| My life, as shitty as it may beSo ive had an eventful past few nights, some which will be remembered forever, while the others, all too quickly forgotten.
Wed 8/8: Warped Tour in PA, psychotic bitch sarah wont leave me alone. got home at 12:43am and layed awake in my little bed til damn near sunrise, just thinking
Thu 8/9: recouperating from the day before's activities, coincidentally ran into some friends down the street from my house, something good came to a sad end
Fri 8/10: party. miserable. theres one awesome little story to go along with this night, but if i wanted you to hear it, i wouldve told you about it already
sat 8/11: nothing too exciting happened, just chillin at the homestead. eventually going to the st. brendans festival
sun 8/12: Probably the greatest day of my life to date. I was so nervous to hear something dreadful, buteverything seemed to have worked out. Nothing could've ruined my night, nothing
Mon 8/13: nothing too crazy, just chillin out and about with some of the guys before everyone leaves for college
Tue 8/14: and ive had a revelation
And with college comes the dilhemma of keeping in touch with friends. If i really want to keep in touch with you, i will.
Like the words from the great band of DHT, listen to your heart. whether it tells you something so crazy or something so sound.
As i lay awake, sleepless nights lead me into a rush of emotion. Some joyous and some bad, but all are welcome and most definately needed. I thought about all the good times ive had with friends, and all the times i really just wished i was dead. All the times that made me so overwhelmed with happiness and the times when i really just wanted to sulk.
All this thinking at night has really caused me to learn to stop thinking and do a lot more feeling. Letting my emotions go and really letting people know how they've impacted my life, and for everyone who has, i thank you deeply.
And in the words of Dallas Taylor,
I thought you'd come back at least I prayed
The romance has been dead for years
But i've been too afraid to dig the grave
relief and support never came
memories carry me through the day
of when we were kids
and angels came to watch us play
close my eyes just for tonight
the sun still sleeps and when she wakes
a movie that plays in my mind
remembering you helps me survive
every day a re-run of the next
I promised to stay by your side
that all would change i can't complain
another victim of the game
maybe love will find us again
for there is always tomorrow
sincerely till the end close my eyes
just for tonight the sun still sleeps
and when she wakes you'll be a memory
Im sorry
and with that, i hope you can see me for what i am.
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