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| StressedI am stressed at the current moment. A friend of the family, Theresa, had been diagnosed with Brain cancer last week. We had been a bit sad but yesterday was the hardest to take. She had a choice of taking the chem o to save her life but she would be depth, blind, mute, and possibly mostly paralyzed. She didn't want that and the doctor told her she has 18 months to live. My mom started sobbing again. On top of that, Jessie dropped out of her class. She said it was too hard and she would receive a refund if she did which is not true. I gave up my birthday present to let her have the money to go to college but she just dumped it into the trash. I am upset with her since she just wasted money instead of sucking it up and at least trying to the end of the semester to when she then could transfer. On top of that i found more nasty rumors about me at school. I just hate people who believe every gossip they here before they meet the person. it shows that people are weak minded and are easily influenced. anyway, i had to get it off my chest, i may seem like nothing bothers me in the real world, but i do suffer like anyone else. I just wish some people understood that. anyway, i will try to think at school today. since i am falling behind in two classes i have been struggling to catch back up.anyway, it's time for me to head to school so i will end this post.
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| UpdateIt's been forever since i updated, i look at it now and it's been a year. I guess i should catch people up. Apollo is dead and we have a new dog now named Sophie. She is is very sweet dog though sort of submissive. We assume she had been abused since she when she was around men she was skidish.Soon she came to love the family and she loves to have her belly rubbed. The year went by with the stress that seems to follow our family. In an older post i posted on how i disliked Andre jessie's boyfriend at that time. well i wish i could have posted on taking it back before but it's too late now. He had died in motorcycle accident after the two had been broken up for about 2 months. She was very hurt so i had to help her. Jessie is now very lazy. she goes to college and all but turned in papers late and now is going to CTC instead of kennesaw. She also rarely cleans around the house so i have to clean more. I was sick Christmas eve which sucked... but i prayed for healing before Christmas and despite i was the last one to receive the stomach flu, i was the first one cured which was cured by midnight (( a miracle if you ask me)) New year eve i spent alone, my parents were at a party and my sisters were off doing their own thing. i felt a bit lonely... but i didn't want to spoil their fun, though i do wish i was with someone during that time. School life has been going steady... i had problems with my teacher Mrs.Santos.... i hate that teacher. I am so glad i don't have her again... i will leave it at that... ranting about her would take quite a few pages. Everything seems to be going smooth and working out. It's hard to believe i am going to graduate soon. I got my permit finally and i will be getting my lisence by October. And there you have it a quick summary of my life in the last year
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| Goodbye apolloApollo has to be put down. I am really sad to have him go. we have Had
apollo for a total of 11 years... and he is too old now. Mom is putting
him down next week. She asked me if i wanted to go and i said no... i
don't want to watch apollo get put down. I feel so bad, because that
dog was so loyal to our family. He slept with me when i was sick, he
was there to comfort jessie and mandy when tey cried and evn helped me
when i cried. The sweetest dog i have ever knew. He still will love you
to death too. It makes me so sad that we have to kill him off earlier
instead of him living his full life span. That dog missed us so much..
when we weren't home you would howl and cry. He hated it when we were
gone. I know, without a doubt that he would rather be in pain and be
with us than to be rid of before hand. It's another blow to my heart...
after apollo, all i will have... is dogcat. Dogcat is old as well. I
feel like i am loosing family members again. it also doesn't help that
my eye is in pain. Damn it... this all sucks.
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| Yeah as i been thinking recently, Kayla is going through a bit and i
guess me being a boyfriend isn't a good idea. technicly we are no
longer boyfrined and girl friend though we technicly never had a date
hehe. Anyway, i understand what she was telling me and it makes sence,
i can deal with being a friend for now. I didn't exsactly just blow
over me liek it didn't affect me, it hit me in the heart a little but i
can understand what she is feeling anyway. Plus i rarly got to talk to
her. This wasn't a good time for dating or going out, it was just bad
timing is all. Who knows, we could go back out, we may never again.
It's all situational now, but at least i feel as though it wasn't my
fault, it was just bad timing for both of us. Any way, back onto life.
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| I am hooping about happy as can be. I have a girlfriend now. She asked
me and i answerd yes to her(( though it took me a day because i was
afraid of hurting a friend who used to like her but doesn't anymore))
My heart has been pounding all day, i feel that life in me again. =^_^=
Her name is Kayla, she has long black hair and answers my xanga from
time to time.((Frog love pbanj's)) It feels good to love again, and
Kayla is speacil to me. She has a mechevious side to her but it's
playful and not bad. I went to her house today and we hung out
for quite a while, her siblings wouldn't leave us alone but we found
alone time. her brother was like me when i was a kid and her sister
sounds almost just like kayla but a slight pitch difference. I don't
know her parents all that well, her mom is fairly nice but i don't know
her dad well. She is going through a stressful time with other person (
can't remember his name)) and i tried to comfort her as best as i
could. She is also grounded at the moment and i have to wait to see her
in person more often. Right now her family doens't know about our
relationship cause she jsut broke up with a guy (( not because of me))
cause she didn't like him that much so her friend don't quite know
since today was when we started to go out,(( so please don't comment
about our relationship on her xanga, her sister reads it sometimes))
other than that we are waiting a bit so i can earn her parents trust
first.
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