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Name: Jessica
Country: United States
State: Kansas
Metro: Hays
Birthday: 6/20/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Graphic Design, Photography, Music, Movies, Cars, Computers, Sports, and Massage Therapy
Expertise: Graphic Design, Computers, Music, and Massage Therapy
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  zinkerbell
MSN: zinkwoman
Yahoo:  zinkerbell_lds
Member Since:
6/15/2004
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| new job So, I got hired on the spot at Wal-Mart, I am a part time cashier during the evenings and weekends. I will make $6.40 starting out and after 90 days will get a raise if I pass my umm review. I am now waiting on my UA and background check to clear and then get into a orientation and I will be working 2 jobs.
Plus, I got a calling in Relief Society (womens organtization within the church) so now I keep track of roll and the missionary meals and visiting teaching companions and what not. That shall be interesting keeping up with all of that record keeping and Enrichment stuff and my 2 jobs. And then try to maintain some sort of life outside of working. Yes, theres a downfall to a new job, but I am totally surpassing that and looking at the long run and my goals for the Mission in the Spring of 2007. I am so excited for it and can't wait till I can send in my papers and say I am healthy and I no longer have any debt other then my student loans to worry about. I am so excited for that day to come I can even explain!
Things with Mr. Norris are going well. We have talked on the phone a couple of times and we still continue to talk on MSN for long periods of time. He is such a great guy its just to bad he didnt come along either sooner or way later. But maybe we are just supposed to become best friends so we can support each other in the Church for the remainder of our lives. I dont know the purpose he will serve in my life, but for now its nice to be able to connect with a guy on that level. I have never had that before and I am really enjoying it. Its a great feeling to know you are actually compatiable with someone and that you have a chance at a nice relationship someday. I thought I would never have a boyfriend or a guy who would even talk to me as more then "friends" so its just a welcomed thing right now, even the timing is horrible.
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| What is love? So, I haven't updated in forever...go figure right. I have been extremely busy and hardly ever home. I work from 8-5 monday thru friday, then after 5 I hang out with the Awesome Sister Missioanries here in my town till they have to be in bed by 10:30, so then I come home and in turn go to sleep after checking my e-mail and such.
So thats my life, neat huh? Okay, so today is actually my mom and dads anniversary, we just went to the state fair and walked around for a few hours and that was it, but last weekend we had this kick arse surprise party for them, its their 25th wedding anniversary by the way...so they had no clue..it was wicked sweet!
Other then that I have a job interview at Wal- Mart thursday evening....hopefully I get a job so I can get more money coming in..but then my fun time will be non existent..but so goes life.
Oh the title of my blog is what is love....thats my question....I seem to fall quickly for guys, but this one is different this time, he really is. The weird thing is we have never met in person, we have talked via e-mail and MSN and now phone. And we get along superbly, never like this have I connected with a guy. The sucky part is....if I serve a mission later this year or beginning of next, he is not the type to wait, at least he isnt as of now. Things might change, but one thing for sure is I know a mission is in my near future, but yet I might be skipping out on a wicked sweet relationship with a guy who I absolutly have fallen for hardcore. What else will life bring to me? I am waiting in the distance for the new twist and turns. I just wish I would have some warning and guidance in what to do.
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| So, time for a update I suppose. Not a lot going on. I am just working the summer away which I love. I have one of the best jobs in this town. I am in my field of study for now and loving it. My car is amazing, gives me so much freedom, I have waited for this part of life for a long time and now thats its here I love it. So, I have been hanging out with the church Missionaries for fun, and Loving it, makes me realize how much of a dream it is for me to serve a mission somewhere in the world for 18months. I can't wait till I get my credit cards paid off and I can leave on a mission unless I get married which I don't really see that happening anytime soon, but God works in mysterious ways.
I might become a Nanny real soon, I am in the process of finding a family through and LDS agency. they deal strictly with LDS families and LDS nannies. I am excited. I hope I can find a cool family on the west coast some wheres, I talked to the agency today and they said they have a few jobs in California and a couple on the East coast, I will take any of em as long as pay is more then I am getting now at the shop.
So, thats all I got for you now, other then BCCC sucks and screws people over so I will screw you back...Muahahahahaha....okay I am leaving now, later | | |
| So, do you ever get those nights when you are trying so hard to sleep knowing its late and you have to be up for work....but for some odd reason everything floods your mind and keeps you up? Last night was like that. I had so much running through my head I could not sleep a wink. But, it was good stuff, me thinking I need to change the way I act and treat myself, and then me thinking of how sweet it would be to send off a casting tape for Real World 19. But I missed it by a week. So unless the company reads my e-mail and gives me shot then that idea was for nothing. All I could think of was different things to say on camera and ways to make myself sound different and cool enough for them, and I had the perfect setup for it too. But so goes life. That kept me up about an hour because I just had to get back on my computer and check to see when deadline was and then proceeded to e-mail and be like give me a shot to send in a tape by monday...I am still awaiting their reply, I most likely wont get one. Which would be great or at least my mom thinks so, she like hates the idea of me going on T.V. and she thinks since I am overweight that it will be case to be picked on. She was kinda mean about it, I said mom its a great oppurtunity for me, and the chances of me getting accepted is very slim to none.
So, then I kept thinking about second jobs and what would I do if I couldnt make my payments or I couldn't find any classes to take so then I would have loan payments. So, I am kinda stressed about that now, but so goes life huh? I also thought about Hays a lot and how I want to be up there so bad and to start over and do well. But I am thinking now and really the only reason that takes me back to Hays is my friends, and how much I miss not seeing them everyday and truely getting to hang out. And even if I was up there, I would have to work and so do all of my friends so seeing them everyday is a huge fairytale I have in my head. So I pass that option by. But now I think more of Massage Therapy school and how I want to do that so badly and start doing that as a living, and I also want to get a degree in Photography and do that as a living. So many choices or dreams an aspirations and not enough money to do em' all. So, I shall work work work till I get all my credit card debt paid off completely which will be by next year or a bit longer now that I have the car to worry about. But I see an end near I think/hope. So, once that is done I am so out of Great Bend and this place called Kansas. It litteraly makes me sick, so I need to get out. And as soon as possible because that would mean no more allergy pills or asthma stuff, because I would stop havin the reactions to where I lived. Being in Alabama made me realize how much I am allergic to where I am living and how much it sucks to depend on allergy pills to work day in and day out for the rest of my life if I dont move. So I shall move sooner or later and hopefully more sooner then later.
So, if you have read this far kodos to you. I shall go to bed since work calls my name at 6 am tomorrow instead of the 8. So, Good night and thanks for reading this far if you did. See you all sometime later when I journey outside of GB in my new hott car!
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| I am Sofa King We Todd Did...
I hate myself and my actions sometimes. But from here on out I am done, enough of my idiocracy, no more going back on my beliefs and hurting myself mentally and physically. I am done done done and may I say done.
Thats all I got for you. Oh, and I miss Hays and going to a real school. Barton is a huge joke and I shall laugh at it, but it can kick my ass now because of loans that will kick in if I am not a student, so I am forced to return part time to keep the loans from kicking in. If I could afford Hays or further away and my car payment I would, but I have no help but myself. So, every little thing is on me, so that pretty much sucks big ones. I hate not having something else to help me. If I could only win the lottery or like 5 thousand bucks I would be great to go for the rest of my life because it would take all my credit card payments away and then I could move and live comfortably somewhere. Grr my luck, maybe I will play the lottery soon and try my luck with the other 100 million Americans trying their luck too.
Good night!
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