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| So my first entry in a long time... its good to be back... Solitaire As I sit and consider myself- my strengths, my weaknesses, my insecurities, my life… I’m listening to a track off of the Play disc by Moby… its soothing... and reflective... and pondering-like... I wonder why I'm confident in myself... I wonder why I'm so blessed... I wonder why I have a hard time changing... I wonder why I/we as human/s make some of the decisions we do... I wonder why working out is hard for me... I wonder why I'm a dreamer... I wonder why aaron reeves has such a creative mind when it comes to random voice-messages brought over the phone... I wonder why God is sooo good... though I wonder these things and many more, I guess I can't have answers for all of them right away... I'll just keep playing solitaire and keep wondering... | | |
| Its after 10 p.m. on Sunday night and I am in the prayer room @ the IHOP (international house of prayer)... its such an incredibly peaceful peaceful place where the Spirit of God rests and dwells so evidently... Clay Edwards is leading worship right now with an incredible team of people around him... passionately leading us into the throne room... and I sit here and ask myself, "Why the heck do I waste so much of my time apart from the presence of the LORD?" I mean, do I live in the presence of the LORD at all times, or do I drift? And the intimate time that I desire with Him is often further from me than it should... so in other words, my heart is broken, and as tears stream down my face right now, I so realize and see the intimate heart of our God that I know breaks when we flee His presence or refute His presence... I mean, yeah, do I pray often when I'm not just sitting on my bed or my couch with my Bible open- yes I do... but soaking up the intimate presence of my loving Heavenly Father- there is nothing like it... its so much more than just a process or a program... its a way of life... I started reading the book Blue Like Jazz tonight and read the first chapter to my parents and on the first page of the second chapter, the author Donald Miller says, "I believe that the greatest trick of the devil is not to get us into some sort of evil but rather have us wasting time. This is why the devil tries so hard to get Christians to be religious. If he can sink a man's mind into habit, he will prevent his heart from engaging God." I always harp on the religious, but often, I feel as if I fall into that same religious spirit as anyone else... and I am tired of being that religious-rightwinged-absolutedriven-righteousindignant in any way that I am being it... let Jesus be the judge and let us love Him and others with reckless abandon and pursue His kingdom and righteousness and let Him deal with the imperfections of us and others in His timing... all my ramblings for now... keep your eyes open for more... I love you, xangaites... Peace be da journey (a.k.a.- Cool Runnings)...
The Keller | | |
| Fellow Xanga-ites,
I know at times that we as Americans have made big mistakes when it comes to fighting for the lives of others... often, we choose war and sometimes it is needed... but there is a great war going on in the lives of those who have no means to fight back... In Africa, daily, 30,000 children die due to starvation and diseases related to malnutrition...
Every day in Africa:
• HIV/AIDS kills 6,300 people
• 8,500 people are infected with the HIV virus
• 1,400 newborn babies are infected during childbirth or by their mothers' milk.
Please Check out http://www.one.org and sign on to help end world debt and world poverty... it is something that we can do... to make our voice heard... comment back and let me know what you think... I believe God smiles on what is happening here... as people reach out trying to make a difference in the lives of their brothers and sisters...
Seeking to impact the world,
J.Keller | | |
| Hello there friends of mine- today is an odd day- but so so good in the midst of being odd... Do you ever have days where simply trying to make it through is so hard? I mean, when all you can do is think about one thing (most likely a trouble you are going through) and it seems so difficult to get past it? Yesterday, I was with my thereapist and we were talking about what it means to be centered... and centered on Christ not some new age thing or anything like that... and it seems that often, I get running so fast or so consumed with something that I lose sight of so much... and so today, for the first time, I was able to stop, center myself, and move beyond what I was so consumed by... and it feels so freeing... Praise God... I hope and pray that today is a day where you choose freedom...
The Keller | | |
| Ladies and Gentlemen of the xanga universe...
This week is my U2 week... or maybe it will always be... I am such a fan and think there music is so incredibly written... let me know if you car a whoot about U2 and then one more thing for you... gone is the nooma nooma guy, and now... I present to you... my finest internet acquirement to date... please do not forsake watching what will surely make you wet your pants... click on the link below... it will make you wish you were chinese!
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-6739710473912337648&q=chinese&p
Blessings...
The Keller | | |
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