Disclaimer: Due to some possibly stereotypical comments and possibly offensive ideas, you are advised not to read the following. If you do, know that i cant be blamed for what i've said here, being that all i've done is stated facts that i've been observing throught my 3 years of highschool. Although i see these as facts, you may have your own opinion about them, aand i respect that. If you feel the need to explain your own opinion about something, just leave a comment and i wont argue you. (unless you are downright lying or just pissing me off)
I'm a nice person. I really am. But, sometimes... things just get to me. Like our highschool society for instance. All these damned social classes or, "cliques" piss me off. And yes, i'm going to be stereo typical in what i'm saying now. Its just a long time of observing shit that pisses me off that i'm lett'n out here.
First of all, (not necessarily about the cliques) people that are overlly emotional all the time piss me off. Some people are actually that sensative and cry over certain things that most people wouldnt. and i can sympethize for them, i dont have a problem with them. But, the thing about it is that there are other people that are continuously being negative and trying to inflict their negitivism on others. Either that or they're trying to simply get more attention from it. Which downright pisses me off.
Now on the flipside, there are people (which happen to be mostly in the so called "popular" clique) who try to look like they are constantly, never faillingly (although thats not a word) happy all the time. Are you kidding me? Life is not that good! Its not bad, but its not that good. For some reason everyone in this "popular" clique feels the need pretend they are always happy and smile all the time, laugh over stupid jokes that are truly not funny, and then... to top it off much of this "popular" group gets their happiness by instilling sadness into anyone outside of their clique. Dont get me wrong, there are some really really nice people in this class. But there are also cruel, and ruthless people that enjoy flaunting their popularity by making sure anyone that isn't popular knows they arent.
And in the same repects, these ridiculously "happy" people show no emotion outside the realm of happiness until somehting bad happens. Not just anything, but something bad must happen that involves their little "popular" world. Once something like this does happen, then suddenly from these (in all other cases) happy people you see sadness, discomfort, or even compassion.
I'm sorry to say, but it is impossible to be yourself in that class of "popular" people. You have to conform to be like everyone else. Dress the way they do, be constantly happy (or atleast act like it). As far as i can see, the majority, or even all of the people in this class are in some way plastic. And by that i mean they are fake. People in this class dont know how to express themselves, they only express what the other person is expressing who also happens to be copying his expressing from someone else and so on.... all to be popular.
For all the reasons i've listed above, that "popular" class just downright pisses me off.
So what happens to everyone left out of this Popular class? They form their own cliques always feeling inferior to the "popular" people. Theres the farmer clique, the ghetto clique, the drama clique, and the druggie clique and obviously several others. Now many times these "outside" cliques intertwine with eachother. You know why that is? Because subconciously they feel united by one thing. They wont admit this even to themselves, but subconciously (meaning that they dont conciously think = they wont believe this to be true) they all feel inferior to the "popular" people and all again, subconciously wish they could be "popular" too. This unites them whether they think thats the reason or not.
On the other hand there are some "popular" people who dont feel suprior to anyone, but most do. Many of the ones that do, end up mooching off the "outerclasses" in a lot of different ways. One way that comes to mind is for drugs.
All of that just downright pisses me off.
And one more thing, and possibly the most sickening thing of all, is that the supposedly mature adults teaching at and running our school (whether they'll admit it or not) go along and support the use of these cliques by favoring (possibly subconciously) one clique over the others (which in most cases happens to be the "popular" clique... weird huh?). And if they aren't favoring the "popular" students or at least the ones that might appear to be, they're favoring the "jocks". And guess what? MOST of these "jocks" happen to be in the "popular" class. That just downright pisses me right off.
Maybe this is connected to that or not, but something else that gets to me, is that our school shows no interest in anyone outside the "popular" class. When they have those pep rallies at our school, and they have those games and relays where the student classes (frosh, soph, junior, and senior) have one representative compete for them in front of the whole school JUST FOR FUN, how often do they have someone thats either a Jock or a "popular" person representing their class in these games and relays? ALL THE TIME! Infact thats all i've seen. Am i to believe that the entire student class is "popular"? NO! then why the hell is it always being represented by someone "popular"? Was there a vote held in the school or soemthing that won them the representing positioin in these games? If there was, I didn't see it, not in any of my years at the school. Who decides the contestants of these games anywayz huh? Who holds that power? What i would love to see is someone different, not, "popular" involved in these games. But you know what? It will never happen, because no one would care to watch that game. That, and situations similar to that, just downright piss me off.
It sickens me the way our society works in our school. AH! lol
So anywayz  , it feels good to finally get that out. lol. I might think of more later so check back if you'd like!
By the way, what finally made me decide to share my frustration with everyone here, is something that has most recently been pissing me off.
It pisses me off is that people always think the worst about things. Like, the fact that we had the requiem of forgiveness (which was for derek) recorded and that cds were going to be sold. Everyone assumed several really (excuse my french) fucked up things about the entire event and the selling of the cds. I've heard it all. "Nicks only doing this to show off his music" or, "i can't believe hes going to try and make money off this by selling cds" WHAT THE HELL?!?!?! None of that is true at all!
Firstly, I deff did this with a very spiritual and holy intent. At no point in the coarse of the requiem's creation was i thinking "man, this will sure make people know i am musically inclined!" are you kidding me?
Secondly, am i making money off the recordings? NO! It was never and at no point going to benefit me! Any and all money that was collected from the CD's is and was always going to be donated to some kind of a suicide or teen depression institution for example "The Link". People need to fucking get all the information before saying shit like that and destroying someone's name. (like mine) I'm not even the one distributing the cds. Mrs. Sidle and my mom are doing that.
Yes, if you said either of those things or anything like it, i've heard it, and i know whos said it. And thats what i was reffering to in a prior entry. | 
