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Name: Dana
Birthday: 11/5/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Everything. See about me.
Expertise: I like chemistry, spanish, soc/anth, and sometimes biology
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
11/27/2005
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| Three months!
I googled quotes on heartache. As if a quote will somehow make me feel better... Here are some I found fitting.
Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the
same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to
love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you. ~Author Unknown
Don't worry about losing. If it is right, it happens - The Main thing
is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away. ~John Steinbeck, 10 November
1958
Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them
broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together. ~Author
Unknown
They say that time heals all wounds but all it's done so far is give me
more time to think about how much I miss you. ~Ezbeth Wilder
I prithee send me back my heart,
Since I cannot have thine;
For if from yours you will not part,
Why, then, shouldst thou have mine?
~John Suckling
"The difference between friendship and love is how much you can hurt each other." ~Ashleigh Brilliant
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| lifeLife shouldn't be this complicated. Sometimes I wish I didn't think so much. But really, why am I here? Am I here to somehow right the wrongs of the world and save humanity from all the problems it has inflicted upon itself? If so, what's in it for me? By the time things are fixed (if that's even possible), I will probably be dead, and there will probably be a whole new set of issue to deal with. So maybe I'll look down from heaven and be glad for what I did, but then what if there isn't a heaven? What if this is it? Should I be enjoying life while I'm here or worrying about making the world a better place? I'm trying to do both, so I guess that will have to do. Why should I care about anonymous people in the future when there are people right here and now who I can help, and who I get satisfaction out of helping. Why do I care? Ok, so I guess I shouldn't work in policy. I should work directly with people. I already knew that. But if I work directly with people am I really helping them in the long run? Or am I just putting a band aid on a bigger societal problem. Does it matter? Does anything really matter? I mean really the only sure thing is life is that I'm going to die. Who really cares what I do between now and then.
P.S. "Our Lady of the Assassins" is the most depressing book ever. Don't read it if you want to avoid thoughts like the ones above.
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| Spring!Dear future Dana,
Don't go to med school in Ohio or Michigan or anywhere else cold unless it is the University of Michigan or Mayo. Winter sucks!
Love,
Dana
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| VolunteeringToday I went to a church in Columbus for the first time to help with a group of kids whose parents are taking ESL classes. I'm going to start doing it every Monday night from 6-8. I really had a good time and it reminded me that I'm going to enjoy being in Bolivia this summer no matter what. Kids are so much fun! I was playing with two little girls. They were probably about three and they were just going on and on to each other in Spanish. It was adorable! One of them was talking on a play phone and I asked who she was talking to. She told me her husband in Mexico, lol. We put some simple puzzles together, and I played Pictionary with some of the older kids. It was a nice night and I was able to just forget about everything except being there with them. It really put me in a good mood, and I think maybe that is part of what I felt was missing. I just need to figure out how to fill the rest of the hole and we'll be good.
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| HeartacheMy heart hurts and I don't think it can ever feel whole again. It seems like every time I start to feel a little bit better something happens and I'm suddenly back where I started. I think the one thing that could help me is to find another guy I like. Not even necessarily date another guy, just find one to have a crush on and flirt with. I need reassurance that there are other guys out there that could be right for me and that maybe even like me back. Unfortunately, so far no one has measured up. I know I'll find someone eventually, I just can't imagine going on feeling like this for much longer. Well I can...don't worry, I'm not suicidal or anything. Far from that, I'm actually really happy. I just feel like something is missing. If it weren't for that I could be really really happy for the first time in a long time.
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