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Wednesday, September 17, 2008

  • i feel so hopless right now,
    its hard to explain...
    help me please i beg...
    im a pathetic person
    left in despair...
    nothing will ever be fair
    as long as i live...
    as long as you yell,
    as long as i live
    you'll hurt me...
    please end my pain,
    please im begging you
    save me from myself,
    save me from everything that
    hurts me and me only...
    yes i know its not
    worth a fight for
    but my life is...
    but as long as i stay
    alive, i'll be the death of
    everyone who knows me...
    im sorry for this but i have to go
    i have to leave to my
    grave now
    so forever remember this,
    remember the pain....
    remember the suicide i held dear...

     

    this is how i feel right now...i want to die! just as i thought all my f***ing suicide issues were gone....heh....i get this! i get to yell at my father-which hurts me so,so much- and he yells back things i hate! please someone help me....please....

Monday, September 15, 2008

  • when can you help me?
    when can you save me?
    i'm stuck in my misey
    in my pain
    in every thing that hurts
    yet you dont see
    that this is the real me
    you say you care
    which by the way, isn't fair
    to lie to me about
    am i that awfull to be with?
    am i that unsinificant other?
    why me?
    why us?
    now emotions flicker all over my face as you read them:
    pain.
    love.
    hate.
    anger.
    death in side.
    suspicion.
    loss.
    agony.
    they repeat till you walk away
    leaving in despair.
    ....help me....

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Sunday, July 06, 2008

  • you choose help

    even though no one's posted yet, I'd thought you might need help on who to choose.  first off: basic info., personalities and that's all for now but if you have any questions i'll be more than happy to answer. one question i thought you might ask is: WHY DO YOU WANT US/ME TO DECIDE WHO DIES AND WHAT'S THIS FOR? To the first part: well i can't decide who to kill off and well... that's why.  To the second part: it's for my story i'm writing.

    here's a summary and/or what's going on the back if published:

              It's not easy being abnormal. - and it's true, for Selina Mae Cartwell that is. Living as an OTC drug abuser, an Alcoholic, a Suicidal being, and a second rape victim, she struggles to keep her insanity at bay. Yet this is only the start of all her more corrupting problems.

              My mom see's me passed out on my bed - this starts it all. She's hiding from her going insane mother and the search party that's looking for her. But her only major problem, beside the other minor ones in her eyes, is- she's fallen in love with her rapist! What's to come, she doesn't know. Can she find the sanity to stay alive with the guilt or will it all corrupt all in vain?

     

    Selina: brown eyes- thigh length auburn hair - pale tone complexion - 14 years old - had to go through parents divorcing - depressed 95% of the time - other 5% unknown so far - loves chocolate - favorite colors: black red green purple hot pink - (any questions asked i'll answer. above is some personalitys and basic info)

    sorry i can't post anymore for right now but the rapist is almost like/exactly like her but her mom's way different

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

  • you choose

    He pulls out a gun and does the unthinkable. Everythings silent in my eyes. I hear nothing...only see. I hear a heart beat racing, a sound of a click, a bang from the gun, and a blood curtailing scream from a woman. But I don't know that it's me screaming...I don't know if I'm dreaming...It feels all to real to be a dream. The only question is: Who pulled the trigger?

    who gets shot?

    A.) the guy

    B.) Selina the girl

    C.) Selina's mom

    you choose. thanks.

zurusun

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  • love poetry that makes you think of yourself in that specific position. no matter what rock it is, you'll have me hooked to it!! i'm not the emo that cuts theirselves... i'm the type who just is.

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  • zurusun
    p.s. internet explorer makes my site run site. your xanga makes my site run slow.
    • Posted 6/6/2008 3:51 PM
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  • zurusun
    hey! sorry i had to get off. i only get 20 min. look up http://youtube.com/watch?v=8FVb_76H16A&feature=related please. if the song doesn't pull up, then look up youtube.com withintemptations - frozen. I love the song now!!
    • Posted 6/6/2008 3:48 PM
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  • sakuracatgirl
    are you there
  • sakuracatgirl
    i have internet explore
  • zurusun
    hello? any body there?
    • Posted 6/6/2008 12:41 PM
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  • zurusun
    nothing much you?
    • Posted 6/6/2008 12:38 PM
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  • sakuracatgirl
    hey whats up
  • zurusun
    come on people.... nah that's a joke. post something PLEASE
    • Posted 6/6/2008 12:34 PM
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  • zurusun
    okay skrew that! post whatever you like.
    • Posted 6/3/2008 7:47 PM
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  • zurusun
    well well well..........nothing intresting going on any more....guess this worlds gone dull.....i think.
    • Posted 5/11/2008 8:25 PM
    • by zurusun