alright well it's been a while....

so heres the thing...i'm a little freaking out and a little freakishly excited.....i want my life to go the way that i've always hoped it would- but i'm afraid i'm going to fall flat on my face. But i've realized that it's all in GOd's hands and i need to let him show me where to go and what to do... which has always been hard for me because i'm such a planner....

but i'm still really excited! i mean this is senior year- what we've all been waiting for since kindergarten.... and then that's it- we're out on our own- for me going across the country where i'll probably end up seeing my parents once a year... mainly because i haven't the slightest idea where my parents are going to be my freshman year---

i just don't want to be the kid that is so excited about being a senior that i'm out with my friends all the time and forget that this is my last year with mama- who is the only person who as every really cared about where i end up- i want to spend more time with her than my friends this year.... but at the same time this is my last year with my friends too!

i think i need to stop freaking out because i know everything will be fine

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things seem to be getting out of hand and me missing two days of school couldnt have possibly helped..

i feel like i'm not being a good enough friend to some people....and too good of a friend to other people.....and i feel like nothing that i really want is being accomplished....

my dream has died- which sounds really dramatic but its true....now i'm not sure about what i want to do with my life....i have ideas but that's it....and whats worse is that i feel like i'm the only one who is worrying about what will happen after high school.....no one seems to even care we only have 3 more semesters of high school then we're done and off to our new lives...i just hope i dont fall flat on my face

every relationship i have seems to be changing and i'm not sure how i like it.....in fact i feel like everything is changing....

Hello......

Well I had an update request so here I am

Life has been INSANE lately...so much homework so little time...but i'm loving junior year so far

gosh i really dont know what to say

well....my christmas rocked....me & tiff have had sooo much fun (even though she & mother went on a cruise w/out me) i got a laptop & some cute pjs.....and some super slippers(alliteration!) from kali-o - fred & lucy- speaking of which i got to see kali after over 1 1/2 years!!!! we had a ton of fun!!! i miss her already! benny & joon-- steven & stephen---peter pan....great times....

anyways thats all for now!

much love (youre welcome courtney ; ) )

so yesterday was the first day back to school.....it was actually really fun.....i loved all my classes except two- but i plan on changing at least one of those!

being at school made me realize something....bittersweet i guess.....but i'm really glad i realized it or i would have ended up being miserable the rest of the year

i miss kali so much! she the most important person to me & i'm so glad to have her!!!!