zoethegreatfish's Xanga

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 03:21:32 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wHNVZDW9eQs&feature=related

bono is a good person with a bono vox (good voice).

Friday, February 22, 2008

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 04:39:43 GMT

I feel like I’m always disappearing, drowning into myself, and then they only way I get any air is when Christ pulls me up.

Friday, February 15, 2008

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 04:03:02 GMT

Thought for the day:

so the great miracle of Christianity is that we can reach "Nirvana" without being this perfect, understanding, absolutely pure and benevolent being. We don't need to re-live this life over and over in order to "learn the lesson." We are asked to be Christ like, but never expected to be Christ (or Buddha).

we die, but dont have to suffer the sting of death. we are granted peace with so little effort because God is a perfect, understanding, absolutely pure and benevolent being. i dont kow how it works, but Christ's blood, sacrificed, cleanses us and makes us worthy to stand before perfection. We will be given heaven... only because He loves us. Not because we figured anything out.

How weird is that?
It always seems that Christianity expects less from us, but offers an equal reward. I can see why that would make people angry.

But wow, imagining that you are the greatest sinner, how grateful you would be, if this were true. That you will be given Paradise, simply for believing... and maybe we don't even have to do that.

But, given such a great gift, I would hope that we would Want to believe.

*** just recording what is going through my head right now... not trying to preach.

added later:
all this suffering. i can suffer, but then never suffer again. This is it. I hurt now, but its medicine.
I wonder if we all have to learn some great universal truths before standing before God. How do we learn it if it is not in this life? (example: put others before yourself... if u dont learn it here. How do u learn it in the afterlife without some sort of suffering. There is this idea of redemptive suffering - hurt that is good for you, teaches you a lesson. I wonder how that works - or if our minds are just opened completely standing in God's Glory - like a great understanding. People who have had near-death experiences talk about this enlightenment. Understanding everything and being filled with love and peace.)

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 06:32:38 GMT

"How much suffering and fear, and
How many harmful things are in existence?
If all arises from clinging to the "I",
What should I do with this great demon?"
Shantideva

i kind of hate the person i was in the past couple of posts.
i was happier, but not better.

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 22:49:10 GMT

i wish facebook did not rock the face off of xanga. i kind of miss it. its old school.
f'ing html B!tch.
ps. i heart female orgasm.

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 06:54:07 GMT

i cant do my work and i dont know why. did i forget to take my meds. yes. you dumb b!tch.

well - im glad that xanga is good for having a breakthrough as to why I am not being productive.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 02:55:34 GMT

if you have facebook - you should definately check my profile. I put some new pics on... one album is very fun. You get to see a rarely revealed side of me (come on you voyeurs).

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Thu, 18 Oct 2007 21:49:03 GMT

I haven't been on here for a while. Just letting old friends know I'm alive.

I work as the graphic designer for the GLBTQ Resource center at Kutztown University... I'm happily out now. I'm working toward my Art Ed. Teaching certification there.

I made a new close friend named Josh Leh. It makes Kutztown feel like it has purpose. I think I would be very homesick if I didn't know him.

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 02:57:50 GMT

i like brazillian music.
Ceu is the flavor of the day. look her up on itunes. I'm listening to her album right now. very chill. it makes me want to have friends over for wine. give the appearence of affluence without being an ass.

me life isnt making a left turn so much anymore. i think im back on the road. going where i am supposed to go.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 13:41:35 GMT

im at work. temping. doing data entry. my eyes hurt. my heart is peaceful.