believers who are dangerous. 2nd(2:57pm): I was rinsing my mouth in my sink and was wearing my winter coat. I was saying how Jesus spoke in parables and the bible wasn't literally true. As I was thinking about this and rinsing my mouth out my coat sleeve starting getting wet and I woke up. Both of these dreams seemed to be more or less recurring thoughts and there was little time between these dreams so I must have been going in and out of sleep between waking and sleep. 3rd(3:17am): Saw article about Sarah Palin asking if she the new "Bonk" girl or Boink or Bop girl. I saw her on rollerskates like one of those old 50s drivethrough diner waitresses. I think we were in the parking lot at Boulder Creek when we saw Sarah Palin got by as one of these waitresses. We stopped because no one had been driving the van which was big enough for us to use as a motorhome for this trip. 4th(5:15am): Was driving around in a car with someone, not sure who, and we dropped off this girl(Lindsey Lohan I think maybe)at a weird futuristic bar. I think teleportation or holograms were involed. There was more here I don't recall. In the last part I, as Luke Skywalker, had bested Darth Vader in combat but he then summmoned his lightsaber down from space and put it to my throat while I was on the floor so he had me at his mercy. This lightsaber was green. That is all I can recall but there was something else in this dream I forget which must have tied these two things together. October 8th, 2008 Dream(2 or 2:30pm): I was looking at old pictures I had drawn on what I think was Krip's fridge. I was thinking you could look for past life clues in them and from looking at them realized I drew a car accident in each one, alot. One of them had what looked like a black stick figure guy mangled in the car crash and was all bloody after having gone through the windshield. I couldn't see how it was possible I could miss such an obvious clue. This reminded me when younger I was afraid for the car to even so much as start before I had my seatbelt on. | | |
| This is day 8710 of my life, I added it up, yeah I was curious. If I do die on March 19th, 2067 I will have lived 30,420.75 days! Doesn't seem like alot when you really think about it does it? Well I think I'm gonna try and update this tonight as I want to print this whole thing out but wanna finish the last one first. So I'd better get started. This progression is from September 21st, 2008. My focus was to see my death experience in more detail and observe my experiences in the days following my death.Progression:Funeral/Life Review/Life Preview(2067)-I could feel myself vibrating outside of my bed trying to manifest myself to others . I am able to hear people's thoughts but am able to turn it off or use it selectively because otherwise there is alot of mental noise and chatter. I see the little spirit girl who I'm guessing is a spirit guide and recall my dream of her years earlier with the hospital and the clocks that said it was 2020. From the hospital I home in on the thoughts of my family and try to contact them. I think my daughter sees my ghost and I see people I know in the waiting room. I woke her up from her sleep to enter her mind. I feel I was simulteneously projecting my image to dozens or even 100s of people at once. I had many students who had seen my hologram before and this was similar. My goal was to give them all the same messages and dreams so that when they wake up and discuss it they will have corroboration of the reality of the experience. I can then see myself floating above the earth zooming in on people and places I knew as well as some I didn't. I see myself in Asia trying to communicate with that girl I knew in the 2050s. I hang around for a few days sending people spirit communication and telling them to mention these visions at my funeral. This seemed to be part of an experiment I had set up before dying that would help give evidence of survival after death. I then see myself at my funeral. I arrived early I joked realizing time does not exist for me anymore. I am tapping into the thoughts of the guests at my funeral which I feel is rude but I'm told not to worry as I really have no one living to tell them too and the dead don't care about having their thoughts read as that is normal. I try to send communications to the living and during parts of my funeral people stand up to confirm they are receiving these messages. This too was part of the experiment I had set up before death. As per my request there is a medium present at my funeral who relays my messages to the living. I'm pleased with the results of my little experiment and tell everyone, via the medium, to enjoy my funeral, food is on me. You only get one funeral per life so we may as well enjoy it. It is a good turn out I feel with many of my students there and others attending holographically. I mostly just observe things and don't want people to be sad. There is a diner and during it a video is played about my life, the one I compiled in February 2067(see other progression). Music is playing that I don't recognize as existing yet. The video is holographically produced. My hologram is projected and I stand in the same spot like I'm alive. I'm enjoying myself with these activities. I'm seeing clips from my show, interviews and home videos and I start to enter or relive some of those scenes. I figure it's a good time for a life review, I say you get your own it can wait this is the one I compiled. This funeral takes place on March 22nd, 2067, a tuesday. I stick around observing things in spirit form until March 24th. I'm told I can return and visit so I depart. My sense was I deliberately chose to stay around as a ghost for 5 days after my death in real time in order to try and communicate with others as part of my experiment. I can feel myself being sucked or pulled upwards rapidly and am greeted by a bunch of friends who wish me a happy death day. I was saying that it was a good funeral. First I see my parents and wife then the old guy I knew and a bunch of others from my spirit group. Eventually I am confronted by Keith who died 3 years earlier. That was the most important meeting. He told me thanks for not killing me, I'm glad we could work things out. I spend alot of time meeting with others including the soldier guy(spirit guide)who says we can talk later as again time is not an issue. I later see myself sitting down with him in a field but with a very vivid starry background where I could see whole galaxies. He said he thought it was appropriate. He tells me I did well and now was time for the big show, to see if they documented my life as well as I did. He puts his hand on my shoulder and I look up to see everything is bright white. Then I go back to my prelife as Jill. I see the Earth and souls going to and from it, it is dark. I'm apprehensive about returning and ask if I'm ready. I was told there was a battle coming but he tells me he thinks this time I can get through it non violently, it wasn't a physical battle, it was a mental and spiritual battle. I said that's the kind I prefer, no torture. By then I'm feeling like an older version of my current life self. I feel it will be a life similar to my life as Bruno, a period of time during which a spiritual renaissance would be going on that I didn't want to miss out on. He said don't worry we'll stay in touch(and we have in some limited sense). I sense the presence of the greys as well as the presence of many I will know, some of whom are already incarnate. From my vantage point I see the Earth from space at night shining on the horizon in the background. I'm looking down and asked if I'm ready . I'm given a push and feel myself rapidly falling and and descending through the rain to the Earth. The old man from my recurring dream from when I was younger asked "do you want an umbrella?" I wave goodbye to him and enter standing outside the hospital window. He asks me what I'm waiting for as I'm as I'm a bit hesitant. He tells me you'll do fine. I see myself in the womb but then am floating above my newly born self. I sense my parents are happy but I'm afraid to lose my awareness. The doctor is there saying it's a boy. I'm watching my parents, grandma and I think my aunt there visiting my mom in the hospital. From outside my body I observe the little girl and old man there and I'm asked if I'm having second thoughts. I tell them no but I'm not eager to enter the body and become dumb again(i.e. lose my spiritual awareness). I feel my body under the lights in one of those plastic beds they keep newborn babies in. I enter briefly but feel alone, weak and helpless. From here I fast forward to Christmas and feel myself on the floor and later crawling and sitting in my crib. My first word I remember was light which I feel was a refference to my seeing the light still as a child. At that stage I still see the spirit beings(old man and girl)and communicate with them but only I can see them. I also see them leaving through the window in my room. I see myself leaving with them in spirit as I leave my body in the crib. The greys take me as well from when I am just a few months old. Next I jump forward to my third birthday. I recall being very excited. By then my spiritual memories are fading somewhat. Although I still leave my body during sleep I don't recall it upon waking anymore. That's when I start feeling lost and sad but I'm still integrating. By age 4 my memories are fading fast. The greys still abduct me though. I see myself having difficulties as a kid and how difficult I was for my parents to raise. I was told that I was there to teach them the lesson that all people were unique. They had been upaccepting of people who were different in many lives but by having a different child like me it was teaching them to learn to deal with differences in people more. That is my main lesson to them. I have much I can teach them so shouldn't feel guilty. At age 6 I see myself dehydrated and I can see I'm desiring to leave this life but I chose as my final decision to stay because my parents needed me and I needed them. I had much to resolve here so opted to stay but felt empty living here. I see myself walking alone on the playground confused and looking for what I lost. As the years go by I feel myself becoming more dissconnected though I continue to integrate with my current body. I try very hard to retain what I knew but for a few years I like couldn't?? etc. I distance a bit from my memories but by age 12 or 13 is my next major life event. All of my awareness is coming back and I retained alot more than I'd thought. I was very vunerable then and that was the same time period where I met Keith, a major karmic meeting. I can see around then all my karmic baggage was coming forward and hitting me. I was told I needed a trigger, something that would act as a wake up call to get me into line with my life purpose. I see that in 1997-2001 the stress of awakening can summon? most of my knowledge returned but not as well as I hoped or as smoothly but it was a necessary conflict. It was during this period of my life that I met all my most karmically charged friends and enemies-Keith, Justin, Frank, Ted and Becky but feel I have now successfully resolved any negative baggage I have with them for the most part. Herald and the realization of my gender issues also helped to awaken me. It was the next stage of my awakening, a painful one but "you had much to resolve, but you got through it and have resolved much with my regressions etc." I have managed to move beyond it. It was necessary for growth but I came through the fires and am now much more aware for it. There were two major stages of my awakening-1996-2001 and 2001-2006/2007. The first stage was the conflict, the second stage the working out and resolution of it, gaining the understanding. Now I am in the application stage though maybe not fully able to utilize it effectively yet as I'm just coming off that stage. It may seem cruel but it was designed this way as I would not be who I am today otherwise so now I should use my knowledge. It will all come together and make sense in time, slowly but surely I'm understanding it now. I saw the current period of my life is a stabilization phase, a consolidation of the first two and things will be mostly pretty neutral until around 2020, no extremes of good or bad. That is around when I'll understand all this fully and everything else follows from there. This part is of course unwritten as I have not lived it yet, but I should do good if all goes according to plan. I am not there at that point yet so I should not worry about it. After this life I will have peace. Future lives will be free of this baggage and I will be living happy, free and enlightened for it. This will be my last life of major conflict, a life of resolution. The future will be full of love and wisdom. I feel my present life is one of reflection, not one of passvitity, but one where I should use what I have(know) now to teach others. All will be resolved. This life is like the cumulation of all my lives on this Earth, the only thing I have left to learn is joy. The last 500 years since Bruno have been leading up to this life, the spiritual renaissance both individually and globally is reaching it's completion after much conflict. But after this life it is over, it's just a brief blink in time, it's all over someday. It ended there. Just wanna make one comments about the little girl and old man. They seem to be some kind of spirit guides as I recall them in several other lives. As Tiberius I mentioned seeing similar people but could find no record of them. I'm wondering if perhaps they were simply spirit guides and that's why? Maybe the few memories I have of them are afterlife or prelife memories. Just a thought. So that completes the cycle. I think I'll post them entirety of these progressions below in one post. I don't think I have many if any dreams to add since I just updated 4 days ago and barely slept enough to dream since then lol. Til whenever. 9/18/07 -Dream: I was in what looked like my social studies classroom with Justin. Somehow we floated up into the clouds and there was a dragon or something. Hard to recall details but it was reffering to Herald somehow. -Dream or CLM:I'm actually not sure if this was a dream or an actual memory. I recall waiting in the car at some kind of post office with stuffed animals from seasame street. This was in my old town I think it was a real memory, we were by that church. But then I think I did have dreams like that possibly one related to the above dream. One involved aliens somehow taking me someplace or in the sky and another involved being in the backyard of someone's house. There was a girl there maybe running in a sprinkler. -Dream: Putting on lion mask, dentist, bees, girl in bed. 9/19/07 -Dream: Sitting in a theater curtain drawn with others there, Ted and Becky maybe. I went in some place afterwards and saw an alien T-shirt or someplace with a basketball court that looked like the one at the hospital I was at in 2001. -Dream(June or July 2002?): Carolyn walking in some futuristic city. Her head was shaved and she was attacked on the street. Might have been a limo there. This was after I started driving with my instructor and shortly after I got that disasters book in June 2002, maybe the same day. 9/20/07 -Dream: Where I met Kurt Vonnegut in some dark area like a library but in a mall. Not sure it was a library, hard to describe but was in some dark hallway possibly with clothes strewn about and he wasn't alone, there were others with him. There is a related dream where I was in the public library reading alien books and there was a flood. -Dream: Of friends I never knew who were building a rocket into space. Justin, Carolyn, Frank and Dan were there and they were in a flooding mall. There were showers in the classroom. I now realize this was the dream from September 30th, 2001. -Dream: Ken and the special ED kids hiding under their desks in class in the dark. It was during a disaster. Then I was going around town by the school and it was dark out. Aliens were involved. This was in 6th grade I think. -CLM: In 1995 when the alien autopsy video come out I saw something about it in the paper but never saw it cause I was terrified of aliens and avoiding all mention of the topic at that point, though I don't think that period lasted all that long. Even then I knew something was up with that. -Dream(1997): Dr.Smith and Penny were on some planet after doomsday. We were in a forest area with a group of survivors who I think were traveling by bus and came to a bridge with fence like the one over the parkway. After that ended up in a blockbuster video store and was being recordered in a small room in the back I think wearing some kinds of jeans or something. Another related dream was Dr.Smith finding alot of the Sailor scouts heads in jars in some odd place. It was snowy and the dream took place in winter I think. October 5th, 2008 -2nd(4am): Stuff about McCain ? of a hotel. Mom told me not to put notions of alien abduction in my head but that's ok cause I had such notions before. People got ???. I mentioned that I felt the aliens were peaceful or at the very least neutral as they hadn't invaded yet and didn't look like they were going to. October 6th, 20082nd(3:56am): Something about people like criminals not changing at least that's the conclusion I draw from watching history. By criminals I think I was refferring to the governments of the world. I was also in my old room downstairs playing videogames. I think I was having trouble setting them up or playing them without being disturbed and interrupted. 3rd(5:06am): Can't recall the details. I just remember people leaving upstairs and I had some DVDs of the Simpsons. I was unable to remember what I was thinking about so I just kept repeating "Dental Plan, Lisa Needs Braces" over and over until I woke up lol. Also think in this dream I mentioned something about my grandfather(s)living to 88 and/or 95 so I thought my health would be good even though I think I might have been ill in the dream. Now the entire progression year by Year. Progression(2008-2067):Entire Life all 30,420 days of it! 2008: Rest of the year will be more eventful than the first part of the year but nothing dramatic. This year is already 2/3rds over as it is and so far has been a very uneventful year but fortunately quite productive. I've already covered 2008 in other progressions so nothing more to say on it. 2009: Will largely keep up the trend of this year. I feel I'd have alot more social contacts and meet alot of new people so would be somewhat more active than 2008 but still largely uneventful as 2008 was. 2010: I feel this year would depart somewhat more from the trends of the past few years(2006-2009). That year seems much more serious in regards to writing and when I finally finish writing my novel and make efforts to get it published. I felt a strong inward/introspective focus for this year despite also feeling it had a more social charge to it than recent years. I felt I might travel around more that year and it would be more active still than 2009 but otherwise mostly uneventful. Really the next 2-3 years will be similar to now but increasingly more active but not by leaps and bounds or anything. Also felt the economy would be in an awful state by 2010, noticely more severe even than now. 2011: Felt it would be a more significant year than probably any of the years I've kept record for, both personally and careerwise. July 2011 and July 25th in particular came up as the most significant time of the year, possible a wedding. I felt my book would be published late in the year, maybe October or November though it was finished completely final copy etc. before July. It was a good year for me and involved alot more personal changes but less dramatic than the next year. 2012: Largely this year I'd be feeling the effects more of all the stuff that happened in 2011. Much more personal focus, a personal year more than a career or writing year. There was the sense of resting on my laurels so to speak. It was a much more self indulgent year but one also with a high focus on paranormal things. It feels like it will be similar, at least in mood/focus, to 2007. I didn't feel I'd accomplish much but did feel I'd get alot of new ideas and start new projects, possibly Jesusman. But a much more lighthearted positive year. 2013: This year feels like a much more active year on my part. Still somewhat similar to and continuing trends from 2012 but I'm noticed more and go places and do things. I felt it would be a memorable and fun year and that I might become involved with some cause and meet alot of new contacts. So a somewhat important year though not massively so, plenty to say about it though at the time I'm guessing. Politically and economically and on the national and global stage though I felt it would be a volatile year, very bad and that my anti-government would be raging massively, that it would be my one major big issue or negative focus that year. I'm more resigned over it though. In felt in other progressions we'd have a Republican president that year and there would be a major terrorist attack/terrorism spike, scare etc. this year. I felt I might even be on a trip to Washington D.C. this year, April comes to mind. My novel brings all this to focus and I write alot that year influenced by what's going on in the world. 2014: Possible sequal to my novel. It feels like a very neutral uneventful year, largely insignificant but highly productive like this year. At any rate definately do feel I complete/publish a second novel that I worked on between 2012-2014. Late in 2014, in the second half, maybe after the summer I start switching my focus from novels to television. I feel a much more lighthearted attitude that feels positive but slightly stressed. 2015: Year of high significance. I feel my star is rising is the phrase that comes to mind but that I'm much more distant from those I know now. I feel like all the people I know now just aren't there or I'm mainly interacting with entirely different people that I don't currently know, possibly met in 2009/2013 etc. I only see my current friends and family on holidays and weekends. The first half was very busy and active but September-December are very relaxed, much more social and I see alot of old friends. This seems to be a point of signficant change as in most other progressions I don't get much info on people I know now beyond the next decade or so. I don't abandon them or anything but I now seem to be with people more like myself. September-December 2015 seems to be when the first season of my tv show I saw in other progressions airs. I seemed to work on that mainly from summer 2014-summer 2015. That may very well involve a change of residence or be what's responsible for why I'm with a different group of people suddenly here. But a major breaking point from trends in my life up until that point. 2016: Feels like a walking on air high type of year. Once when I had asked what the best year of my life was I thought possibly 2016 though I was unsure as to why. The world situation is still volatile(sp?) and there was another terror attack in a different progression but it seems not to bother me. Feel it will be a highly self indulgent year and possibly also a very sexual year. My gender dysphoria might be up as a result though, that might be my one major issue that year. Overall though it feels like a mostly positive year but with an air of smugness and egotism with a fair degree of alienation from others, self absorbtion. Major year for terrorism though and my anti-government possibly quite high, feel the conflict in the world even if things are personally going well for me. 2017: I felt January would be a very significant month, possibly involved with some kind of censorship case over my show. I feel my tv show was at the height of it's popularity and that it was a very prominent year. It's also the first year I have a movie so it's a very active year. My tv show totally dominates everything that year, all my time is taken up on it and the movie premieres on June 25th, 2017 I think. I am dissappointed however as I did not have full creative control and had higher expectations for the film. It did not do anywhere near as well as projected. As a result I'm starting to dislike the series, well not the series just the amount of time and energy it's taking for what I view as insufficient returns. I want to shift my focus. I end up doing one more season but it was just renewed by the skin of it's teeth. I just want to finish it up, wrap the series up knowing it will be the last season. Outside the movie/tv show I felt it a very sexually active year, very active on all fronts with lots of personal attention. This year was interesting as only now did I remember in the 2050 progression watching it where it was mentioned that it stirred up contraversy. This could perhaps have resulted in censorship. The level of censorship might have been what made me start to dislike the series. It was a good series but did not live up to the expectations I had hoped for it. Also in the other progression the clip I saw of it was animated in a CGI/3D look that actually reminds me of commercials for the new Star Wars film now that I've seen it. I still plan to see it but I have to admit the animation looks horrible. I'm not a fan of 3D/CGI personally but it's not inconceivable all animation could be like that a decade from now if the trend picks up. I hope it won't but it looks like it will. Just found that an interesting detail that forms a corollary consistent with a prevoius progression I had not thought of lately at the time of this progression. Also significant is that at the time of the earlier progression the style of animation I saw was nothing I'm familiar with but now suddenly does seem to be appearing, so I have seen this prediction coming true in a sense. Whatever happens it seems to be my break with doing any furthur tv series due to dissappointment. Although I look back on it fondly decades later I do seem to feel I expended too much time and energy on it. 2018: Heavy year mentally, mentally burdensome. My show is still on the air but I feel or know(perhaps from these progressions!) it won't be renewed so I'm done with it. Glad to see it air but feel ok knowing it's the last season. I had some highly troubling UFO experience early in this year that seems to put a strain on my possible marriage. It's a year of very high stress, introspection and not as hugely productive as I'd like but sort of is. This experience gives me a sharp focus to return to paranormal matters, probably the most obessed I've been with it up until that point. My health also feels poor that year and I might have to appear in court or have a minor hospitalization, nothing serious but overall not a good year for my health, though an important year in my development overall. 2019: The comtemplation from the previous year becomes the driving focus of this year. My show is cancelled as I suspected so I'm free to pursue other things. I sense myself writing very volumously this year and am highly reclusive as a result. Not a big activity year but a highly reflective important time, like recent years, and extremely productive. I start on something big, personal and a very long project that totally consumes all my focus. I feel my personal issues will be severe that year and relate directly to my writing. I think I'm a bit ambivalent about what I'm doing as it would be exposing myself, opening fresh wounds and maybe going public with alot of the type of things I write about in this mostly anonymous blog. I did feel despite my reclusiveness I'd meet alot of new strange people and would have a particularly memorable birthday that year(my 36th)an odd detail that just randomly came to me out of the blue so we'll see.....in 11 years ;). 2020: Strong arguments with wife and growing distance from others. I meet more new people but otherwise shun others. I have a very tight unusual circle I'm associating with that obesses me. My wife became pregnant in March or April of that year. Since I doubt I'll change my mind about not wanting children in 12 years this would be stressful. My gender issues, anti-government issues are all very severe this year as well, ALL my issues appear quite severe thi |
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