Tv seems to think being in the grip of raging hormones,juggling 50 diff subjects,frenz,first love and more.That things are easy and clear-cut; that there are real answers when the truth is,we're just beginning to realise that there really arent and life is an open ended book.No skool today..i mean i dint go cos no exam for me today.So can goyang kaki,not really goyang but can chill and wake up later than usual.I love the new Usher's Burn.Kinda meaningful tho.In a way.And Britney's Everytime.I heard that this video clip is bout her cutting her wrist and die in the bath tub.And her parents aint happy bout that.Duh since she dirty the bath tub wif blood and they might never use it again...ok joking.Why would someone wanna cut their wrist and die?Its awfully painful and sting when the cut touch water and its ugly.It leave scar.Well,guess when ur trying to suicide u wont think of looking pretty huh.Whenever u listen to a song that u think reflect to u,u couldnt help but wonder,if there would be a happy ending.

Whenever u say something to comfort people,and that person doesnt seems to "get it"..If ur in her/his shoe,u wouldnt hear a thing too.Its always easier to say than to act on it.Sometimes,every little thing just brings back too many memories.And u might want that person so badly in ur life that ur falling deep and hard and not willing to let go eventho u know the fact that its over.Its not like it happens to me but guess i think too much bout it.Which is not good.Sometimes,u shouldnt think so much and damn,just act on it!And songs nowadays always seems to be sad-break up-song.Like Eamon's Fuck It (I dont wan you back) and his ex,Frankee's Fuck U Right Back.Haha its one hell of a hilarious song."Ur sex was wack and I had better sex all alone?".LOLz.Its like a story from both side on why they break up.I love Jason Mraz' Remedy.

I find it kinda meaningful.Maybe its just me!hehehehe..Life is good.Ppl come,ppl go.When it comes to "I'll be by ur side forever","Frenz forever"..i highly doubt them.All i would do is,I'll treasure Everything i got now,shine and leave the worries behind becos it all amounts to nothing in the end.Why worry whether that so n so person likes u too or not/when to confess bout ur feeling or Wat can i do to make her/him like me and feel the same.Why bother?Do you think that person will waste his/her time thinking bout it?Fat chance.Be urself,do ur usual fun stuff,have fun and love will certainly come along.And,u dont need to be loved back to love.I ripped this off from the bible when I was reading them and these words are soooo beautiful!

"Love is patient,love is kind.It does not envy,it does not boast,it is not proud.It is not rude,it is not self seekin,it is not easily angered,it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.It always protects,always trusts,always hopes,always perseveres."

Woke up early on a Sunday morning.Kinda tired but well couldnt Zzz anymore.Argh having alergy.cant get my hands off my own skin.I think I'm hungry.hahaha I was so tamak yesterday.i ordered a watermelon juice,sago lolo,erm this thingy I dunno wat isit,rojak and satay.Wanted to order more but there isnt any edible food there anymore.Right after my food arrived,Pookie say the food down the road is way nicer.He should have tell me tht earlier.ish.Talking while eating is good becos the person next to u dont realise he's actually finishing ur food for u.lolz.hahahaha.I dint finish my food cos hahaha i just couldnt finish it.But I still wanna eat.lolz.So we head to Haagen Daaz.But on the way,I saw this hawker selling chestnut and i couldnt resist buying them.My resistance level is so low..ahaha..finally i can cross the road like a pro roadcrosser.ok it might not make sense to u but..haha wateva..By the time I reach Haagen Daaz,the chocolate fudge doesnt seems so appealing anymore cos on the way there,we're talking bout shit.Then we to shop all around the area and damn the weather is so freaking hot.Im still in the buying-the-food-but-not-eating-them mood hahaha.

I have take tons of cabs alone. Although I know quite a few people hate the idea of taking a cab alone because of the risk of meeting a serial killer, I don't mind it. So, from all my cab rides I have realized that cab drivers, like everyone and everything else, have categories. I know it's shitty being labeled and categorized, but all that spare time of solitude at the back of a cab has given me loads and loads of time to think.

The best kind of cab drivers are the ones who smile at you and say "Thank you" after a ride. They engage in small but nonetheless amusing chats with you about the song being played on the radio, family, religion, philosphy, etc. They talk about Malaysia's infamous traffic jams and entertain you with their stories about all their memorable customers in the past. These kind of cab drivers make the usually dreadful minutes in a cab whizz by and when you've reached your destination, it feels like you've made a new friend although you've only known him 15 minutes. They are honest people trying to make a living. And they speak English! You don't know how great it is to have a cab driver that speaks English!

The silent cab drivers are the ones I meet the most. You open the door, mention your location. They nod curtly and you get in. The rest of the journey remains silent. I like these drivers. They don't ask too many questions and you are left with minutes to look aimlessly at familiar scenery. And then- LORD- we have the final species of cab drivers. The worst of the lot. The perverts. To be stuck in a cab with a cab driver who keeps looking at the rearview mirror to check out your breasts is a lot like hell. I usually shift and sit behind the passenger's seat when I see this happening and pray that he gets his eyes gouged out and fed to Koi fishes. Also, there will be the predictable, lame ass, sure-sign-of-a-perv questions:

1)"Adik Cina ke Melayu?" (Like hell it got to do wif him)
2)" You cantik la.." (A girl might be flattered at any other time this is mentioned, but by a dirty, disgusting cabbie- UGH, ICK.)
3)"Nak pergi shopping ke?Nak beli apa ni?"

I was watching this movie by Katie Holmes. The storyline is dumb.Its about a turkey.Yes,turkey!Its about thanksgiving and she invited her straightlaced family for thanksgiving dinner.She then discover her oven doesnt work and went hunting for one.Yeah and this guy kidnapped her turkey and she call the cops.Overall its still about the stupid turkey.So I guess the main actor is the turkey.Well i gotta go...

*yawn* its saturday..the laziest day of the week..right after friday ( the best day of the week) and right before sunday(days of obligations..im not talking about religion alone)..yeah anyway..wat am i gonna do today..im suppose to study!yeah..like im-not-gonna-talk-to-u-kinda-study..lolz..i can see wer this gonan lead me for the next few weeks..this blog will be left sad n cold..haha i hangat hangat tahi ayam..yeah im suppose to like study hard so tht i dont need to rush stuff the next week but..im lazee..ah laziness..devil's tool..He been using it on me alot!So now I am just sitting opposite my computer screen, completely bored and doing random things online, i.e being nosy by reading other people's Blogs.boring...yay..im goin to sungai wang.accompany pookie to buy his phone.at last tak jadi studying.hahaha..i must really repent!had this really weird dream yesterday.I was about to broad the plane to go overseas to study..but i dint go at last..cos i miss my mummy.However, I can't wail til the day I go overseas, away from security. I can't wait for the day I start getting pangs of home-sickness. Simply cannot wait til the day I begin to miss the chaos and noise pollution, and start downloading the song 'Downtown'. Woohoo. Just a few more years.But I'll miss my mummy.she wont have anyone to mess up her kitchen anymore.Can i sneak her into my baggage?I really hate it when together forever wont come true.Its just so..*undescribeable*.I'm nervous and I'm worried that I'll never achieve what I want. It doesn't seem like there's enough time in my life to boost the chance of achieving what I want. I know I'm being stupidly whiny because the voice in my head is saying, "God. You're onli 17. You still have loads of time". I know that's true, Mr Voice.

But I can't help it. I don't think anyone can think about their future and not end up worried that they'll end up homeless, or depressed, or worse- dead at 35. I think I'm selfsh. I think I'm a dreamer. I want all my dreams to come true.Seeing ppl wearing my design and perhaps one day..my own label.theres so many things i wanna become.like a tattoo artist.Sounds fun.I once told mom tht i wanna open a cake shop..haha ok if paul is readin this..he'll be thinking "Oh,before jual sure habis dimakan this babi"..lolz..thats wat my mom said too.But,its so interesting becos u get sell..fine i admit it..u get to EAT various kinda cake.Perhaps i wanna be the one who bake them!lolz..ok silly me..hey maybe one day u'll c the bakery shop name Zee's Story.ok i ripped tht off from breadstory.Maybe I'll just marry this old fart whos a billionaire and inherit alll his money..thts like after i kill him and use all his meat to make ham and make money.HoHoHo.Its the heat i tell u..hahaha..its driving me nuts.anyway..thts all for now..i mean for the afternoon.cya!

Heyyyzzzz!!Today has been pleasantly boring.exams!!(dont wanna talk bout it hehe) yeah so get on wif ma humble day..hmm..the weather is whoa-so-hot..and its killing me!bless the person who creates aircond.Note: Britney Spears has admitted she is not a virgin. Hahahaha. I find this fact extremely funny. I think no one really believed her when she said she was. Maybe with the exception of twelve year olds. I don't know. The news is all over the Net- Yahoo, Netscape. Shows how much power she has although she is a so-so singer (amazing entertainer though). Apparently, she also smokes and drinks- woohoo, you go girl. It's time you broke free from your (fabricated) squeaky clean image. SHE HAS ALSO ADMITTED TO KISSING COLIN FARRELL. AUGH! There's no fucking justice in this world. *grumbles* She gets to shag Justin Timberlake (yes, I do think he is one hottie) and kiss Mr Farrell. And Charlize Theron is with Stuart Townsend.

yeah so i figure bout things i wan!!

1) To travel the world. I want at least 10 stamps on my international passport (not the one that allows you to travel to Singapore only). I want my home to be decorated with wooden figurines from Bali, boomerangs from Australia and a preserved ice-cube from the North Pole.

2) To study and live in New York. I want to be part of the City that Never Sleeps. What's so amazing, to me, about NY is what it says in the tagline: it never sleeps. The thought of owning an apartment high above the city, looking at all the lights while you're battling with insomnia seems.... breathtaking, even though the image was conceived in my head.

3)A car..Vios!!hehe sexy brad pitt driving it...drool..ok get on...anyway yeah any car will do.been dropping crazy hints to my mom about getting me a car so tht i can fetch her eat bak kut teh every weekend..and like duh she dint buy it.

4)Tattoo!! argh haha my current obsession besides piercings.its just so artistic.hohoho..dunno i just wanna get one..and yes i will!its just the matter of time and $$ [terry say when i grow older,it will ber kedut..ewwness...haihz well o'berry..u make ur point clear haha]

I hate the fact that people come and go so easily in our lives. We spend countless of hours with people we think will last our entire lives. We make silly pacts to conquer the world as a music group. We sign our names along with meaningful/meaningless things like "Friends Forever".

Friends Forever, really? Honestly?

hahaha i doubt it!

Take That "Never Forget"
We've come a long way but we're not too sure where we've been
We've had success, we've had good times- but remember this...

Been on this path of life for so long- feel I've walked a thousand miles,
Sometimes strolled hand in hand with love- everybody's been there,
With danger on my mind I would stand on the line of hope,
and I knew I could make it,
once I knew the boundaries I looked into the clouds and saw,
my face in the moonlight,
just then I realised what a fool I could be,
just 'cos I looked so high I don't have to see me,
finding a paradise wasn't easy but still,
there's a road going down the other side of this hill

Never forget where you've come here from, never pretend that it's not real,
Someday soon this will all be someone else's dream..this will be someone else's dream

Safe from the arms of disappointment for so long,
feel each day we've come too far,
yet each day seems to make much more,
sure is good to be here,
I understand the meaning of "I can't explain this feeling" now,
and it feels so unreal,
at night I see the hand that reminds me of the stand that I make,
and the fact of reality

And we've come so far..and we've reached so high
and we've looked each day and night in the eye
and we're still so young..and we hope for more
but remember this
we're not invincible,
we're only people.