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| Exams are over! I should be enjoying my 1.5 months of holidays, going shopping, laughing and enjoying life with friends. But all these were far from what I imagined. My heart is badly hurt and scarred with problems from friends, love and most importantly, family. Family... I used to think that I have a happy family or a common family that I do not need to worry about money matters and still able to enjoy myself with good food and sometimes, on special occasions, I get to have some luxuries items from my parents. Until recently, an ugly truth was found... The ugly truth changed this family into a broken family. My parents starts to quarrel everyday, day and night. I am really hopeless when such problems arise. I am at a lost too... I want the truth! Give me the truth, even if it hurts us! *Thank You for destroying this family... | | |
| I understand that's how life is... some come and some go.
I wonder what would my life be if you were still here with me.
I tried to be strong, but I don't know how long I will last.
Give me strength will you?
Tide me over the rough patch will you? *** Exams are coming........ 1 weeks' time! And I am still bumping around at home, not studying at all. Emotions got the hold of me and I find it rather hard to concentrate! Why am i feeling so down these days?!? I wish there's someone whom I can pour out my troubles to. I wish there's someone who's always there for me. I wish... I wish... I wish.............. I felt empty, I felt forlorn and I'm drained of happiness...... | | |
| I've got quite a long and stressful week this week. Everything just seems to be going against me. Life really sucks. I had fun ytd with my dear friends at Marina Square K box. I actually sang chinese songs. Haha. Fun. We decide to go again after our exams (: Had my health screening on Wed and the report will be out 2 weeks later. I seriously have no mood to care about the results anymore...... I've been trying very hard...
Trying hard not to breakdown and cry.
Trying hard not to let others see me cry.
Trying hard not to lose my cool.
But things got different when I got home. I breakdown and cry thru the night. It's this very immense heart pain, that kind of excruciating heartache that no other person can understand the extend of the pain. Whenever I thought of how stupid and regrettful I was, tears always welled up in my eyes, threatening to fall. I really hate things to be this way! I thought I was a good advisor to my friend when her dad passed away... I thought I could condole with her and I thought I understand how badly she felt then. Thinking back......... How facile it was to ask her to move on. I lacked the depth of understanding it. I am really sorry to have said all these out to her. Now, I really know how difficult it was for her. Especially she doesn't even shows her saddness out to us. Babe, I will make you happier and I will always be there for you. *The agony, the insufferable pain deep within...... Moving on is easier said than done. | | |
| School was still fine last week, except there's projects and stuffs... but at least there's still fun and laughters with my dear JJCAS pp (: I stayed home on both weekends to watch MobTv online. I think my computer is seriously gonna burn! I need a new lappy. Hahaha... Anyway, I got into SIT's publications and so, I am gonna be in some magazine for my school again. Hahax... I got to submit a write-up on Tues and somewhere late this week, there's gonna be another Photoshoot session with the school again. Hahaha... The magazine is for next year thou. (: It's 1 month time to exams!!! And I am not in the slightest mode to study. Shopping was always on my mind. Maybe this is the way I indulge myself with. HAHA. Booking of facial appointment was crap! We need to wait till 3 weeks later! Are they really that busy??? Okays... I am off to school now.. | | |
| Photos are up from Chu Hui's Birthday Celebrations! 
When the clock strikes 12am on 3rd June, Amelin and I went down to Chu Hui's house to give her a mini surprise together with a small cake. Hehe... Keeping her awake till we came was rather difficult. We actually bluff her that we need to re-do our presentation again by tml 10am. Lol... That pig went to sleep at 10pm!!! Anyway, it's still quite a success =) 
And so, the real surprise is actually on 4th June as we are all quite busy the day before and classes ends at 8pm on Tues. And Wednesday is our so called off day so we meet up at clark quay to celebrate her birthday. First stop was Reverse Bungee! Nice experience and we scream our lungs out. Haha. I needed to do that that day. Anyway, we had a nice dinner at a Indonesia Restuarant situated at Clark Quay too. Nice ambience and the price was rather reasonable too! Hahax... And so, all the surprises came right after dinner. I gave her a Guess watch. Hahax. Hope you love those surprises especially made for you. We love you! =)) 
Some pics from my Thailand trip! Sitting the Tuk-Tuk was indeed an experience. We got conned like nobody's business. LOL... Anyway, the trip was rather short! We were rushing around the shopping centres because all of them close by either 9pm or 10pm. Yucks! But anyway, still bought quite a few things back. I finally got my Gucci Lanyard from airport! Hahax... Loving it =) If I have a chance to go Thailand again, I am sure gonna go again and this time round, my trip has to be at least 1 week and I am so gonna bring more cash! *** So much to say, yet I don't know how to say it out. Or am I hiding it? .... I am a failure. | | |
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